Okay only one review but a lot of people added this to alerts so I decided to get the show on the road. I don't own Grey's.
Meredith walked round the halls efficiently doing her job. Her thoughts were on more pressing personal matters though. What the hell was she going to do?
And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
She had been working a lot with Derek today and this unnerved her. She hoped her sullen look and demeanour had went unnoticed by him, well it had been pretty much the same since he went back to Addison but of course learning she was pregnant at the worst possible time could only increase this sullenness. Unfortunately her total lack in concentration had not.
" Dr Grey." He said, failing to gain her attention.
" Meredith?"
" Huh, what?" She snapped out of her daydream shamefacedly.
" Mr Olsen's labs?"
" Oh uh yeah I'll get them right away."
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me
She approached her friends sitting eating lunch with absolutely no intention of eating. She had felt like puking all day, luckily not actually doing so. As soon as she sat though she was instantly ravenous. Looking at her friends' trays she decided George was her best bet for stealing food from.
" Hey George I'm starving can I have some of your food?" She smiled at him.
" Yeah sure."
She grabbed his hamburger and devoured most of it in one go.
" Why are you stealing George's lunch?" Izzie inquired.
" The sight of Dr & Dr Shepard turned my stomach, I wasn't expecting to be hungry."
Her peers nodded in agreement, instantly understanding. George looked at her with puppy dog eyes.
" I only expected you to take the pudding, not the whole meal." He said a little sulkily just as his beeper went off.
" You are so lucky " he said as he went off to answer his page.
" Oohh." The girls chorused pretending to be scared. The 3 of them laughed and Meredith was grateful for her friends, they always cheered her up even when they didn't know what was up.
And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
Meredith returned from lunch so she could start her rounds, she felt much more uplifted than before, a smile even threatening to play on her lips. This was short lived. Along the corridor she could see Addison and Derek talking; they looked happy. She sick feeling returned, she realised it was going to be a while before she was okay.
Three months and I'm still standing here
Three months and I'm getting better yeah
Three months yeah, three months are hard
Surprisingly Meredith had been working with Addison on a case today. Usually it was Izzie, who was now practically Addison's protégé, Meredith would usually be the surgeon's last choice - not surprising considering how they were all linked. Meredith figured Addison must either: feel sorry for her, feel guilty, was scouting for information or wanted to torture her.
Oh how my life is fun, thought Meredith.
Well I've been walkin, walkin behind enemy lines
And I've been fightin, fightin from the other side
I've been sayin, sayin that I won't fall this time
But now I'm walkin, walkin within enemy lines
It had been three days since Meredith had taken the tests. She had done nothing about it, no word had been uttered to anyone to gain some comfort nor had she contacted any doctor to make an appointment. It was like she was paralysed, all she could do was think about it, hell that was all she did do, she couldn't move to do anything else. The blow should have been lessened by the fact she already knew she was pregnant before she pee'ed on any sticks; she was after all, a doctor.
Tuning back into the present, Meredith watched Addison talk to the patient. She was gorgeous, one of the best if not the best neonatal surgeon, rich and married to Derek. How could Meredith ever compete? Addison was like a super being. She finished up talking to the patient and left the room, Meredith following behind. She turned to instruct Meredith but instead frowned at her.
" You don't look so good."
" I'm fine."
" Are you sure? I don't need interns fainting on me."
" I'll go see if the Jamieson results are in." She turned on her heel and deemed that as her answer.
See I was tryin to be everything you weren't expecting
All I ever wanted was to try and keep you guessing
But I'm falling way too fast
Her friends had made attempts to speak to her, to help her. She had cut them off at every corner reciting, "I'm fine" each time. The simple truth was she didn't know what to do, she could probably take the whole length of the pregnancy just deciding but that would hardly work.
Once again Meredith stepped into an empty elevator only to have Addison Shepard board at the next floor – alone. Meredith mentally rolled her eyes as she stepped forward to show Addison the chart she had.
" Jamieson results."
" Okay prep the OR and page Dr Burke, we have to operate now."
After a long, gruelling surgery they had successfully saved Mother and baby and Meredith had thankfully reached her 80-hour limit. She wondered if Addison had chosen her for the case not to gain information or because she felt sorry for her but because she felt it may aid in Meredith's decision-making. If someone with a very rare medical condition and a less than picturesque life could raise a child then couldn't she a healthy doctor no less do the same? Meredith stepped into the elevator and smiled at the two nurses init, glad she wasn't alone with Addison again. Thinking too soon, the next floor the nurses exited and who should board but devil in heels, who wasn't actually so devilish and whom Meredith had a hard time hating.
What is this the elevator chronicles of the Wife and Mistress?
" Are you okay, I'm not trying to annoy you, you just look…sad?"
" Wouldn't you look sad if your ex-boyfriend's wife looked like you?" Meredith said light-heartedly, trying to joke rather than actually talk about it. Addison laughed.
" Yeah well I guess." She replied equally light-hearted.
" Have you told anyone or talked to anyone about it?"
" Nope." Addison nodded in understanding.
" I'm a good listener."
And now I'm walkin, walkin behind enemy lines
And now I'm fightin, fightin from the other side
I've been sayin, sayin I won't fall this time
Now I'm walkin, walkin within enemy lines
Okay so there is it, it was originally 2 chapters hence the two different songs. So vote time should it be MerDer or Addek? Review review review :D