Chapter 4
It was two weeks ago that I went to Australia to make my decision, I had made it on the plane to Melbourne. I was now waiting at JFK airport for somebody to pick me up and drop me off at school, the gossip while I was away was about me and how I was at rehab in Australia for my drinking problem. I was sitting at the pick up bay when I saw a canary yellow Porsche 911 turbo speeding towards me.
The car came to a halt at my feet and my best friend Alice got out and hugged me, "Hey Pix, missed you. Lets get home I want to have a shower then I guess you want to know who I have chosen? And what I did in Melbourne?" I said putting my bags in the back seat and in the trunk.
"Oh yeah your choice? We had all forgotten about that, of course we want to know about the trip I mean you ditched us for this and we need to know what you did so start spilling?" she said all in one breath.
"Calm down Pix can we just get home first, and I need to call Jake and tell him to come over and yeah so I need to make that call." I said as I pulled out my iPhone and pulled Jakes number up, "Hello Jacob Black speaking, who am I speaking to?" he said in his incredibly sexy voice.
"Well Mr. Black, my name is Isabella Swan, I was wanting to know if you were available to come over to my house so we could talk." I said trying to be all professional and shit.
"Holy Fuck, Bella your home???" he screamed into the phone.
"I am baby I am now will you come over to my place so we can talk with Edward?"
"No Bella, I wont go because when you choose him and I know you will choose him because I am from the wrong side of the tracks so just tell me now so I wont have to disappoint you when I get angry."
"Well Jake I know your not going to be disappointed, so please come over I want to talk to you and see you I mean I miss you." I said dropping the hint but Alice picked it up as well, "Bella your choosing povo boy over my brother?" she screamed at me.
"Alice if you wouldn't mind could refrain from calling my boyfriend povo? I mean he is going to be around for a while longer and I don't want him not liking my sister?" I said while still on the phone to Jake.
"What are you serious Bells? You have chosen me over the Pommy Bastard? I thought surely you would choose him I mean he has money and shit while I have to work to pay for my schooling. I will come over now that I know my heart wont be broken ad I want to see his. Love you Bella you know you made the right decision." he said hanging up.
"Bella why did you choose Jake over Edward? What has he done that Edward hasn't." she said angrily.
"Well Alice nobody knows what happened to me when Edward left except Jake, you didn't know about the Anorexia and all the other shit I went through when Edward left. I mean he helped me and I owe him that one so I cant really dump him for Edward who caused all my problems."
"Isabella you did not have anorexia I mean you were at such a healthy weight and you look beautiful no wonder my brother couldn't keep his hands off of you." she said looking confused.
"Alice I did have it I mean I only ate one meal of salad for dinner and I thought I was fat like those people on the weight loss shows, I thought Edward left me because of my weight, it was during winter that I was sick so I layered up on clothes and shit to cover it up." I said as I held my body tighter to my chest.
"Shit Bella I didn't know that you were going through so much I just thought you were depressed because Edward left, if I had known about that I would have helped you so much, I am so sorry." she said pulling up in the driveway.
"Please Alice could you do one thing before I tell Edward would you not tell him, I just need time to think about how to say it. Will you promise me that oh yeah and don't tell your parents or anybody about my anorexia." I said pulling her into a hug as she shut the car off.
"Bella I wont tell anybody unless you tell me its ok." she said getting out of the car and moving to the backseat to get my bags when Emmett came out and took my bags and pulled my into a bone crushing hug.
"Emmett, cant breathe" I choked out and he let me go.
"Sorry Bella, so how was Australia did you go to a AFL match?" he asked like a little boy.
"Yeah I did Em, it is so different from NFL I mean they play on an oval field and they wear no protection, the uniforms are just singlets and shorts, I got you a present, it is the jersey of the wining team Hawthorn I think." I said as we walked inside to find everybody sitting down in the living area.
"Well I am home!!" I screamed and they all waved at me, I understood the awkwardness when I saw Jake standing in the kitchen looking pleased.
"Shit!!! Well I guess you all know my decision?" I asked ad they all nodded
"Yes, Jake here came over and started celebrating the news before you came home and now we are all wanting to know the reason for this?" Jasper asked in his calm voice.
"Well, as you guys all know when you left, Edward, I was pretty fucked and depressed, well during that time I was battling something else and the person who helped me through it all was Jake. You guys must be wondering what was wrong with me right?" I asked and they all nodded, Jake moved over to me and whispered into my ear, "Bells are you sure you want to do this?" I nodded.
"Well I was…umm…err kind of suffering from anorexia and Jake helped me become healthy again." I squeaked out before I started to cry, Jake started to rub my back.
We were all silent for who knows how long before Edward spoke up, "Bella, god if I had known any of this I would never have left I mean your anorexia was because of me wasn't it?" he asked me quietly.
"Edward, please can we not talk about this it was a hard time of my life and yes it was your fault I was sick, when you left I thought you didn't want me because I was fat and unattractive." I raised my voice at the last part.
"Bella you're the most beautiful girl I have ever seen, I would never ever in 1000 years be able to call you fat your just so beautiful." he said brushing my cheek.
"Alice, have you been to school yet, I mean to set up the dorm?" I said looking at her and ignoring Edward who was standing next to me.
"Yeah Bella I have and while you were away Esme and her team went and redesigned it for us. Rose and I are going over tomorrow do you want to come with us?"
"Yeah I will come, but if you don't mind I am seriously tired and am in need of a shower badly. So I guess I will see you all tomorrow, Jake come up stairs." I said pulling him along.
Once I got into my room and had a shower I went over to Jake and climbed into be with him, he put his arm around me and we snuggled for a while with none of us talking, "Jake while I was over there I wanted to decide where I will go to college and because your only going to New York State I thought I might go to Columbia so we could be close to each other and it would be easy for you to live at home and I could stay there with you."
"Bella, please don't let me effect your choice in college, please go to Dartmouth or Harvard or Yale or some IVY league school. We can stay together it will just mean we wont see each other as much as we would like."
"No Jake I want to be around you, I need you to keep me sane, if I go away I don't know how often I would see you and that would kill me. Jake I am applying to Columbia and I don't care what you say." I said snuggling deeper into his chest.
"No Bella, go to Dartmouth or Harvard as well and if you get into one of them you will go? Please promise me that. Me being from Brooklyn bothers Alice and the rest of them doesn't it?" he said kissing the top of my head.
"Yeah so what if they don't like you? You don't have to talk to them you only kneed to know that I love you and would never leave you. Jake if you wouldn't mind I am really tired and want to go to sleep, would you mind if you went home?" I asked as I yawned involuntary.
"Yeah Bella, you look absolutely buggered, I will call tomorrow? Ok then we will go see a movie or something?" he said kissing my cheek, and pulling the comforter around my face.
"Sure Jake I just really need some sleep, so I will call you tomorrow." I said closing my eyes as he walked out the door.