Hey guys thanks for the reviews, as always it's an on going battle between MerDer and Addek but fear not whoever our McDreamy ends up with there will be a happy ending for all. For now I'm just sticking with what I had planned in my head for the next few chapters and I'll be asking for you're opinion on more things as it's all you you guys! Keep voting for Addek or MerDer! Don't own Grey's :(

"You know Addison I bet everyone in here would find it hard to believe you're a world class neonatal surgeon considering you decided to bring a pregnant woman into a bar."

" You came of your own free will and besides you won't be drinking."

" I wouldn't be so sure."

" Meredith " Addison scolded.

" What? This is all way too much for me to process."

" Well that's why we're here, you're not talking to your friends, you're not talking to a doctor so maybe talking to your rival will help. So talk?"

Meredith just looked at her hands, it was just too much, she needed time to adjust. What the hell am I doing, hanging out with Addison Shepard? She's the last person I should be talking to she caused this mess.

" What do I do?" She sighed.

Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

" That's a decision only you can make Meredith not even…the father can make the decision he can only give his input." Addison said the father with hesitation, clearly still unsure whether it was Derek's. " But you should tell your family, tell your friends they can help you make this work – if you want to."

" My friends are my family. Half the time my mother doesn't know who I am and I haven't seen my father since I was a kid. But it's strange my mother and I had such a hard relationship; she was cold and hard on me, I guess she couldn't distinguish between being a great surgeon and being a terrible mother. You know once we had a huge argument, the worst we'd ever had and she told me I didn't have what it takes to be a surgeon." She pauses " And yet I wish I could just go and talk to her."

Her eyes filled with tears, Addison laid a comforting hand on her arm.

" You know what I think, I think you should go and see her, I mean she may not recognise you but it's the disease that doesn't, she's still in there, somewhere, and on some level she would know what you were saying. I think it could help to just go and get it all out."

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late

Addison walked into the trailer; Derek was lying in bed reading.

" Hey where've you been?"

" I had something to do."

She through her coat onto the table and walked straight into the bedroom. She crawled onto the bed and kissed him forcefully. Derek hesitated for a moment, there was so much need and longing in that kiss, she looked sad, her eyes begging him and searching his face. Then he was kissing her. Clothes were coming off and he was kissing her everywhere. She gasped as he started kissing her neck, his hand slowly moving up her thigh. There was no looking back.

Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Meredith stopped in the doorway as she had so often found herself doing and watched the scene before her. Her mother was sitting in the arm chair, she looked deep in thought but Meredith had no idea what went on in her mind now - though had she ever? She was relieved to find Richard Webber was not here as this was something she had to do.

" Hey Mom." She said sitting across from her mother. The woman looked at her but made no response; Meredith assumed this dreadful disease had once again captured her mind.

" So there's been a lot going on, I mean work is hard and tiring. And of course it doesn't help that Mcdreamy, my Mcdreamy works at the hospital and so does his wife, who's suddenly being way to nice to me. And I made a mistake and now I have this life-altering thing that could either be a mistake or be something wonderful. And I don't know what to do or what to say. And it's hard it's just too hard." Meredith took a large breath.

" And I'm rambling and making you ever more unproud by getting pregnant when I'm not married or even in a relationship and I'm still and intern." She started to cry.

Ellis looked at Meredith, as though she were really looking at her. She got up and walked over to Meredith.

" I couldn't be more proud of you Meredith. I know I do and say things that hurt you but I don't mean it. Everything's going to be okay." She wrapped her in a huge hug. Meredith melted into it; it had been so very long since they had shared a hug like this.

" You'll figure it out. You'll learn from my mistakes. You'll be a wonderful surgeon and if not right not then someday you'll make an amazing mother."

Meredith let go of the breath she didn't even know she was holding and a weight lifted. She was grateful, so grateful for this moment, one that she'd probably never get again.

" Nurse I've got lives to save, I don't get paid to stand here hugging, now get off me and book that OR!"

Meredith held on for a second longer, taking strength from the hug. She pulled away and gave her mother a smile.

" Right away Dr Grey."

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Okay guys there you have it REVIEWWW please :). New chapter up tomorrow hopefully revealing more details and having more drama :D