Thanks for the reviews guys, I appreciate it. This is a long one, a 2 part. Stick with this guys! Don't own Grey's.
In hospitals they say you know. You know when you're going to die. Some doctors say it's a look patients get in their eyes. Some say there's a scent. A smell of death. Something. There's just some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is heading for you. You feel it coming. Whatever it is. It's creepy. Because if you know. What do you do about it? Forget about the fact you're scared out of your mind. If you knew this was your last day on Earth, how would you want to spend it?
I don't know why
I don't know why
I'm so afraid
Addison Montgomery-Shepard was sitting on a couch in the doctor's lounge alone. Clearly very upset because the hospital had a code black. Just now though she was staring at the date on the sheet in front of her. Her period was late. God this was like a soap opera.
Meredith once again couldn't breathe. This was becoming a reoccurring feeling. What have I done? She thought. Her heart started racing. She should have left when Burke told her to. I've been so scared about this baby that I stayed here, with a bomb so I could have something else to think about. I should have left when Hannah started talking crazy but I didn't. Now I have to be brave. My hand is touching a bomb, I have put my child's life in danger, and I may never see their face. I did this. Tears sprung to her eyes.
" You realize how stupid that was."
" It was Mer. Incredibly stupid!" Christina said clearly distressed.
" Okay you know when you don't need to be made fun of? Like when you've got your hand inside a body that's got a bomb in it and a stranger is velcroing a flak jacket to your boobs." Or when you're growing a person inside you're uterus. She sighed.
" You've got a sense of irony."
" Only when things are really ironic." She turns to Cristina "I had a feeling."
This morning she had noticed she had put on weight. This was to be expected given her condition but Meredith had not been ready to see that. She was sure people would notice and couldn't deal with that yet. She didn't want to come in but had been forced by her friends. Look what happened. Christina shoots Meredith a look.
" What's that?" the chief of the bomb squad, Dylan, asks.
" Nothing." I'm going to kill a person before they've even lived. So much for doing better than my mother.
Burke comes in and orders Christina to leave, obviously scared for her safety. Christina looks at Meredith hesitant to leave her in this predicament.
" We'll be fine. It's okay." Meredith assures. I'm already in hell, no need to drag her as well.
Christina and burke say goodbye while Meredith stood teary-eyed, with her hand inside some guy's body cavity, touching a live bomb. Meredith takes a deep breath to calm herself as Christina leaves the OR. I need to calm down, babies can sense distress, if I happen to survive this I don't want to poor kid to also be dark and twisty.
" So you have a plan right?" She nods to herself. " You have a way to get me out of this, right?"
Dylan just stares back at her. Great my life and that of my unborn child is left in the hands of an arrogant ass, who has no plan. Things couldn't get any worse.
And I don't know how
I don't know how
To fix the pain
" Calm down." Addison tells Richard.
" Calm down? I have an evacuated O.R. A bomb in a body cavity. A missing paramedic! An intern with her hand on the explosive! Two world class surgeons in harm's way!" George walks up behind them. "A man on a table who may bleed out at any moment unless we move the bomb from his chest! And my favourite resident in labour who you're now telling me refuses to push! Really, calm down? You really want to say to me calm down?"
" Okay don't calm down! - Wait intern?"
" Meredith put her hand in the body cavity when Hannah ran off."
Addison gasps and covers her mouth with her hand.
" What was she thinking? She's not in an appropriate condition." She mumbles.
" And Dr. Bailey is scared, sir. It's a day to be scared."
Addison looks at the floor clearly still disturbed by the news she's just heard. What George has just said registers and she goes back into doctor mode.
" She won't let me examine her but from what I can tell her contractions are 40 seconds apart and she's refusing to push. The baby could go into distress and if she doesn't come out of this and soon, then I'm gonna need an O.R to do an emergency C-section."
" I can't give you an O.R Addie! I don't have an O.R to give. Can't you convince her to push? Bailey's rational."
" She's not Bailey right now! She's a woman in labour whose husband is in surgery next to a bomb."
" So is yours." So is my friend who happens to be pregnant. God I feel sick.
" This is about Bailey. I need an O.R."
" I don't know what to tell you."
" Look Richard, we have about an hour to change Bailey's mind and then I'm going to need you to get me an O.R. Build me an O.R. Find me a helicopter to fly me to any O.R in the city. Otherwise instead of having a baby, she'll be losing one."
Addison starts to walk away but turns back.
" If you hear anything about Meredith…" Richard and George look confused as to why she is so concerned with Meredith all of a sudden.
" And my husband, you'll let me know?"
They both silently nod.
We're livin a lie
Livin a lie
We just need to change
Burke and Dylan are whispering. Meredith's blood boils as her damn pregnancy hormones increase her rage through the roof.
" Stop it!" She demands and they stop whispering.
" I'm not a patient for god's sake! The two of you are looking at me the way we look at patients. Like I'm going to freak out at any minute. I'm not gonna freak out so whatever it is just tell me straight out."
" The main oxygen line runs directly under this room." Burke says and then stares at her.
" Okay. Not okay. … Well? I need one of you two to tell me what this means exactly. Because I think I know what it means. But I tend to be glass half-empty these days so I won't trust what I think it means. Because what I think it means if the bomb were to explode over the oxygen line the hospital could blow up. … And that's just crazy right?" Meredith looks distraught.
" Meredith all it means is we have to move."
All it means is we have to move oh great cause I'm holding a bomb! Calm down stress not good for baby! Deep breaths...
" Move?" Burke asks.
"That's right. We have to move." He whispers to Burke. "Now because I don't want to spend another second in this room."
" This is unbelievable! I can't wiggle my god damn fingers and you want to move the whole fucking gurney?!" Meredith's breathing hastened. We're going to die; we're going to die! Gotta think positive, if a patient goes into surgery going to die they die, if they think they're going to live, they live – this better apply for bombs.
" Think positive, we're going to live!" Meredith says aloud her rambling thoughts getting the better of her.
Dylan and Burke exchange a look worried by Meredith's changing attitude.
" Yeah Meredith that's right. Now you just gotta stay calm. Moving is our safest, safest option."
" So we move. Not a problem. We can do this. You handling this Grey?"
" I'm handling this."
Cuz we're out of time
We're out of time
And it's still the same
Addison is sitting in the hallway looking really upset. I can't believe this is happening. Her eyes tear up, so much pent up sadness and frustration threatening to spill out. She felt like she was dealing with everyone's problems her own what with her husband in love with someone else and operating next door to a bomb and her realisation of the date and what that may mean. Miranda's problems of refusing to have her baby. And Meredith's problems she felt so scared for her. Worst of all she knew she should dislike Meredith but she didn't, they had become friends now against the odds and Addison wanted to protect her, mother her almost.
George walks down the hallway.
"Dr. Montgomery-Shepard. What are we gonna do? I mean about Dr. Bailey. Can, can we drug her?"
"Against her will?"
"No. Well … yes. Can't we force her to push if we ah declare her temporarily insane?"
Addison looks clearly annoyed. I can't deal with incompetent questions right now! She lets out a noise of frustration.
"Ah. You want me to declare Miranda Bailey, Miranda Bailey incompetent? Do you think that will help? Do you think that will make her more inclined, more comfortable giving birth?"
"I'm just asking."
Rage gets the better of Addison.
"Stop asking! Because no matter what you ask the answer is I don't know. I'm doing everything thing I can! Everything I can! Miranda Bailey's husband is in mortal danger. Actual mortal danger! And there's not a lot I can say to comfort her right now because there's not a lot that anybody can say to comfort me! I'm doing my best! Dr. Bailey is doing her best! And I need you to do your best! And I need it to better than standing here asking me the world's most stupidest question! I don't know O'Malley!"
George leaves obviously upset. Addison lets the tears fall. If I am pregnant, then figuring it out on a day like this means I am clearly screwed. This thought defeated her and her tears seemed never ending.
Hearin the noise
Hearin the noise
From all of them
Meredith walks very slowly. Her arm aches as she tries to keep it still inside the cavity whilst moving with the gurney. Her thoughts are on her baby as guilt overcomes her for putting her child's life in danger.
" You're doing great." Dylan assures.
" Let's go over it again." She had asked twice already but needed to know it was going to be okay, this was her child's life.
"The device is shaped like a rocket. About 8 inches long. We're going to have everything ready. Dr. Burke's team is going to be in place. My team is going to be in place. And I'm going to ask you to take the hand that you have in Mr. Carlson, wrap it around the device-"
" And pull it out." She breathed finishing for him.
" Level. Pull it out while keeping it level."
"You know I don't like you very much."
" I don't like you that much either."
I really don't like myself that much right now. She thought.
Christina comes up the hallway
" What are you doing?"
" Stop! Stop right where you are!"
" What are you doing?" She repeats.
" I thought Dr. Burke told you to leave."
"We're moving to an O.R further away from the oxygen line. You know in case we blow up." Meredith said this in a light-hearted tone, part of her trying to keep positive so the baby wouldn't be stressed. Christina and Dylan bicker about her presence there and he lets her stay but at a distance.
" You ready?"
Meredith nods. As I'll ever be.
And I'm on the edge
I'm on the edge
Of breakin down
Okay so 1st part thoughts?? Read part 2 first that may be better. :)