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Addison walked into the bedroom she walked towards the bed that had a human sized lump under the duvet. She went and lay on the bed next to it. She lay in silence for a few minutes consumed by her own thoughts. She still hadn't had her period nor had she taken a test, this was all way too complicated. And she figured she best help her new found friend deal with her own pregnancy first, before seeing if she was in a pregnancy of her own. A rustling from the duvet next to her tore her from her thoughts.

" I know you're not sleeping."

" How did you get in?" Meredith mumbled.

" I have my ways."

" What breaking and entering? Cause there's no one else here."

" Ahh but you have a spare key hidden outside, wasn't hard to find – you should probably move it."

" Whatever."

" Are you planning on getting out of bed?"

" Nope."

" Come on Meredith you survived a bomb for God's sake, surely that's a sign to do something more than lay in bed."

Meredith sighed and kicked off the covers.

" I know, I'm not going into depression, I just wanted some quite time for like 5 minutes."

" Well 5 minutes is over, I took the day off so we're going shopping."

Meredith groaned. Addison rolled her eyes.

" There will be none of that negativity, we're going to have a nice girlie day. Besides it appears we have to pay a visit to some maternity shops." She said gesturing to Meredith's now more defined bump.

" Don't remind me I feel like a cow, it's so much bigger than it was yesterday, I thought it was supposed to be a gradual weight gain and I'd have more time before I had to tell people."

" Well you are naturally skinny it's not that surprising you're putting on weight, the baby just needs more room, and it's more noticeable to me anyway because I know that you're pregnant."

" Yeah but at this rate…"

" What sex would you like it to be."

Meredith absentmindedly rubbed her stomach whilst considering this. Addison smiled into herself, this was something she had seen countless women do, they'd be lost in their own world just them and their unborn baby – a secret bond, one she'd always hoped she have herself. Now that experience was a very likely possibility given her very late period but she was so scared of the fact that she couldn't bring herself to confirm it. As a doctor she had seen some strange predicaments but her own right now had to be one of the strangest. She was friends with her husbands' ex girlfriend, who was pregnant, with a baby she claimed wasn't Derek's but Addison couldn't be sure. And now Addison herself was most likely also pregnant. She sighed to herself, fate worked in mysterious ways.

" I don't really mind if it's a boy or a girl, like they say just as long as it's healthy." She looked down at her stomach once more " but I guess you're right I think some shopping's in order. Plus I'm absolutely dying for a Twinkie."

" Oh god yes, I'm starving."

Got the news today
Doctors said I had to stay
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
When I thought it'd all be done
When I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.

Walking around the large mall, both women were talking and listening to each other animatedly, whilst each carrying armfuls of bags. Addison gasped as she saw a shop that intrigued her.

" Oh my god we have to go in." She said rushing towards the baby-clothing store, Meredith walking more slowly behind her.

" Geez Addison you're more excited than I am." She said to her friends back as the other woman picked up tiny items of clothing and swooned.

" Everything's so cute!" she said pouting. Meredith smiled at how excited Addison was. She had noticed how caring a person Addison was, that first infamous meeting with Addison she had come across as some beautiful, Prada-wearing ice queen but Meredith had realised this was just a defence mechanism, a mask she had worn to cover up the hurt and insecurities. But in reality she cared a lot about her patients and her family and her friends and that now included Meredith.

" Have you ever thought about kids?"

" Umm yeah…" Addison replied slowly, choosing her words carefully " of course I've thought about it, I mean Derek and I were married for 11 years."

" Have been."

" What?"

" You have been married for 11 years, you said were."

" Oh right…well after everything that's been going on we're not exactly on 'lets have kids terms'."

" I think you'd make a great mother, you're very patient and you're kind but you can also be firm – all excellent parenting qualities. In fact you can have this kid if you want." Meredith said trying to joke and change the subject.

" Somehow I don't think that'll be necessary Dr Grey." I think I've got that base covered all by myself. " But thanks for the compliments all the same. You're not big on babies huh?"

" I do like kids but I think everyone knows I have serious mother issues so I didn't really know if I'd have kids, especially not now. But its here and happening, time I dealt with it so lets go look at some onesies."

Addison gave her a grin.

" Okay."

But you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know know, know.
You don't even know.

Meredith and Addie fell into Meredith's house laughing but tired from the mass of shopping they had with them.

" Wow you New Yorker's really know how to shop."

Addison laughed, " Yeah, I'm a total shopaholic, you can't beat the shops in New York. Though I didn't get much time to actually shop when I was there, what with our schedules and I mean that only gets worse when you have your own practice."

Addison looks to the floor obviously thinking about something.

And you don't know what you got 'til it's gone.
Don't know what it's like to feel so low, yeah!
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow,
You don't even know.

" So you wanna stay for a while?"

Two hours later the women are watching a movie slobbed out on Meredith's couch. As the movie reaches its climax, tears form in Addison's eyes and slowly make their way down her cheeks. These quickly multiply and she begins to sob, realising she can't stop. Meredith turns to her concerned.

" Oh Addie, what's wrong."

Addison just shakes her head and Meredith knows it's her turn to comfort Addison, without needing to know why. She lays Addison's head in her lap and strokes her hair reassuring her its okay.

More and more waves of emotion hit Addison and all she can do is succumb to them and cry. Memories of New York flash through her head of happier times when her and Derek had been happy, when they had bought their very first apartment in New York, when they had gotten married, when they had each opened their own practices. Then the image of his face that fateful night when he had walked in on her and Mark, he just looked so broken and then he walked out of her life and she was broken. Then her thoughts shifted to the baby that she was most likely carrying, a baby that would be born almost the same time as Meredith's and only going to complicate everyone's lives so much further. A tiny person so innocent, they didn't deserve to be born into this – neither did Meredith's - how could they make such a mess? Images of what she thought the baby could look like filled her head and Mother Nature kicked in. she loved this baby, no matter what.

So I'll wait 'til kingdom come.
All the highs and lows are gone.
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
I'll be...fine

So this was just a kinda safe chapter, nothing really revealed so I promise revelations soon! If there's anything you'd like to see happen in the story or any suggestions just leave them in a review and I'll try to add it to the story. I'm taking my comptuer to the shop so might be a couple of days till the next one. Review review please!