By Alahria Silvermoon
Disclaimer: I am in love with two fictional characters called Sirius Black and Remus Lupin. Oh how I wish I owned them. But sadly, I don't own any of it.
6:00am, Girls Dormitories
Oh my god, that was so embarrassing.
So you know how I left you to get some sleep? Well, me and Sirius talked for a bit more. AND THEN WE BOTH FELL ASLEEP TOGETHER ON THE LOUNGE.
And I woke up about 10 minutes ago with my head on Sirius's shoulder. I jumped, because I was quite surprised, and then Sirius woke up as well.
He apologised, and I said it was okay. Then he told me to go upstairs and get some sleep. So I did, and now here I am.
I didn't cheat on Tristan, did I?
I mean, we're not even officially going out yet. All we did was sit together at lunch every day until today. I'm pretty sure that if you haven't gone out on an actual date with a guy and you end up falling asleep on another guy's shoulder, it isn't cheating. How can it be?
I'm stressing for nothing. ARGH, SHUT UP EVELYN.
I think lack of sleep is getting to my head. I am literally talking to myself now.
But does talking to yourself mean that you're really insane? Or do people just say that because it is unusual?
ARGH.
7:30am
Managed to get an hours worth of sleep. Am dead tired now.
I can barely keep my eyes open. I am going to take a shower.
7:51am
Took a shower, washed my hair and got dressed. Julez and Lily were waiting for me when I got out.
Now while I am writing in this diary, Lily is straightening my hair and Julez is doing my make-up.
8:02am
I actually look quite nice. My hair is dead straight, for the first time in my life. Julez did my make-up really nice. I have on dark grey eye shadow, lashings of black mascara and my eyes are outlined in black eyeliner, to go for the 'smoky look' that we saw in Strictly Witches (most popular witches magazine). Julez and Lily are geniuses.
8:43am, Gryffindor Common Room
I didn't want to go downstairs to eat breakfast, because I didn't want to run into Tristan. I heard it's bad luck to see your…um…boyfriend before your date.
Or maybe that's for weddings. I think it is, actually.
Oh well, better safe than sorry. That's what my mum always says.
Speaking of my mum, she was ecstatic when I wrote to tell her that I was going to go out with Tristan. Apparently, she is friends with his mum, since they bumped into each other at Flourish and Blotts last year.
Lily and Julez just came into the room, carrying a plate of toast. I'm too nervous to eat anything, but I'll try my best.
8:47am
Sirius Black just walked into the common room. Just as I was getting up. When he saw me, he stopped dead in his tracks and his jaw kinda dropped. It was so weird. And stupid me says: "Do I look that bad?"
Then he sort of gave a strangled noise like he was trying to clear his throat (but failing to do so) and swallowed, before saying: "Oh, um, no. You look stunning." He was blushing, and looked quite flustered.
Sirius Black, flustered? What is the world coming to?
Then James walked in and whistled when he saw me, telling me I looked gorgeous. Peter and Remus (who were also with him) agreed and enquired as to why I was so dressed up.
What is wrong with them? I bet I look hideous and they don't want me to know so they are just making up stuff. Well, I have always firmly believed that 'honesty is the best policy'. Either that, or they have distorted vision.
Anyway, I told them that I was going out with Tristan, and Sirius just happened to be taking a sip of pumpkin juice (I think he got it from the Great Hall). Anyway, upon hearing this news, he choked. James, Remus, and Peter rolled their eyes, trying not to look at him.
Then Marietta walked in, talking loudly with Lana about how the strawberry jam she had on her toast was going to make her fat. Then she saw me and gave an evil-looking grin. She then went over to Sirius and kissed him on the cheek, telling him that she was 'so excited' about their date today.
And then they sat down and started making out.
9:01am, Girls Dormitories
Julez just goes; "Did you see Sirius's face when he walked into the common room?"
"Yeah, he couldn't take his eyes of you," Lily added. "He is so in love with you."
"As if," I replied. "He probably though I looked hideous and just said I looked nice so he didn't seem rude."
"Evelyn, you're so blind," Julez told me.
"Anyway, it's not like I can actually go out with him" I said. "He is going out with Marietta and I am going out with Tristan."
But I still wonder, did that mean that Sirius likes me?
9:04am
As if.
9:05am
Like he would ever like me.
Him liking me has as much of a chance of happening as the dinosaurs coming back to life.
That is just so depressing.
9:07am
Why am I stressing over whether Sirius Black likes me or not?
I practically have a boyfriend now.
And so yeah, he isn't exactly the guy of my dreams, but he is nice. And I have a feeling that we will be very happy together.
9:08am
Wait, this is me we're talking about. Since when I am ever happy? Nothing ever goes right for me.
9:11am
Lily just told me that I should stop being so negative, as it gets me nowhere, and start being more positive.
But I have tried that already. When I am positive, it turns out negative. And when I am negative, it turns out positive.
An example of this is my 14th birthday. I was convinced that my mum was going to get me a new broomstick for my birthday, and I got all excited about it, and then she got me a new set of robes instead, promising me that she would get me a broomstick if I made it on the Quidditch team. (I went for the position of Chaser in my fourth year, but I didn't get it because I fell of my broom and ended up in the hospital wing).
Anyway, see how I get sidetracked? The same year, I was convinced that my grandmother was going to give me a horrible orange jumper that she had hand knitted herself, and I stressed about what I was going to do with it for ages. But then she died and left everything to my family and she was quite rich, so she split all her money so that me, Angela, Micheal and my mum all got equal shares. (Although none for my father. My grandmother hated him because he moved out of our house). It was actually quite sad, even though I didn't know my grandmother that well. She'd only come to visit that one time before my birthday, and she spent the whole three days knitting that orange jumper. I don't know what she did with it, though.
So therefore, when I think negatively, it turns out good. And when I think positively, it turns out bad.
Mhmm.
That's right.
Er...
ARGH, I always get sidetracked, don't I?
9:41am
In nine minutes, I am going down to the Entrance Hall to meet Tristan.
AAAHHH!!!
12:11am, Girls bathrooms in the Three Broomsticks
Well, this isn't so bad.
I mean, I won't pretend that it's not completely nerve-wracking, but I'm actually having fun.
I can't believe I am writing this in a toilet cubicle, on account of what happened last time I was in one writing in my diary.
I just tried opening the door. I can get out if I want, it isn't jammed this time. And even if it was, I have my wand and I could climb under the door.
Anyway, I had to get all this down before it all ran out of my head.
So I went down to the Entrance Hall with Julez and Lily to meet Tristan. He was waiting there for me, and kissed me on the cheek when I came up to him. Me, him, Julez and Lily all stood in the line together while Filch checked each of the notes.
It was kind of awkward, like there was nothing much to say.
Then the marauders came up behind us (we were at the end of the line). And stupid James decided to have another go at asking Lily out.
He went; "Would you care to accompany me to Hogsmeade on this fine day?"
"Do you really expect me to ditch my friend for you?" Lily answered, sounding bored.
I stomped on James's foot, glaring at him. He avoided looking at me.
And then stupid Marietta came up. Why does she always seem to interrupt?
Anyway, we all parted ways when we reached the village of Hogsmeade. Tristan asked me where I wanted to go, and I had absolutely no idea. So then he suggested that we go to Honeydukes.
We spent quite a while in there, eating samples of different chocolates and lollies. Tristan brought me a packet of Bertie Botts, after I told him that they were my favourite.
Then, we went and sat down on a bench away from the crowd outside a clothing store where we devoured my Bertie Botts, laughing at all the different flavours.
He claimed that he once got a bogey-flavoured one. And I couldn't help but wonder, how the hell did he know what bogies tasted like? But of course I wasn't stupid enough to voice this concern.
Then we went to the Three Broomsticks, where he insisted on buying me Butterbeers. And we chatted about this and that. I was actually having a pretty good time.
He didn't make any intention of trying to kiss me or anything, though.
And now here I am, in the bathroom.
Oh crap, it's been about 10 minutes already. I'd better get back to him.
4:08pm, Gryffindor Tower, Girls Dormitories
Just came back from my date with Tristan. I hurried up here as quickly as I could, where I pulled the hanging of my bed shut so that I could write down everything that happened.
So after I came out the bathroom, I just told him that I had been chatting to a friend in there and I was terribly sorry to have kept him waiting. He, being the gentleman he was, said that it was all right.
So then we decided to walk around Hogsmeade, as it was a rather nice day. At least, I thought it was.
It was a cloudy day, with a cool breeze blowing, looking and feeling as if it were about to rain at any moment. I love the rain, especially walking in it. Tristan just gave me a strange look when I told him this, though.
We came to Madame Puddifoots. It is a small coffee shop decorated with confetti and ribbons, to give off a romantic vibe. Marietta and Lana talked about it all the time, and how it was THE place to go. So when Tristan asked me if I wanted to go in there, I said yes because I wanted to see what all the fuss was about.
It's not that good, actually. Far too pink for my liking. And way too lovey-dovey.
Tristan seemed to think so too, as we burst out laughing as soon as we sat down. Up until this time, it had been a bit awkward. But we 'bonded' over our dislike for the coffee shop, making fun of all the decorations and snogging couples.
And of course, off in a far corner of the shop, was Marietta and Sirius, snogging.
ARGH. How I hate her at times.
After a few different coffees, we decided to leave and head back towards Hogwarts. We chatted animatedly about the weather, until we reached the Entrance Hall. Then Tristan insisted on walking me up to Gryffindor tower.
Wasn't that nice of him?
Upon arriving there, he paused and turned to me. And then he said; "So, er…would you like to be my girlfriend, then?"
Just like that. I rather admire his straightforwardness, although it could get a bit annoying in the future.
"Um, yeah, sure," I answered.
Then he kissed me. Not just a peck on the lips, either. A full on-the-lips, tongue-and-all kiss. It was rather surprising, like I wasn't expecting it. And it's not like I haven't snogged a guy before. This kiss was rather nice. Although he pressed his mouth against mine a bit too hard, and the kiss was a bit rough. I had to hold onto him and push myself against him to keep from falling over backwards.
When we pulled apart, after several minutes, I saw Sirius disappearing hurriedly into the portrait. Mildly confusing, it was.
"Well, I guess I'll see you tomorrow, then," Tristan said.
"Yeah, see you then," I replied. And then, he waited until I had gotten through the portrait, before walking off.
Uh-oh, Lily and Julez just came into the room. They won't let me go anywhere until I have told them everything. Write more later.
Monday 7th October, 8:05am, Great Hall
Me and Tristan went for a walk down to the lake yesterday to do our homework. Not together, obviously, because he is a seventh year. But he is quite good at Potions, so he helped me with that.
When we finished, we just sat there on the grass, talking and snogging.
Okay, this is going to sound gross, but when Tristan kisses me, sometimes he leaves a bit of saliva around my lips. And I have no idea what to do! So I just sorta sit there and wait until it dries.
I KNOW, I KNOW, IT'S GROSS.
It's only sometimes, though.
7:14pm, Gryffindor Common Room
It is rather nice having a boyfriend.
They walk you to class, hex people that annoy you, sit with you at mealtimes, and kiss you goodnight.
He is so nice. And we have so much in common. Okay, not a lot.
Like, I enjoy reading and he doesn't. I like the rain, he hates it. We both like snogging, though. And Care of Magical Creatures classes. He wants to work at Gringotts, when he finishes school. I don't know what he plans to do there, though.
8:17pm, Gryffindor Common Room
Me, Julez and Lily are just quietly chatting and scoffing pumpkin pasties that the marauders have snitched from the kitchens.
James had originally come up with the idea to go and get Lily something to eat, after hearing from Owen Perkins that the way to a girl's heart is through her stomach. But then the marauders decided to get some for all of us. Charming.
And you know what James said? He got his words mixed up again and the stupid git said; "I heard that the way to a girl's stomach is through her heart." When in actual fact, he meant to say; "I heard that the way to a girls heart is through her stomach."
Me and Julez carefully avoided looking at each other so we wouldn't burst out laughing and further embarrass the poor git. Lily gave a snort of laughter, though, but accepted the pasties while Remus elbowed James in the arm and Sirius stomped on his foot. Peter just stared at James, admirably.
The poor guy is completely infatuated with him. I kind of feel sorry for him, though. Like, he's so devoted to his friends and they are to him as well, but he is rather obsessed with James.
Lily just muttered, "Nice to know I make him so nervous he mixes up his words." She had a kind of half smile as well.
But when I enquired as to what she had just said, she pretended not to hear me and changed the subject.
8:31pm
Tania Harlitiah (a seventh year) just came up to us and said she wanted to tell Julez something she had just found out.
"Julez," she began. "I just thought that it is my duty to tell you that I overheard the marauders talking earlier. And, well, I know that you have a crush on Remus. I mean, who doesn't know? Honestly. But anyway, I just wanted to tell you that he likes you too! And he plans on asking you out tomorrow when you are both on prefect duties."
Me, Lily and Julez just sat there, stunned, as if someone had stupefied us. Then, I guess the reality of the situation sunk in for Julez, and she started choking on a piece of pastie. She spluttered for a bit, her face going red, while me and Lily bashed her on the back.
"I've stopped choking, you idiots!" she spluttered, gasping for breath. "Stop hitting me already!"
Tania flicked her dark auburn hair back, chortling along with us. "Poor you," she sympathised.
Then, Remus came up to us. He said; "Are you all right, Julez? That looked pretty nasty."
And stupid Julez goes; "Um, yeah. I am. Okay, that is." She was blushing like mad, turning a rather dark shade of crimson. Then she gulped, hastily muttering that she had to go take a shower and ran off as fast as she could up to the Girls Dormitories.
"She's a bit loony," I explained, when Remus looked at me and Lily with a questioning gaze.
"Yeah, she's not quite right in the head, if you know what I mean," Lily added.
"Well, as long as she's okay," he said, smiling at our attempts to further embarrass our poor friend. Then he walked back over to his friends.
"How did you happen to find this out?" I asked Tania.
"Oh, I just happen to overhear things," she said. "Not that I mean to. I have, like, supersonic hearing, or something. But anyway, if you ever want to know something, just come and ask me. I know practically everything about everyone."
"Er, right, thanks Tania," I said.
But that was rather nice of her, wasn't it? I always thought she was rather up herself, to tell you the truth. Like, she always spread rumours about people (although she always claimed she was merely 'repeating what she heard') and she gossiped with her friends non-stop. But I suppose if you get on her good side, then she's not so bad.
But how did I get on her good side?
I am going upstairs now to see Julez, because Lily just said that she may be attempting to drown herself in the toilet. I said that I thought Julez has more class than that and would no doubt opt for the shower to drown herself in.
But we better go and make sure she is okay.
8:45pm, Girls Dormitories
Well, Julez wasn't attempting to drown herself. Or kill herself in any way. She was lying on her bed, staring at the ceiling with a sort of half-smile on her face.
When she saw me and Lily walk into the room, she sat up and he smile disappeared.
"He thinks I'm an idiot now, doesn't he?" she asked.
"Yeah, pretty much," I answered.
Julez gave a groan and buried her face in her hands.
"Oh Evelyn, you're so mean," Lily said. She went and sat down next to Julez on the bed, putting an arm around her. "He just thinks you're very strange and will probably never ask you out now."
Julez made a noise that sounded like something between a noise that a pig would make and a noise like she was being strangled.
"Julez, we're joking," I said, sitting down on the other side of her. "He was actually concerned about you. He just wanted to make sure you were okay."
"Yeah," Lily agreed. "He does like you. Just wait and see tomorrow."
"Yes, well, maybe he does," Julez finally said, with a smile on her face. "How does Isabelle sound for a girls' name?"
Me and Lily exchanged a 'look'. You know, the one that silently says; "I am, without a doubt, in the presence of the world's craziest person."
"I'm joking," she laughed. "Honestly, I'm not that obsessed. Unlike some people." She shifted her gaze towards me.
"I am not obsessed with Sirius Black!" I exclaimed. "I have a boyfriend, if you happened to notice."
"She never said anything about Sirius Black," Lily said, smirking.
"Oh, you guys are horrible," I muttered.
But now that I have a boyfriend, I will have to cast away my feelings for Sirius. I will have to bury them so deep inside me that they will never resurface.
And yes, I did that steal that line from a book. A muggle novel, but I can't remember what it was called.
Seriously though, I will have to make myself stop liking Sirius somehow.
And yes, I do like Tristan. A lot. It's just that I've liked Sirius ever since way back in third year, when I dropped my quill and since he happened to be sitting behind me, he picked it up and smiled at me.
But I can't like him anymore. Because I have a boyfriend. So shut up, Evelyn.
Tuesday 8th October, 10:16am, Muggle Studies
I am listening to Professor Verde talk about a muggle appliance called a 'microwave'. Apparently, it's a small oven thing that is used to heat up food. How weird is that?
Wait, muggles are weird. And no, I am not one of those muggle-hating purebloods. I was friends with a muggle once when I was seven. Her name was Lucy, and her mum didn't like me on account of all the 'weird people' who visited us and the way we dressed. So she stopped us from seeing each other.
10:21am
It's really awkward.
We are meant to be making a start on our essay about how microwaves work.
Usually, me and Sirius would start chatting and eventually get told off by Professor Verde. But today, he doesn't seem to want to chat, as he is hunched over his parchment.
I know, Sirius Black doing work during class?
10:42am
Okay, so we talked a bit. But just about the essay and how weird muggles were.
6:03pm, Gryffindor Common Room
I have absolutely no life at all.
I am in love with a guy, who obviously loves someone else. Oh, and I have a boyfriend as well. But he isn't the guy I am in love with.
How can Sirius even like Marietta? I mean, sure she's pretty and basically perfect. But she's horrible.
Maybe she's nice when she's around him.
Julez said I should be happy with what I've got. I have a very loving boyfriend. And at least I am friends with Sirius.
Hang on, would we be classified as friends? I mean, we occasionally talk and sit together in one class, but I do that with other people as well and I don't refer to them as friends.
My life is a disaster.
6:06pm
Okay, I am going to try and appreciate all the good things in my life.
I have two loyal friends who I can be myself around. I have a really nice boyfriend who actually likes me (I think). I have a family that cares about me.
ARGH, this is hard. Focusing on all the positive things, I mean. I can't think of anymore.
I am a horrible person, aren't I? I can't even be happy with what I've got.
Well, I am happy with my friends, my boyfriend and my family.
6:14pm
Sirius just walked into the common room and upon seeing me, smiled and winked.
I just stared at him. I think I maybe gave a small smile. But I'm not entirely sure.
Remus and James are giving me weird looks. Peter is looking at me sympathetically.
What did I do now?
6:16pm
I just asked Lily why they were staring at me like that.
Lily said that I was staring at Sirius, and making it obvious that I liked him.
I am so embarrassed. Does that mean everyone knows now?
I seriously didn't think I was being that obvious.
11:18pm, Girls Dormitories
I just ate 7 chocolate frogs.
I know, I'm a pig. But I was hungry and depressed, okay?
I am in one of those moods where you just can't be bothered doing anything.
I can't sleep. It was because of the chocolate, I think. I feel sick now, I ate too much. And it was all for nothing, it didn't make me feel better at all.
Sirius and Marietta made out by the fire all night.
11:21pm
I just realized that I didn't tell you what happened with Julez and Remus.
Well, he didn't ask her out.
She came into the common room by herself, looking kinda sad. And then went straight up the dormitories.
She said she was fine. I said Remus probably took one look at her and chickened out. I meant it as a compliment, but she took it as an insult.
She said that there was some definite flirting going on. And they laughed a lot.
We are all going to have a girl's night on Friday. You know, like talking and junk food and truth or dare.
Hopefully it will make Julez feel better.
Okay, I'm going to sleep now. Well, I'll try and sleep.
A/N: So how was this chapter? Fantastic? Horrible? Be sure to let me know.
Oh, and if you have any suggestions for this story (like improvements, ideas for it, ways to torture Evelyn, or whatnot) just let me know. I'll definetly consider them.
And by the way, I don't bite. :
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