Hi everyone! This is my first ever warriors fanfiction.
I've been here on for a while now but I haven't left my Harvest Moon genre until today. xD
This is short I'm not sure if you guys do things different over here, so I hope it isn't to bad. Haha.
Just a little One Shot on Leafpool and what must be going through her head when she thinks of Crowfeather and her kits.
Please Enjoy.
How could be something that felt so right be so wrong?
Lately I found that questions seeping into my head more and more, and every time I shrunk under its weight. The thing about it was I knew it was wrong we both did, but we weren't ready to stop it…
The way my heart would flutter at his name, how his voice would echo I my head while he spoke my clinging on his every word. StarClan why couldn't I stop myself?
I hated they way he made me feel, the emotions that he stirred every essence he brought. I even hated myself who would not stop these things I'd sworn off what seemed like such a long time ago… What I didn't understand was why I couldn't hate him…
He was the enemy in all sense of the name, from a rival neighboring clan and a hot-head at that. He'd be sworn off from all the she-cats in ThunderClan just for that. I should have called Brambleclaw from the very beginning to escort his old friend off, frog's feet I still should!
Yet I cannot… and that has to be the most infuriating thing about it!
He should find someone else, someone not forbidden someone who could love him back without the consequences... And I couldn't even be strong enough to tell him to do that either… because I didn't want him with anyone else…
We met countless times, after sundown or before everyone wakened. I would simply take a walk to gather my thoughts or collect herbs, I was allowed that. He on the other hand I did not know… Perhaps he snuck out I had never thought to ask.
It all had seemed so surreal, and wonderful no one was supposed to find out. Though foolish now to say that, I don't know how we could've thought we were able hide such a thing…
When he offered to runaway I was foolish, like a mouse about to feasted upon. I couldn't say I didn't know the consequences I did… but I was blinded. Blinded by love…
It was glorious but short lived, we had to return our clans we knew our mistake then. What was worse though was so did everyone else.
They all knew the foolish warrior and medicine cat had run off, abandon their clans. The look on my father's face, Firestar I'm sorry…
It was just when I was getting stronger, deflecting the looks on my clanmates faces. Foolishly thinking things would go back to normal, I felt that tiny kick… His kits… my kits…
They were splendid, the best little things in the world. But no one could know. Squirrelflight bless you sister you risked everything for them. She followed my instructions, helped be hid my growing belly... claimed them as her own. Blessed she eve lied to her mate, who fathered them like her own…
I owe them so much… And what did their true father do? He abandon them, turned his back and walked the simpler path… just as I told him to.
Crowfeather you stupid fur-ball, I hope you're happy. Because you've taught me one of the toughest lessons in life… love.
Why it is sworn off from medicine cats, it contorts your mind makes you think things you don't. It clouded my vision enough to allow me to run off and abandon my clan… StarClan is wise and that code is not for nothing, curse me for not realizing it sooner…
Now all I can do is pray, pray to you great warriors ancestors. Help them, for it is to late for me I made my bad decision… But please don't punish them. They don't deserve it, Oh StarClan…
So? How'd I do? Please review!