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So I guess by now everybody knows that when Edward left after his first time meeting Bella, he went to Alaska to hang with the other veggie vamps and try to get some self control so that he wouldn't kill Bella. Anyways, this was my version of what would have happened, except with Bella instead, so it's a wee bit different.

Chapter 3 – Making Choices

Bella POV

It took me just over a day to get to Denali. I was going to Alaska to stay with Tanya and her coven… and to get away from Edward Mason before I completely lost control. The drive was completely silent; I didn't even bother to turn on the radio or a CD. What I needed was time to think. Why had Edward's blood called to me like that? It had never happened to me, in all of the 50 plus years that I had been a vampire. And none of my siblings had noticed it, at least not from what I could tell. Why hadn't Alice seen how I would react to him? Or had she and just not told me? I slammed my hand into the steering wheel in frustration, holding back just enough so that I wouldn't break it.

Tanya and her family welcomed me as soon as I stepped out of my car and onto their driveway, no questions asked. They could tell that something was seriously wrong for me to be fuming and glowering so much and kind of backed off as soon as I was inside. Only Tanya herself dared to be near me.

"Bella," she started the moment I sat on her couch, "we're very happy to have you here, but I do need to know why you're here."

I slumped against the couch, looking rather deflated.

"It's kind of complicated," I muttered.

"I think that I could understand," Tanya challenged.

"It's a guy," I started.

"You ran away from Forks all the way to Denali because of boy problems?" Tanya guessed.

"No," I snorted. "It's a little bit more complicated than that. It's just…" Tanya was silent as I tried to word it right "…it kind of took all the self control in my body not to kill him."

Tanya looked a little shocked. "Oh?"

"Yeah. I don't know why, it was just… his blood, I guess. It was so… different than all the other humans. So much better smelling. And I don't know why, but nobody else seemed to notice it, just me," I tried to explain. "Does that make any sense?" Tanya nodded.

"I believe that it's happened before. In fact, it happened to me once, and Jasper as well. I was very young, though, and had far less self control," Tanya murmured.

"So you…" I trailed off.

"Killed him," Tanya finished. "Before I even knew what I was doing, he was dead. It's just a show of how much control you have that you didn't kill this boy."

"I almost did," I muttered. "I can't believe that Alice didn't see that." We were silent for a moment.

"You know that you can't stay here forever," Tanya finally said, breaking the silence.

"I know," I sighed. "And I know that I'll have to go back eventually and face him. But I just don't know if I can do it quite yet."

"You can stay here for as long as you wish," Tanya invited.

"Thank you," I replied. "I really need to hunt, though."

"Certainly," Tanya consented, gesturing to the French doors leading to the patio and beyond that the thick Alaskan forest.

"I'll be back soon!" I called back to Tanya, already running out into the woods as fast as I could move. The last thing I heard before the silence of the woods was her laughing.

Edward POV

Biology was horrible. First day of school, and already somebody seems to hate me. And that somebody was Bella Cullen.

I had no idea why she seemed to loath me so. All I did was sit in the one empty seat in biology, which just so happened to be next to her, and introduce myself.

"I'm Edward," I had declared. She was completely silent and looked almost as if she wasn't breathing. All she did was stare at me and grip the back of her chair so hard that the tendons in her hands stood out clearly. Right when I had resigned myself to being ignored by her forever, she answered me.

"Bella," she hissed, sounding as if she was trying to hold her breath. She looked like she was about to kill somebody, so I didn't try to talk to her anymore. For the entire period of class I could have sworn that I didn't see her breath once, or move a muscle.

When the bell rang, Bella shot out of the classroom before I had even closed my binder. By the time I got outside to the parking lot, she was nowhere to be seen. Her siblings were around a bright red BMW convertible, shooing away the hoards of people ogling the car. Bella was nowhere to be seen.

I wonder if she was running away from me… I thought as I walked to my car. It was a silver junky Toyota that my mother had bought me for my sixteenth birthday, just over a year ago. It wasn't what I wanted, no way, but it ran okay and was what I needed – a car of my own.

When I got home I went straight to doing my homework. My mom wouldn't be home for another three hours or so; she was a single mother and worked full time to support us. After my father had left when I was just three years old, my mom and I had been on our own. I had learned to take care of myself at a pretty young age because of that.

As hard as I tried to focus, though, the only thing that I could think about was Bella Cullen. The way that she had looked at me, it was… indescribable. If looks could kill, I found myself thinking.