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Devi/Nick POV
Telepathy/ flashback
I DO NOT OWN JONAS OR EVANESCENCE!!!
As soon as I held Nick in my arms, I knew I wouldn't be able to ever let go, to ever let him leave, but I knew I would have to, somehow. I felt Devi shaking and I felt Nick's head resting contently on my shoulder and I saw his hand go to Kevin's. I saw the happiness in his eyes and his need for us, but he pulled away and the hug was broken.
"Joe, Kevin…" He started his voice on the edge of breaking from guilt and anguish.
"Save it little bro. We know, so don't bother saying your apologies. We're your brothers, we will always be there for you man, and we love you." I interrupted, getting a small, sad, but lovingly smile from my brother. I pulled him into another hug and he instantly pulled me closer. His actions made up my mind, and I was about to live up to my nickname, yet again, of Danger.
I grabbed Kevin's wrist and pulled him and Nick into a run, towards freedom. Devi shouted something and ran after us, Macy following closely. The click of a gun being cocked was lost in the sound of our pants, and someone took aim.
JOE'S POV
My legs carried me faster than ever before as I ran, pulling my reunited brothers towards what I believed to be safety and freedom. It took a few seconds, but suspicion set into my heart as I realized no one was stopping us. My eyes widened and fear gripped my heart and caused the butterflies in my stomach to take flight as I realized what this could mean.
I felt Nick pull himself from my grasp, but instead of stopping, he ran next to me with incredible speed and knocked into me, forcing me to fall with a thump and for Kevin to trip over me. As we fell, Nick moved in front of us and a loud, dream haunting bang echoed from the trees.
Nick stumbled back and fell to his knees, breathing heavily and clutching his left shoulder. Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw Devi push Macy down, and another bang shattered the silence. Devi fell to her knees, blocking Macy from view, clutching her right arm. Crimson liquid pulsed through her long and pale fingers and turned her white shirt red. Her blue eyes filled with anger and pain as they scanned the trees, her mouth forming unheard curses.
"Are you guys alright?" Nick asked us, his voice strained and filled with pain. I turned my attention back to him, regretting that I did not ask him the same thing.
My answer stuck in throat as I took in his paler than normal skin, his pain filled brown eyes, and his own red blood pouring from beneath his hand, turning his flannel blue shirt crimson and staining his skin. His gaze wandered around, stopping on random trees, resting on Devi with concern, before returning back to us. I met his gaze, my fear must have been clearly shown in my own brown orbs and Nick smirked through his obvious discomfort.
"I've had worse." He said, nonchalantly, which scared me more than it comforted me, because I realized that he had. I looked over at Kevin; his mouth was slightly ajar, his eyes wide with terror and his face pale as his eyes rested on Nick's hurt shoulder.
I looked up as the crunching grass sound of footsteps reached my ears. Devi and Macy were walking towards us, Macy was pale with fright and she held tightly onto Devi's unharmed shoulder, Devi walking like a security guard around Macy, and she was still clutching her injured arm. But when she kneeled down next to Nick, her eyes did not hold pain, but concern and warning. Nick returned her gaze and nodded.
Devi let go of her arm and Nick allowed her careful fingers to probe his still open wound. She grimaced a bit, but look relieved, which I chose to take as a good sign. Nick grabbed her arm gently and did the same thing with her wound, which looked like it was healing. He smiled to himself, out of relief, and looked at us again, his smile fading and his eyes turning grave.
"I'm alright." Devi announced, more for Macy than anyone else. "The bullet just grazed my arm. Look, it is already healing." Macy looked, but turned slightly green from the sight. I looked back at Nick.
"Nick…Look man…" I started, regret from my drastic action filling my voice and taking hold of my soul. Nick held up his finger, silencing me.
"Save it Joe. What is done is done." He said without any heat, but rather with understanding. I looked down, ashamed of myself, and I heard him sigh. His soft hand cupped under my chin and he lightly lifted my chin up, so our eyes met.
His gaze held no accusing stare, only soft understanding and brotherly love. I knew he would never hold this against me or blame me for his pain. I smiled sadly and he returned the gesture as he removed his hand, brushing it softly against my cheek.
"So…" Kevin said, his voice shaking ever so slightly. "This is it. This is really it." His voice broke and a solitary tear escaped from his eyes and ran down his cheek. Nick averted his gaze from mine and looked at the ground, his eyes also filling with moisture.
"It is…but hopefully not forever," answered a very heartbroken Devi. She wrapped her arms around Macy again, who did the same. Nick pulled me and Kevin into a rib shattering, but much needed and loving hug. The girls wrapped their arms around us and again we were all in one giant hug of farewell. We stayed like that for the longest time, tears mixing with blood and falling, but someone had to pull away. That someone was me.
Understanding passed between me and Nick when our gazes met. He realized that if I didn't end this hug, than we would never leave. We would be stayed like that until the Boss ordered us to be shot, and this time, killed. He nodded at me, quite composed and we all stood. Devi let go of Macy's hand and Macy let it fall to her side, in defeat. But a smile was on both the girls' faces, and it did reach their eyes, though tears still fell at a slow rate.
Devi's hand went to Macy's cheek and Macy's smile grew and she nodded before stepping back from the group. Nick finally looked back at us, his tears flowing shamelessly, and smiled.
Goodbye bro's. I will forever miss you and forever love you. I wish with all my heart it didn't have to be like this, but fate has driven us apart. Please, don't stay stuck in the past; embrace your future without me and remember, I will always be right by your sides; I will always be your brother.
I jumped a little when Nick's voice entered my head, and it was freaky when he spoke without his lips moving, but I got over that. My own tears now overflowed from the barriers I built in my eyes, and I reached out and grasped Nick's unharmed shoulder. Kevin reached out and ever so softly held Nick's healing one. Kevin and I both knew that no words were needed, for our loving gazes said it all. At the same time, we both took a step away from Nick, holding his gaze.
Nick grabbed Devi's hand and she put her head on his unharmed shoulder, her eyes never leaving ours. We took another step, and then another. We walked backwards until our backs hit the trees and we waved our final goodbye and took our last look at our brother and sister. Our shoulders shook in silent sobs, as we turned our back, and left part of our family in the hands of a servant to the devil.
THE BOSS'S POV
Finally, my trophies were unattached with family, now and always. I had complete control of their lives now and no unsuspecting family to worry about. I rubbed my hands in anticipation of my plans, and jumped down, nimbly and lightly for one my size, from the large tree branch I was situated on. I walked over to my crying servants and smiled at them. They just glared defiantly. I chuckled, happy at their defiance, and at their total helplessness to do whatever I say. They were mine, and nothing can change that now.
I led them back to the car, and allowed them a moment of privacy, for I sat in the front. I hated seeing tears, they were signs of weakness, and after today, they would not be allowed. My prizes would be turned into my puppets, no emotions, free will, or anything. Soon, they would be completely and utterly mindless and will less. Soon, they would be my perfect slaves. Soon, they will be mine…or death shall descend upon them and their families.
DEVI'S POV
I looked up at the broken man I held and he looked down at me; silent pain reflecting both of our eyes. I felt too lost to ever be saved, lost in my darkness, pain and regret. At this moment, I truly wanted to die. I knew the Boss would have more control over us than ever before and we were now his puppets. I wondered if anyone would remember the real Nick and Devi once he was done with us, if we would even remember ourselves. Were we really too lost to be saved?
I shifted and pulled away from him, he looked at me, curiously.
"I know how to finish the song." He smiled, but it did not reach his eyes. He gestured for me to proceed.
(TOURNIQUET BY EVANESCENCE)
I tried to kill the pain
but only brought more.
(So much more)
I lay dying
and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming!
am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
My God My tourniquet
return to me salvation!
My God My tourniquet
return to me salvation
Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side,
or will you forget me?
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming!
am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
My God My tourniquet
return to me salvation!
My God My tourniquet
return to me salvation
(Return to me salvation!)
I want to die!!!
My God My tourniquet
return to me salvation!
My God My tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will I be denied Christ!
Tourniquet!
My suicide…
His arms went around me, and pulled me close again.
"It fits perfectly. Do you really feel that way right now?" His voice was hesitant, like he feared my answer.
I nodded into his chest and his arms tightened around me.
"I feel like that too." He whispered into my hair, truth evident in his quiet voice. "We are no more than puppets, slaves to the Boss now. Restrained by chains of emotions, punished if shown any free will. Trust me Devi; I know exactly how you feel."
I sat in silence for a minute, contemplating and agreeing with his words. A simple but beautiful melody of his came to my mind and before I knew it, I was singing my heart out to his heartfelt lyrics.
And you don't know what you got 'til it's gone.
Don't know what it's like to feel so low, And every time you smile you laugh you glow,
You don't even know
So I'll wait 'til kingdom come.
All the highs and lows are gone.
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
I'll be...fine
Koutai: Sorry it is short but I hit a dead end. It took me forever to write this for some reason…usually I pull this angst stuff out with the speed of lightening. Sorry it took so long and it is so short. Until next update!