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A/N: Things have been chaotic, health issues, school, exams... RL has not been nice, and my escape in writing fanfic left me as my muse ran off. She hasnt returned,but i will continue to try and update as often as i can.

'Spirits' gasped Chakotay, 'I wouldn't do that to him, how can he think that?'

It pained Janeway to see her first officer like this, but she had to be neutral about this, although a part of her wanted to believe that Tom had just not wanted Chakotay there as they weren't known for getting along, considering his condition she had had to respond in this manner.

'There will be more facts revealed later I'm sure, but in the mean time please stay away from Sick Bay'

Chakotay nodded his understanding, but beneath the cool facade he displayed his emotions were in turmoil. He may never have got on well with Paris, but he wouldn't have harmed him.

Kathryn could see how badly Chakotay was taking this, deep down her gut said Chakotay had had no part in this, but she couldn't be sure, and until then the safety of her Lieutenant was her main priority.

'Dismissed'

Chakotay stood to leave, unsure of what to do or say, 'tell him, or perhaps don't, but I wish him well'

Kathryn nodded.

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'Tom, the doctor has suggested that you come to me for counselling, this isn't a test nor a punishment form the captain'

Tom nodded, unsure of how to respond. He was still in Sick Bay but as he was awake and alert he had been taken to a side room to have a 'talk' with Tuvok.

'Fine, I don't feel well though'

Tuvok raised an eyebrow. He had been wary that Tom wouldn't be up to beginning counselling so soon after landing in Sick Bay, but the Doctor had insisted Tom was now just in under Observation.

'That's fine Tom, this was just an introductory session, can I ask you to try and reduce you self injury in some way or form, perhaps the amount of times you do it, or maybe the depth?'

'I-I it's not like that'

'Then what is it like Tom?'

'I'm feeling ill Tuvok, can I please go?'

'Of course you can, but please consider what I said'

'Fine' Tom replied as he fled the room to the relative security that the blanket on his Bio Bed provided.

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'He seems to be deep in denial Captain; I feel that to properly understand him I may need access to his medical records'

'Of course, how far back do you want to go?'

'I would like his full records, sometimes our behaviour in the present is influenced by our past.'

Kathryn glanced at Tuvok somewhat confused, Tuvok saw this and responded, 'Am I not right in my belief that Lieutenant Paris has spent some time in Jail?'

'Yes you are right, but his full record, I understand the need to see if jail affected him, but Tom's home life was fine, I know Admiral Paris...'

'That may be Captain, but sometimes we miss what is right in front of us, I just want to investigate all avenues'

Kathryn nodded, Tuvok was right, she had missed Tom's distress and he sat in front of her on a daily basis, perhaps she had missed other signs and clues.

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