Okay guys thanks for the reviews, the new chapters are going to get much more dramatic I think :D. This episode is kinda based on 3x04, though prom hasn't happened yet as I may use that...

Addison lay back on the large medical bed, chewing on her nails nervously. She had worked up the courage to finally find out her fate, coming directly to the source - her gynaecologist. Now her stomach knotted and twisted, her courage gone, she sat awaiting her doctor to return feeling like a scared child. Her gynaecologist was an old college friend of her and Derek and worked in a more low-key hospital, the other side of Seattle, nice and far from Seattle grace. The last thing Addison wanted was to run into anyone, she wanted time to process her own feelings. The door opened and in walked her long time friend, Tyler Jones; the look on his face numbed her. He was smiling.

" Well Addie you tell Derek I wanna see him for a drink cuz you're definitely pregnant! Congratulations!" he bent down and kissed her on the cheek. " Okay so I know you know the drill but it's protocol and since I'm sure you're ecstatic I'll go through it all."

He proceeded to go through what happens after this and the precautions she would have to take. Addison pretended to listen but instead tried to get her head around the news. A baby.

" Lets take a look shall we." Tyler said smiling at her.

" Remember this stuffs cold." He said lifting her shirt.

She looked towards the black screen and sees her uterus fill it. Tyler moves around her stomach trying to find the baby. Having not found it right away or after moving across her stomach a few times, Addison begins to panic.

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
Was the hardest part
And the strangest thing
Was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start

In another room almost identical to the one Addison was in, not too far away lay Meredith grey. She was chatting animatedly with the female doctor who was giving her her scan.

" So now my number one confidant is Derek's wife." The doctor laughs.

" That's a pretty crazy story Meredith."

" Yeah but she's actually helped me a lot, she made me realise this is okay." She said referring to her stomach.

" Well that's great, I think it shows you're both good people to be able to become friends in spite of all that's happened." She turned back to the screen. " Now you're around 13 weeks."

Meredith grinned.

" Wow, I can't believe it, it's amazing."

" Okay so we can see here's the head, the arms, little fingers, legs and feet."

" So 13 weeks, does that sound about right?"

" Umm I guess…"

" Is it Derek's?"

Addison started to tear up.

" Where is it." She said in a low whiney voice.

" Come on Addie, you know they're just hiding sometimes." He moved a little to the left and smiled as a thumping could now be heard. Addison smiled and let out a sigh, she was worried for nothing, she was a doctor but was already a neurotic mother. I guess I do want you baby.

" So by the looks of it you're about 8 weeks, does that look right to ya Dr Montgomery?" he said teasing her.

Addison smiled more now. It's definitely Derek's.

" Yeah that looks about right doc, thanks Tyler."

" Of course…but you haven't told Derek yet, have you?"

" You know me too well…"

" It's been written all over your face since you came, the question is why?"

" Things have been complicated recently to say the least." She looked down for a moment.

" But I guess now they're looking up, right?"

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining in the clouds
Oh and I
I wish that I could work it out

Meredith walked down the corridor feeling in high sprits; finally she had faced up to her predicament and had seen her baby for the first time. She was scared of being scared but the strange thing was she wasn't scared at all. She was okay and – happy. The only one bad thing that was running in her mind was " Is it Derek's?" Meredith walked further down the corridor and was soon very close to someone who looked like…

Addison walked down the corridor feeling much better than before, her pregnancy now 100% confirmed meant she could figured out her next step. She knew she was having the baby, no way could she have another abortion, it had almost killed her the first time besides how many second chances could one person get? And even without all that she loved her baby, she had loved it since the moment she had realised her period was late. Now the only question was " But I guess now they're looking up, right?" walking down the corridor she approached another women, she realised who it was long after she had any chance of escaping. Great. Plastering on her best fake smile she continued to walk towards her fate.

" Meredith." She greeted.

" Hey Addie, I hope you're not stalking me." She said teasingly though eyed her a little suspiciously.

" Ha ha, no I was just here for a check-up, an old friend of mine works here. But anyway how was it?" she lied eager to chance the subject, as much as she valued Meredith now, it just wasn't the time to tell her this, though she knew it couldn't stay secret for long.

" It went great, everything's fine." She didn't divulge any more information. She knew Addison would want more not to mention there was no way she could lie, doctors always find out the truth.

" Good." Addison smiled though still lost in her own thoughts.

" Good? Are you feeling all right?"

Addison chuckled.

" Yes Meredith, I'm fine."

Meredith didn't believe her but she was in no position to accuse anyone of anything.

" Good."

Addison pulled out a Twinkie from her bag and started to chomp it down much to the surprise of Meredith. She eyed the women suspiciously once again.

" What?! It's not my fault I've been spending all my time with you these are all you eat." Feigning innocence.

" I'm pregnant."

" You're just jealous that I have one and you don't." she teased her. Meredith pouted a little and Addison waited a few seconds more before reaching into her bag and producing a second, which she gave to Meredith who happily accepted. In literally 2 seconds half of Meredith's was gone.

" I won't question this time as to why you have 2 Twinkies considering you're sharing but next time I may ask why." She looked at the red head but said nothing more on the subject.

Guess I won't share with her that I have another 2 in my bag and that this isn't exactly my first one today…

Addison stands at the nurses' station flipping through a chart while munching down another Twinkie. Christina and Izzie are standing nearby discussing George and Callie. Meredith walks up to Addison.

" Hey you paged…another Twinkie?" Addison looks up guiltily and does a little half shrug.

Christina and Izzie now watch this interaction.

" You'll make yourself sick." At this moment Addison feels acid in her stomach. I have to get damn morning sickness right now? She goes pale.

" I…I think you're right." She throws it in the trash. She takes a deep breath in through her nose, trying to stop feeling sick.

" So you paged?"

" Right, I'm working on a case I need an intern, there might be a surgery?" Addison felt the sickness build and started to feel faint.

" Cool I'm in." Addison started to walk forwards but stopped and wobbled a little grabbing onto the desk for help. She bent her head down and closed her eyes for a second.

" Eww I think she-Shepard's going to puke, I am not cleaning that up." Christina mumbled to Izzie.

Meredith touched Addison's back for support.

" I told you Addison." Meredith said joking.

Addison took more deep breaths as she started to heave a little.

" Okay Addie I was kidding, you can stop now."

Christina and Izzie look at each other confused. " Addie?!" They mouth at one another. Since when were Meredith and Satan on such good terms? Meredith bent down and saw the pained expression on Addison face, clearing seeing she was genuinely ill.

" Okay you need to sit Addie." Addison straightened up.

" I'm fine Meredith lets go." Meredith looked at her sceptically but followed when she started walking away. Izzie and Christina started after the two both confused to what they had just witnessed.

Walking down the corridor later Addison once again stopped abruptly and clutched the wall for support. She stroked her stomach gently waiting for the feeling to pass.

" Mommy's at work baby, this morning sickness isn't good." She whispered. The feeling subsides a little and she walks down the hall. She sees Dr Bailey and the interns and approached them. Derek also approaches.

" Karev. Dr. Grey, I am clipping a basilar tip aneurysm. Any interest." He sees Addison and pauses to smile.

" Dr Bailey can I get- " Addison sees Mark Sloan shaking hands with the chief.

" Oh my god." Addison again clutches the nearest desk for support, a combination of seeing Mark and pregnancy symptoms. Derek follows her line of vision.

" Oh…my…god."

Meredith also notices.

" Oh my god…"

" Is that?" George begins

" McSteamy." Christina finishes for them all.

Addison throws up on the floor. Meredith and Derek both rush forward to her, everyone else startled.

" Addison..." Derek and Meredith both look to the other frowning and Meredith takes a step back realising it was Derek's place. Addison offers her a small smile.

" You okay?" Derek asks concerned.

" Yeah, I'll be fine, just something I ate."

" Can we get someone to clean this up?" Derek says looking around whilst leading Addison over to the seats.

" You okay to work?"

" Yes just as long as I don't bump into Mark." Derek's face-hardens as he remembers his former best friends presence.

" Yeah me either." He strokes Addison's cheek. " I have a patient…"

" Of course, yeah go." With a final look at Addison he stands up and catches Meredith's eye for a few seconds before heading off, this doesn't go unnoticed by Addison.

" Let's go Grey." Addison barks and Meredith scrambles after her, chalking her tone up to all the events that just happened.

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining in the clouds
Oh and I
I wish that I could work it out

Hours later Addison was well and truly ready to go home. Usually at the end of shift she was still able to stay longer if required but not today, her pregnancy had drained her today. The last thing she needed was to talk to Mark Sloan unfortunately he had just cornered her at the stairs. Meredith, Christina and George were all observing both scenes, quite obviously amused.

" You can't do this. You can't be here…especially not now." She said the last part much more quietly so there was less chance of him hearing.

" Sure I can. It was easy. Sublet the apartment. Sold the practice."

" I...I can't deal with you, I feel nauseous."

She walked over to the nurses' station and felt another wave of nausea hit. She put her hand to her forehead. Meredith walks over to her. Christina and George observe this new scene as does mark all clearly intrigued by the other woman and the mistress speaking to one another. Addison rushes to the trashcan and throws up once again.

" Oh my god." She whispers to herself.

" Oh my god, are you pregnant?!" Meredith asks a little too loudly.

Everyone was paying full attention now. Addison looks up for a moment and then throws up again. Mark starts to walk towards her and everyone else looks on gob smacked. Addison stands up and quickly walks away. Meredith chases after her.

" Addie, Addie wait!"

Addison walked into an empty exam room. She took a breath but didn't have time to compose herself as Meredith entered the room before she knew it. Addison didn't look at her. Meredith waited for her to speak when no explanation came she started.

" So I'm guessing the silence means that you are."

" Yes."

" You could have told me, I mean I know you and Derek have sex."

" Could I? Really? How do you think you would have reacted? I mean look at you you're already angry."

" Because you didn't tell me!"

" NO! Because you still love him and because part of you still hopes you might work."

" No." She quietly repeated for reassurance " No."

" I mean god Meredith, this is all such a mess."

" I know."

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do it just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
Oh and that's the hardest part
That's the hardest part
Yeah, that's the hardest part
That's the hardest part

Okay so there you have it, next one will be much more interesting :D, I'm going to work on it ASAP! REWIEWWSSS please :)