" I have to tell you something."

" No Mer you don't, don't think like that."

" I'm not, it's good, I mean I thought it was bad but being in a life or death situation really puts perspective on things. It might be kinda awkward for you but you're my friend-"

Christina interrupted her rambling. " Well then tell me later Mer, tell me when we can laugh and smile and be happy about it."

" Okay but in that case you have to tell me something cause Cristina, I have my hand on a bomb. I'm freaking out and most importantly I really have to pee. Tell me anything!" Most importantly I'm pregnant. Christina recounts the story of Burke's love confession during this the gurney hits a metal bar on the floor and stops moving. A wave of fear flows through Meredith. She closes her eyes.

So keep it alive
Keep it alive
Don't make a sound

Now in the OR with James's gurney in place Meredith feels like she could die with her nerves alone.

" We're good Meredith?"

" Yeah." She says slowly looking terrified.

" Remember remove it while keeping it level as possible." Meredith nods. " Nice and easy. No quick movements. Level."

" Right level."

" You ready?"

"I uh … … Do I have a choice?" I'm so sorry baby, I'm so deeply sorry.

" You have to be ready."

Christina is back in the OR with Derek

" How's it going out there Yang?"

" Everything's fine."

" How's the girl with bomb?"

" How's he doing?" Christina avoided the question.

" He's almost there. You didn't answer my question Yang."

" Sir?"

" How is the girl with the bomb?"

Cristina looks conflicted for a second.

" It's Meredith." Derek turns startled his pulse racing.

" The girl with bomb is Meredith." Derek feels as tightening in his chest as his heart clenches. No.

You said nobody has know
If it's time to go
And take it slow
But I can stop the world
If they finally let us be alone
Let us be alone

Meredith can't stop thinking, her mind in over drive. She can feel Dylan and burke talking but can't focus on what they're saying.

" Grey, Grey?" Burke encourages.

" Meredith." Dylan tries.

" Izzie and George shouldn't have to move out of the house…especially not now, I need my family…"

" No. You heard me."

" You should make sure. Make sure that they, that they get to stay in the house." She replies needing her friends to be okay, if she doesn't make it.

Meredith starts freaking out telling them both to go.

"Meredith I want you to look at me. (She is staring at Burke) Look at me. (She turns her gaze to Dylan who is standing directly in front of her) I know this is mad. And I know that I'm this ass who's been yelling at you all day. So you pretend that I'm not. You pretend that I'm someone you like. Whatever you need. But you need to listen to me."

Meredith looks down. When she looks back up she's with Derek. Tears stream down her face.

" I'm scared. It's not just me anymore."

"I know. You can do this. It'll be over in a second. … You can do this Meredith. You have too."

" Okay."

You can't stop the world
But there's so much more that we could do
You can't stop this girl
From falling more in love with you

The surroundings fade and Meredith starts to pull out her hand.

" Gently." Dylan whispers.

She continues to pull it out. She feels like her heart just might stop. I'm going to die.

She carefully pulls out the bomb and cries as she slowly hands it to Dylan.

" You did good." Dylan whispers.

He starts moving slowly away from the operating table. Meredith also backs away as Burke starts operating on Mr. Carlson. Dylan heads out the door. Meredith slowly follows him. She walks out the door and stands in front of it watching. She is filled with relief. We did it, baby.

Dylan is a few steps in away ready to pass it off to another Bomb Squad member. Suddenly there is a large explosion. It all happens in slow motion, Meredith gasps. NO! This is it. Meredith thinks as Dylan is instantly blown up. The force knocks Meredith backwards. Everything blows up and the windows smash. Meredith flies through the air caked in debris, blood and flesh. Everything is dark and dank as Meredith lies unconscious on the floor, hands on her stomach.

In the female locker room, Addison leads a completely dumbfounded Meredith into the shower. She removes her scrub cap and gown. She slowly strokes her cheek, glad she's okay. I'll need to examine her; she could have miscarried from the fall or even the all stress. I hope she can deal with this. Meredith starts to sob and suddenly Addison is hugging her wishing her pain away. And then Meredith's hugging her back, grateful for the unlikely friendship.

If the world wont take
That final blow
I'll turn the other page
I wont close the book

I know everyone will most likely be NOOO! addison can't be pregnant too, but I think this would be a good way for Addison to be happy having unconditional love from a baby when shes not getting it from her marriage. The original plan was to have Meredith miscarriage and be okay with Addies preg because they're friends now however I realise this may be difficult after these 2 chaps...Review and we can see what'll happen.