Three weeks or,

Twenty-one days or,

Five hundred and four hours since Jake left, since I left this room, since I spoke to anybody. After the third day of not eating and only water to drink Carlisle told me he would have to hospitalise me if I didn't eat something and if I went to hospital my parents would be called and they would need to know every gruesome and painful detail. Jake has called so many times since he went away but number of calls returned? Zero.

Esme and Carlisle were forcing me to go to school today because if I didn't I wouldn't have enough credits to graduate at the end of the year. The gossip at Woodridge was that I had overdosed and was in isolation to become clean. Today was the day I had to face the truth I had to leave the safety and confines of my room.

It was 10.30 and I was sitting in Carlisles black Mercedes heading to Woodridge for the start of my senior year. I was starting classes on Monday it was now Friday I had three days to make myself look presentable, I hadn't waxed my legs or underarms, you could call me Swedish Italian or Greek, my skin was looking translucent from lack of sun and I just felt like shit.

We arrived at the school by 12 and I was in my dorm moping by 12.30, I was roomed with Alice and Rosalie they really wanted me to get better so they could go on a shopping trip to the mall to try and distract me not sure if it would work.

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One week I have been at this hell hole for and I was worse than ever, I didn't speak unless spoken to and then it was only simple yes or no answers I just couldn't join in class discussions. I was becoming a hermit only leaving my room for classes and then I would return straight to my room do the work required then go back to staring at the blank green wall.

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Another month had passed and nothing had changed I slept went too classed, did homework, ate then slept again. I could tell I was getting on Alice and Roses nerves I mean I would be getting on mine to if somebody else was in my situation. One morning before class Alice and Rose confronted me, "Bella I know it has been hard on you after Jake left but seriously it has been over two months and you haven't done anything. All of us are going out tonight its Logans birthday party and your coming weather you like it or not Bella." Alice said getting angry.

"No Alice, please don't make me go I mean I wont be any sort of company, I haven't been any sort of company for the last few months do I even know Logan?" I said walking to my next class.

"Bella that's why you need to get out, you need to get over Jake so what he was your boyfriend there is always someone else out there for you. I hate seeing you like this; I miss the old Bella who would get so wasted at parties that she needed Emmett to carry her home, where did she go?" Rose said in a kind voice.

"I know she is in their she may be hiding but once we get a couple of shots into her she will be seen again." Alice said.

"I will go, I will drink but don't expect me to have fun, and I mean am I supposed to just forget about Jake? I have dated him for four years he isn't that easy to forget." I said walking into AP English.

The rest of the day flew by and I was now sitting in Alice's room getting ready. I was wearing a black dress that finished above the knee and the neck was lined with silk flowers. My hair was pulled into a low ponytail that Alice had curled, she had done my make up so my eyes looked smoky and my lips were bright red.

We were waiting for the boys to pick us up and drive us over to Logans; Rosalie was wearing a blue scoop neck dress with a beaded waist band while Alice was wearing an exact replica of Charlotte's floral dress from Sex and The City. After about ten minuets of being boiling hot, Emmett pulled up in his red jeep which was air-conditioned we all go into it and headed off to Logans out of control party.

We arrived only to see people vomiting into pot plants and other things that shouldn't be vomited into. We walked in and people made a path like the parting of the seas. Rose and Emmett went over the bar and grabbed us some drinks, I was now drinking my Gin Martini and grooving to the music which was Electric Six, Dance Commander. Jasper was on duty to make sure I didn't bolt so to waste time we decided to get a couple of shots with Alice and play I have never.

"I have never kissed a girl" to Alice's surprise we both took a shot.

"Bella when did you lock lips with a chick." asked Jasper

"I think I was at a party in Australia I did have quite a bit to drink there because I was a legal adult." I said giggling, "ok well I have never kissed Alice." Jasper took a shot as I new he would.

"I have never kissed a boy" said Jasper as I took a shot. The game continued like this until Emmett was put on duty when it started all over again but instead we were playing how many we could down in the five minuets, 35.

By the time it came to 3am Edward and I were back in my room.