(Relax now fans!!!All things come in time!!!Why not dedicate a good whole chapter of lovey dovey to the most fitting couple in naruto ever? They deserve it after all, dont they have a whole load of fans???? You are the proof. Hehe ;) So, this is a short chapter, and mostly wrote it because this is a romance fic after all, and thought it was necessary for the overall plot, even though it seems unneeded to you right now. Enjoy!!!Btw, I am going to a party tonight and it will be my first attempt at getting drunk and talk to the guy I like!!!Wish me luck!!!Ok sorry forgot this isnt my personal diary. K…I'll silence myself. Kisses!!!)
Chapter 7: Watch What You Wish For
It was a nice but cold night that one Sakura spent in Sasuke's arms.
She opened her eyes slowly, next morning to find him next to her, semi asleep, semi awake.
Sakura smiled as she looked in his half closed eyes. He seemed so cute the way he was grimacing now, after a deep long sleep in the freezing cave. But ever since her body was attached to his, she couldnt tell if it was cold or hot around her. The feeling it gave her was too much to focus on anything else exterior.
Sasuke looked back at her, getting a grip to reality slowly. Sakura smiled and kissed his nose.
He smirked, dragging her closer to him and rubbed his cheek against hers.
Sakura couldnt help but blush, even after their last hot encounter in the embrace of the previous night.
''You are so cute.''she whispered before she could realize it.
She noticed him blushing lightly. She put her hand on his cheek, running it down slowly on his skin, as touching him had become a need for her anymore.
He suddenly moved his hand on hers and grabbed it abruptly which made her blink in confusion.
For a minute she felt like he was getting distant again, when she felt his other hand burrying itself in her hair and pulling her on him, as he placed his lips on hers.
She put her free hand around his neck, as he let the grip to wrap his own around her back.
The kiss lasted too long, and Sakura could feel him kissing her like he was desperate for her touch. It felt like it was something mutual between them. He sucked on her lips violently, but it wasnt mere lust that motivated his forcing moves but it was his own feelings that now were scaring him but he couldnt just help but hold her like that and kiss her.
Everything that had happened last night lingered now in his head and he refused to imagine him living without Sakura. It was weak of him, but he couldnt control it for the time being. He hoped that after some days passed, he would return to his normal well reserved self.
She pulled away and Sasuke gave her a cold stare that made her freeze.
She wondered what he felt but he was unsure of how she felt right now. Was it that she broke the kiss? She couldnt tell.
She retrieved her own glare from him, to give in a sad expression as she played with his fingers on her hand, trying to distract herself.
He noticed it and moved his face closer to hers, whispering.
''I will never let you go so dont think you are going to walk away from me now.''he smirked as he noticed a mixed expression of mild fear and also satisfaction in Sakura's face.
She turned her glare on him, blushing. She wasnt sure how to take this, as a declaration of love or as a threat? She loved him so threat wasnt so strong on her but still her memory blank didnt help her decide.
She tried to look into his eyes, his onyx glare cold and intense, she felt that she could not hide from him.
''Sasuke,…I…''she muttered as she felt his finger on her lips, motioning her to stay silent.
He pecked her softly and slowly moved away and got up, without removing his glare from her the whole time. Sure his glare was cold but all that intensity showed something was inside that man, something more than just an ice berg for a heart.
She watched him as he turned his back to her and put on all off the clothes he had dismissed last night.
''I am out to get us some food.I wont be late.''he said and turned slightly to nod at her as he walked out of the cave, letting her with a disappointed look on her face. She had hoped the lovey dovey scene would have lasted longer.
And secretly Sasuke did too but he was still split in half. One part, yelling at him that Sakura was rending him weak, the other saying how he should just stick to her because she was the only person in his life right now that could make him feel like that.
She slowly got up and looked at herself, her blood from last night, the lost virginity blood was now dried between her thighs. Gladly it wasnt so much, and it hadnt stained her other clothes.
She shivered at the thought of last night. She never expected that cold person to ever do such a move on her. But she couldnt say she hadnt enjoyed it. The smile on her face hanging the whole time was a proof.
She picked up the vest and pulled it on her shoulders as she walked out of the cavern in search of some water in the area to clean herself.
She spotted a small river some meters away and she walked tired there, as she let her legs dive in the freezing water.
She clentched her teeth, as she couldnt control her trembling and she put with confidence her hands in the water, cupping it and brining it between her thighs, removing the blood marks from her skin by washing them off over and over again.
She suddenly saw Sasuke in the corner of her eyes standing next to her.
Woa, how had he got there? He sure was mysterious and silent.
She turned to look at him and a sweet smile gave out a soft giggling from her side.
''Ah, Sasuke-kun, there you are…''she said as she moved closer next to him, now clean of everything she intended of washing off.
He stayed still but gifted her another cold look.
''Hn.''
''What?''she asked playfully as he raised a brow on her.
''Dont wander around without telling me first.'he said in a pissed tone that he was trying to control. Even if he knew they were well fine blocked, he still couldnt help but fear for Orochimaru and his minions spying on them.
She placed her hand on his chest, smiling in confusion.
''It is ok, dont worry about me. I can take care of myself.''she said.
He gave her a stare as he removed coldly her hand from his chest.
''Just do as I say.''he repeated earning a confused , pissed and hurt glare from Sakura, all in the same time.
''Dont treat me like a child, Sasuke.''she said, her anger shyly shown in her tone.
''I'd like not to, but cant help it if you are weak…'' thus you are making me weak too, he thought the other half of the sentence but never let it out.
Sakura couldnt believe in her ears. After all they had been through last night and he was treating her like that now? What had changed? Why was he so angry that she had moved away? Something was all weird about it.
''Is there something I should know?''she said deciding not to insult him back.
''No, just stop being a weakling.''he said and she mentally thought his tone was suggesting she was a burden to him.
She tried to supress the tears of rage and hurt in her eyes, and she saw him moving away, out of the shallow water.
''I'll keep on the hunting, you go back to the cave.''he ordered and she stared at him pissed.
He noticed her glare, but something about her getting annoyed was amusing him.
She stayed silent as he walked away and once he left, she let her tears become one with the river water, as they dove in it, rushing away from her skin.
She slow y moved herself out of the little river and left some traces onto the snow as she rested for a bit outside, looking around her distracted by the view.
Big snowy hills were surrounding the place and it seemed abandoned from every form of life, despite for the few black birds flying here and there on the naked branches of the trees.
But she knew there had to be animals there, Sasuke had found fish the other day and if there was fish then there would be bears and such and so on. The circle of life.
She sat for a bit on the snow, observing at her legs which seemed to have suffered a lot before she lost her memory and shivered at the thought of it. She hated to admit it, but it felt as if her forgotten past was darker than she would like to know.
She saw Sasuke returning back to the cave, as he noticed her still outside and said nothing but only gave her a glare before he turned his back on her.
She sighed and got up, following him inside the cavern. Even when she was mad at him she couldnt help but seeking for his presence.
He let the killed rabbit by the now put out fire and didnt look at her , as he was arranging his things around on a corner.
She gave him a persistent look but he was ignoring her.
''Will you tell me now why you overeacted before?''she asked behind her teeth.
He walked back closer to her, his stable pace made her back off slightly.
She couldnt prevent the tears she had been holding for so long from falling.
She could notice a light hint of regret in his glare but it was as always covered by a cold emotionless expression.
In his way out to hunt, he had thought he should relax for the time being, and stop having regrets around his lingering to her and try to enjoy their happy little times.
''Are you done with the questions?''he asked, nodding the rabbit to her, mentally meaning they had to eat.
''Get lost.''she whispered as she moved away and supported herself on the entrance of the cavern.
Sasuke gave her a confused look. That girl was so childish and even if it was annoying him at times, he also found it cute.
His look softened as he walked over to her and slowly placed a hand on her shoulder, rubbing it.
''Please, Sakura, lets not ruin this.''he said in a low soft tone.
Her back turned on him, she refused to turn and look at him.
''Ruin what? You already have. Once you are cold, then you go nice on me. Stop confusing me. It hurts .''she said as her body trembled from the light sobs.
He frowned. Boy, was she persistent. He hugged her from the back, uniting his hands on her waist.
He gently sucked on her shoulder skin as she tried to push him away but failed.
He smirked.''Sorry for before.''he said. He, an Uchiha was now asking sorry to some medic nin, indirectly begging for her attention to turn back to him.
She turned to facet him, feeling akward with his sudden sweet moves. He could never be stable, could he?
She gave him a cold look as he took her face in his hands and kissed her.
She tried to resist but he muttered between the kisses.
''You can be all mad you want, I still wont back away.''he smirked as he felt her getting irritated by his mocking attitude and tried to bite his lips.
He was amused her move, as he replied with sucking her lips in response, smirking in the mean time.
''What do you not get?''she asked placing her weak clenched fists on his chest and applying a not so efficient force to push him away from her.
''Shhhh…''he motioned.
He was getting annoyed by her resistance now and he gripped both of her hands , locking them inside his, as he dragged her on him, and pressed her tight against his chest, pulling her in an intense kiss.
Sakura finally gave in and started kissing him back, their tongues dancing in excitement. That feeling of the mutual need for bonding was in the air again, making her breath in hardness as she felt humiliated on her failed attempt to keep a mad face at him.
Now she was even kissing him, god it was so annoying how he knew so well how much control he held over her. It was scaring her.
He finally let her pull out of the kiss and she backed away slightly, giving him a frustrated look.
''Happy now?''she asked noticing a grin on his face.
''You should have known by now that I always get what I want.''he said winking at her and turning away.
Sakura was left speechless. God, did she want to punch him both and hug him right now.
His attitude was cute and arrogant both in the same time.
She watched him as he walked over to the killed animal and put on a fire, placing it on it and letting it roast.
She sat on a corner and waited for the food to be ready.
He went and sat next to her, placing his arm on her shoulder.
He loved being with her, and he loved being open with her anymore. He never knew he would ever be able to feel such things.
Sakura gave him a soft smile, not being able anymore to pretend she was pissed off at him.
He smirked at her, and caressed her cheek. She scolded closer, forgetting all about the previous episode and fell in his arms, in joy.
He couldnt prevent the smile that reached his lips when he saw her move. It was so nice being loved.
He felt again how weak he was for giving in but he needed to have fun for sometime in his life, so he kicked that feeling away for the time being and started playing with her hair. Her head on his chest, listening to his heart.
''If this is how loving you feels, then I could care less about remebering my past.''she said and Sasuke almost flinched at her words.
He had forgotten that her memory could return back from time to time and when this would happen he would be doomed.
He forced a smirk, but Sakura noticed his sad look and hugged him.
''Why do you frown, my love?''she asked, rubbying her cheek against his.
He gave her a soft look.
''Hn..''he said as he prevented any further questions by flipping her around, her back on the floor, as he got on top of her pinning her with his body.
She giggled, boy he could be quite unpredictable at times.
''Lets see…for every question I will respond with a kiss. How is that?''he asked as he saw her glare widen and smirked at her innocense. He could be too daring if he wanted to and now he was just discovering it.
Sakura smirked.
''Ok…uhm ahahha,do you like me?''she asked and she felt his lips touching hers in a sweet peck.
''Do you love me?''she asked and then she felt his lips this time pressed hard on hers, as he took on sucking hers with fury.
She flinched, trying to prevent the lust moans from coming out.
He smirked. She blushed. She felt she wanted him again, though she was also thinking how his reaction to her second question might signify something.
If it was a yes, then he must have loved her a lot. If it was a no…then…she was screwed.
''Dont stretch over it.''he said as he had noticed her frowning.
''I suppose you will never reply to such a thing, will you??''she asked, half annoyed by his cold stance.
For a response she received another kiss and he enjoyed the sudden blush taking over her everytime he did this.
''Oh, god, that was another question, wasnt it?''she said noticing her goofyness.
''This one, too.''he said and repeated the kiss.
''Oh god, stop it, will you?''she said giggling to his sadistic but cute little game.
He kissed her again, smirking as she was trying to push him away. She felt stupid for repeating her mistake twice now, even though she felt good with him in top of her kissing her all the time. She finally managed to flip him back and sit on her knees, trying to hide her face out of her intense blush.
Sasuke noticed it and immitated her stance, hugging her softly.
She was partially shocked, she could never have expected him to be so loving, he seemed the total opposite before the previous night.
She hide her face on his chest and started giggling.
Sasuke couldnt help but smile, she was so cute and he couldnt help but feel affection holding her like that. She was so innocent, so childish it made him feel ligth in his soul too.
And god knew how much he needed that.
She wrapped her arms around him, wishing they could be forever like that.
Finally, Sasuke seemed to sniff the air and turn around to see the rabbit being burned from too much roasting.
''Ah, the food!!!''he said letting Sakura go and he ran over to the fire and pulled it away.
For lunch, they had a burned rabbit.
In the afternoon, after they had fell for a siesta next to each other, like empty bags, they finally woke up and Sasuke suggested they went for an examining stroll, to see if the roads had been cleared or some other sign of rescue.
Sakura agreed and took on following him wherever he would motion after they were out of the cavern.
He would walk over the snow, and look close to it, which made Sakura wonder.
He was looking for any signs of Orochimaru spies but she had no clue of course.
Then they walked downwards, checking the roads leading to Konoha. They were blocked again, but some part of the ice and snow had finally moved away. Still they werent open enough for them to cross through.
Sasuke turned and looked at her, trying to hide his dissappointment and Sakura tried to cheer him up.
She took a handful of snow from the ground and threw it at him, giggling.
Sasuke smirked mockingly, snapping out of his worries, as he took notice of her little game and he immitated her, getting her a good snow ball on her face.
She fell backwards, giggling and rolled on the ground, gathering all the snow she could in her hands before throwing it back at him.
He walked to her and she tripped him to the ground, eachone on their knees fighting and throwing snow balls at each other like little kids.
Sakura finally gave up fighting and jumped on him, making them both roll around each other and on the snow paths, uncontrollably, as they resulted in some slope, with Sasuke on top of her.
He smiled as he watched her smiling, amused. She gently pulled her fingers in his raven hair and dragged him on a kiss and he took on the move after that, with affection.
They both kissed and made out on the freezing snow, uncaring for the cold wind and the even colder pavement, focused only on their inner passion which seemed to be stronger than anything and anyone else at this pace.
After 30 minutes they gave up acting like little teens in love-but wasnt that what they were?- and got up, Sasuke helping Sakura stand up taking his hand in hers and he chased her back in the cavern, where they kept hugging each other and being happy.
They stayed down lying, not caring for anything, like it was the end of the world, and then took on talking and chatting about various things, most of them nonsense.
Sakura asked Sasuke what he liked more about Konoha and his answer was:
''You.''
She smiled and the talk took on from there, but it was about irrelevant things.
Sasuke would have normally thought of how low he had fallen, but she had such a huge effect on him that he didnt even annoy his mind anymore so often with this theme.
When night came, he had a surprise for her. He took her hand in his and pulled the vest over both of them, forcing them that way to stay body close, and he asked her to go out with him, in the woods, for a walk in the night.
She gave him a confused look but she accepted, just being close to him was enough for her.
He dragged her with him as they walked for some minutes in the woods, with Sakura trusting on Sasuke their destination.
They took on talking.
''Sasuke, once you said you didnt like me. Do you think we are going to keep being the same way after we reach Konoha?''she asked in a depressed tone.
Sasuke looked at her stoically, he hated questions and even if he didnt , he really didnt have an answer for her, at least none she would like.
''I do like you.''was the only thing he said and he felt himself blushing cause he had spoken without thinking and Sakura was now grinning happily at him.
They finally reached the desired spot, as it seemed since Sasuke nodded silently to Sakura to pay attention and dragged her after him onto a small hill, which was free from trees or any other things blocking the sight to the sky.
She gasped in awe.
It was a clear spot from where they could see the incredibly beautiful stary sky, glittering in all of its blue royalty in that awesome night.
A tear of happiness rolled down Sakura's cheek and Sasuke now expanded his hand to her, asking her mentally to join him on the ground where he had sat.
She took his hand and he dragged her close to him as she sat down, putting his arms around her and stared up at the sky.
Sakura immitated him and couldnt avert her gaze from the stunning galaxy, but in that one minute she closed her eyes, she remembered how her and Sasuke when they were both on team seven, would lay down at nights and do the same thing.
This moved her and she turned to look at him, and she noticed blushing he was already looking at her, with a smirk.
He caressed her hair as he removed his glare from her and laid back, blushing lightly that she had caught him on action.
She smiled shyly and laid next to him. He placed his arm under her and dragged her closer.
She rested her head on his neck, and her left hand on his chest, as she could feel his heart's palm beating softly on her skin.
It was fast but soft. Almost like he was excited.
He kissed her forehead, as they stayed silent, watching over at the sky, in each other's arms.
This also brought old memories back to Sasuke, the only nice ones he used to have from his childhood.
A star fell and Sakura yelled almost in excitement.
''Sasuke!!Look!! A falling Star!!! Quick, make a wish!!''she said her eyes shining inhope.
''Sakura, these things are for kids.''he said sighing lightly.
''No, they are not!!!Just do it!!Trust me.''she said annoyed by his lack of belief.
''1,2, 3….go!''she said as she closed her eyes and made a wish.
Sasuke frowned as he found all this stupid but did the same.
The star kept its short journey on the sky, as it inclined downwards its route and fell somewhere along the other parts of this planet, blinking in its last breath before it hit a far away ground.
Sakura opened her eyes and a tear was rolling down her left cheek.
She had made a wish for her memory to be brought back.
Sasuke opened his, in boredom.
He didnt believe in these things but he had done it either way.
Sakura turned and looked at him.
''Hhaha, that was fun.''she said wipping her tear away.
Sasuke looked at her , emotionless.
''Hn.''
''Oh come on, dont be so serious…''she said giggling as she let her head rest on his chest this time.
He took on playing softly with her hair.
''What was your wish?''she asked him.
''Not telling you.''he teased her.
''Why not? I will tell you mine in exchange.''she said cutely.
''Still…''he sighed.
She frowned. Why did he have to be so secretive at times?
''Fine.''she said.
''I will tell you mine, either way.''
''I wished for my memory to return!''she said smiling as she expected some reaction from Sasuke, as she had turned to look at his face.
She only noticed a hint of worry for some seconds but it had gone away as soon as she had seen it.
''Hn.''he said.
''Damn, aren't you talkative at times?''she said teasing him, partially confused with his indifferent reaction.
In reality, Sasuke just felt sad when she told him her wish, because even if he didnt believe in wishes and miracles, he only could not help but feel his stomach tigthening, in the thought of Sakura getting back her memory and the tragic consequenses coming with it.
Then, all they had lived in two wonderful days till now would be crashed without second thought.
And even though he knew this would eventually happen, he didnt want to lose her. He knew he had to accept it, though.
''Sasuke, I love you.''she whispered and she felt his hand touching her face softly, as he pulled her on him and kissed her under the stars.
She enjoyed the kiss, not worrying over the fact that he hadnt replied in the same way, since she felt this was common of him to not talk a lot about his feelings.
After the kiss, they kept on looking at the sky for some more and then slowly decided it was time to get back at their refuge since the wind had started getting unbearably cold.
Sasuke loved the fact that they had done this crazy thing giving the status of the situation, cold weather and such.
He felt like a kid again, that did everything that moved it, without caring for the world.
Sakura was happy as long as he was.
They returned to the cavern and Sakura laid down, after Sasuke pulled out some blankets he put out off his bag for her and covered her with them, caringly.
Sakura nodded gratefully to him and closed her eyes, trying to calm down.
She felt tired physically and needed some rest after all that making out.
Sasuke let her doze off as he wandered a little inside the cave, silent and pensive and then he went and sat just outside, his thoughts heavier than ever.
Her wish had troubled him a lot. Just the thought of it. What would happen if she found out the truth? Probably never forgive him. Or could she? And forget everything and just give in her love for him? He didnt know. He would have said back to her that he loved her too that night lying onto the grass but he was afraid it would fall to the void when she would get her memory back.
He stayed like that, trying to prevent his tears from falling down. He had never experienced such a strong inner battle for anyone else, other than his brother, Itachi and he once more cursed himself for letting him bond with her so much. That is why he hated bonds, they can only bring long term misery, when the happiness is only temporary and pathetic.
He wiped away the tears that ran down on his cheek now. He was a man and men werent allowed to cry and now he was ashamed of it.
He slowly and unwillingly, slid down under the blankets and let his arms wrap around Sakura, hugging her softly, as he fell asleep after two hours of depressing thoughts, trying not to wake her up.
He finally slept off.
In the morning, Sasuke was already up and and was observing Sakura as she woke up and rubbed her eyes, looking at him.
She wipped away the tears that were running down her eyes uncontrollably, bitterness and rage consisting the whole of expressions on her face. Her whole body was trembling so much from the sobs that Sasuke was afraid she was in the midterm of some up coming emotional crisis.
Sasuke looked at her with a bad feeling.
''Sakura, what's wrong?''he asked stepping away from her.
''Some wishes are better not to be made…''she said in a frustrated tone and got up, throwing the blankets in fury out of her way.
Sasuke threw his glare on the ground.
She knew, finally, sadly, she knew.
And now he knew , as well.