DECLARATIONS OF A DIFFERENTIATED TEEN
By Alahria Silvermoon
Disclaimer: Refer to chapter one.
Wednesday 26th November, 1:02pm, Potions
Marietta keeps glaring at me.
I wonder what I did this time…
1:05pm
She just hissed; "You can try and steal Sirius away from all you want. But you'll never get him. He loves me not you. I mean, who would ever like a pathetic little dweeb like you anyway? You can't even hold onto a guy for a month." Then her and Lana snickered, and she turned back around with a triumphant grin on her face.
I noticed Remus glaring at her. He caught my eye and smiled sympathetically, and I could almost hear him thinking; 'Don't worry about it. Just ignore her."
There are some really mean people in this world.
1:09pm
Ugh.
Professor Slughorn just asked me a question. Something about a truth potion, I think.
Anyway, I wasn't listening. So when Julez nudged me, I was like; "Huh?"
The whole class tittered.
Professor Slughorn made one of those 'tut tut' noises, before turning his attention onto another victim.
Lana turned around and was like; "Loser."
I just glared at her, while Marietta smirked at her appreciatively.
"Just give up on Sirius," Marietta said.
"I don't even like him in that way," I stated, rolling my eyes. Why did she keep going on about it?
"Sure you don't," Marietta sighed, while applying her cherry lipgloss.
"Cow," Julez muttered.
Marietta glared at her. "I think you're talking about yourself."
"I think not," Julez retorted.
"Just be quiet," Lana said. She always says that. It's getting quite old now.
"Um, are you going to make me?" Julez asked. "Cos' I'd just love to see you try."
1:45pm
Sorry that I had to stop there. A particular incident just occurred.
Anyway, you probably want to know what happened.
After Julez had told Marietta to make her be quiet, it apparently became too much for Marietta, because she suddenly took out her wand and stood up, at the same time as Julez.
"Impedimenta!" Marietta cried.
"Petrificus Totalus!" Julez yelled.
And so they were both hit – Julez in the chest and Marietta in the face because their aims were a bit off. Otherwise, the two spells should of hit each other in mid air, and then ricocheted off each other.
Or something like that anyway, according to Lily.
Anyway, Marietta immediately fell to the floor stiff as a board. And Julez fell over as well, and couldn't get up. It was kinda funny. Every time she tried to sit up, she'd fall back down.
The whole class were chattering and laughing.
Julez kept trying to speak, but all she managed to get out was; "Stupid…cow…teach…you…be…mean…my…friends." Her face was bright red.
Marietta just had a really pissed off look on her face.
"Ladies!" Professor Slughorn's voice boomed across the room.
Lily had already muttered the counter curse for Julez, and so had Lana for Marietta. Both of them got to their feet, glaring at each other.
"I'm afraid I'm going to have to give you both detention," Professor Slughorn said. "Every Tuesday night for a month. There is no need for fighting." Then he turned his attention to Marietta. "That was a rather strong Impedimenta jinx, Ms. Kerribelle." Marietta glowed with pride. "And Ms. Darcy, your Petrificus Totalus jinx worked very well. You have a sharp eye and quick reflexes."
Marietta's smug look disappeared as Julez blushed, murmuring; "Thanks."
So now they both have detention.
1:57pm
Marietta is such a cow. She just turned around and smirked at me, then turned back around and smiled up at Sirius, who was looking at her. He smiled back and put his arm around her.
I so want to throw something.
Too bad we write with quills instead of pens.
I wonder if there is anything else sharp around here…
2:01pm
Julez and Lily didn't have a nailfile.
But Lana overheard and said she did and then asked why I needed it.
I decided to just be honest and said; "To stab Marietta."
She looked like she wanted to laugh for a second. But then she just glared at me and rolled her eyes.
She is as bad as Marietta. Although I do feel sorry for her. Marietta is always doing mean things to her like making her do her homework and stuff.
I tried asking Lily once if she would do my homework for me. She just laughed at me, like she thought I was joking.
4:05pm, Girls Dorms
Why can't my life be just a teensy bit more eventful? Like, I'm so boring.
I mean, Marietta is always going to the Astronomy Tower and making out with guys (well, now it's Sirius) and she always has designer robes and her make up is always perfect.
But then again, she's a total cow. And I'm nice.
Well, I'm pretty sure I am.
4:09pm
I need pumpkin juice.
4:11pm
Or better yet…
POTATOES!
Yum.
4:13pm
My stomach just growled.
Very loudly.
And Marietta rolled her eyes and sighed heavily in annoyance.
Why is she such a cow?
7:14pm, Gryffindor Common Room
Lana just had one of her famous panic attacks.
She has an anxiety problem, where she freaks out about small things (like forgetting her homework), and then she starts hyperventilating.
That must be what being friends with Marietta does to you.
Anyway, Marietta had gone off somewhere. To snog Sirius, no doubt.
And Lana was meant to be finishing off her homework for her or something. She went upstairs for a minute and when she came back down and had sat down, she realised that the essay wasn't there anymore.
It was actually quite freaky. Out of nowhere, she just started sobbing hysterically and taking deep, gasping breaths of air and murmuring; "She's going to kill me" and rocking back and forth.
Remus tried to calm her down by patting her on the back and assuring her that it was somewhere around.
Then Peter found it under the table. James grinned at him and Peter looked like he was going to pass out from happiness.
I bet he has a secret crush on James.
James is really nice. If I wasn't in love with Sirius and he wasn't so obsessed with one of my best friends, I'd probably be attracted to him.
That's a scary thought, actually.
Well, Lana has calmed down now. She keeps glancing at Remus, though, and smiling.
Julez is all; "If she thinks she'll get her hands on my boyfriend, she belongs in St. Mungo's."
"As of Remus would ever leave you," I told her. "He's like, in love with you."
"Hey, I wouldn't go that far," Julez said. "It's only been about less than a month."
Her and Remus are like, the perfect couple. Why can't I have boyfriend and a perfect relationship like they do?
7:23pm
It's not fair that good things happen to bad people.
Marietta has everything. And as a little extra something, she has Sirius as well.
I want Sirius to walk me to class holding my hand. I want Sirius to sit with me at mealtimes, I want Sirius to sit with me by the lake with his arm around me whispering sweet nothings in my ear and gazing lovingly into my eyes, and take me up to the Astronomy Tower to make out, and take me on midnight strolls around the castle and take me to Hogsmeade with him.
He does all that with Marietta.
Friday 28th November, 1:11pm, Potions
I have decided (for the one-millionth time) to get over Sirius. Once and for all.
I confided in Lily and Julez about my decision, a few minutes ago. Via a spare piece of parchment.
And you know what they did?
They laughed at me. We were meant to be doing some theory work in silence, but everyone was talking anyway.
Here's a copy of the note:
I have decided to give up on Sirius once and for all! –Evelyn-Uh…yeah. Whatever you say, Evelyn. –Julez-
"Um, I think she's telling the truth, Julez. –Lily-
When Julez caught sight of my hurt expression, she said; "I'm sorry, Ev. But the last time you said that, you ended up stalking him all the way to the Great Hall and then walked into a wall because you were so focused on him."
"You stalked someone, Ev?" Sirius asked, grinning at me with a bemused expression.
I MADE HIM SMILE!
Oh, wait. I am meant to be over him. Just completely disregard the line above.
I gave a small shriek, because it was rather unexpected. "No!" I said, blushing.
Julez and Lily just kept on laughing. They are so sadistic.
They just wouldn't stop taunting me, so I filled up my quill with ink and flicked it at them, getting ink on their clothes.
And then it was my turn to laugh sadistically.
Julez then scrunched up a piece of paper and pegged it at my head. Only it missed me, and hit Marietta.
She turned around and was like; "You're pathetic", while we all tried to look innocent while writing stuff down.
Then she turned back around and we started spluttering with silent laughter.
1:16pm
Ohmygod.
Oh my god.
Oh. My. God.
I just overheard another conversation between James and Sirius.
And…oh my god, here's what happened.
"Why are you even going out with her?" I heard James say quietly to Sirius.
Both of them looked over at Marietta, where she was complaining about how much weight she had to lose before the Christmas ball, and how she didn't want to end up like Lucy Walker.
"I don't know," Sirius answered, sighing heavily.
"Why don't you dump her, mate?" James continued. "She's a cow, and she's completely horrible."
"I know that," Sirius said, shrugging. "You know why I'm still going out with her."
"Oh yes, I do," James replied. "To make her jealous. And I can confidently say that you're succeeding. The poor girl is completely in love with you, mate."
"And she's funny, and beautiful, and has a tendency to act wierd but that just makes me like her even more," Sirius groaned, his head in his hands. "What would she want with me, anyway? She's everything I've ever wanted."
"Wow, Padfoot, I never knew you were capable of such feelings," Remus said, grinning at him.
And then they resumed talking about pranking the Slytherins.
But now I know that he doesn't like Marietta!
Even though he likes someone else…
But I'd rather it be someone else than Marietta. Anyone is better than her.
1:21pm
Not that I still like him or anything.
Please. I am WAY over him now.
As of today, I am no longer in love with Sirius Black.
I swear on…er…my cat's life!
Because cats have nine lives, after all.
Aw, crap.
Honestly, I just care about him as a friend. That's all.
Friday 28th November, 8:19pm, Gryffindor Tower
Why did I let my mother talk to me into keeping Transfiguration? I mean, she knew I was completely crap at it. And the fact that I passed my Transfig. OWL was a total fluke.
Ditto about Potions.
9:29pm
I am so bored. Lily has gone to bed because she was exhausted. You know, from the trauma of exams and sixth year work and everything. It won't be long until she has a panic attack.
Julez is out with Remus. Taking a walk somewhere, I think. They are so sickening.
9:31pm
Ohmygod.
Sirius just walked through the portrait.
And he's headed towards me.
What should I do?
I knew I should have straightened my hair this morning.
9:36pm
Not that I like him or anything.
I just want to…uh…look nice. For…um…
Yeah, okay.
But seriously, I am over him.
10:11pm, Girls Dorms
Me and Sirius did our Transfig. essays together. He helped me with mine.
He's really smart, actually. Like, he gets top marks in all his subjects. Even though he doesn't seem to study often.
He's one of those people that hear something once and remember it for the rest of their lives.
Whereas I, on the other hand, have to read over all of my notes. And even then, it goes straight through my mind and then disappears so that I don't remember it.
I think I have short-term memory loss.
I read in Witches Weekly the other day about a witch who suffered from short-term loss. She was 18 when she tried to perform the 'Obliviate' spell (to erase the memory) on herself so that she could forget about seeing her boyfriend in bed with another girl. It didn't work properly, and so this weird thing happens when something happens and she forgets all about it and has to be reminded.
Okay, so I'm not that bad. But I still forget things all the time.
And it's not because I am scatterbrained, no matter what Lily and Julez say.
10:18pm
Sirius looked so sexy. His hair was kinda ruffled up and he smelt like cinnamon.
Sigh.
10:22pm
Oh don't look at me like that.
I'm allowed to perve on cute guys, aren't I?
10:29pm
Oh just shut up, will you?
Saturday 29th November, 7:08am, Girls Dorms
Just had an extremely scary dream.
I was the heir of Slytherin and Salazer Slytherin came back to life and was married to Madam Pince. And he told me I had to marry Snape or kill Sirius. I chose to marry Snape, and all I could think about was whether the flowers should be white lilies or black roses, and whether or not the carriage should have hippogriffs pulling it. And then Sirius confessed his undying love to me, but when he found out I was going to marry Snape, he told me I was stupid and then James was chasing me around with his broomstick yelling that I'd ruined his chances with Lily.
And I could talk to snakes and they could talk back and instead of talking I kept hissing, which was really scary.
And Julez and Lily got eaten by a hippogriff that was beheaded by Hagrid (the Hogwarts gamekeeper).
Uh…
That was a really weird dream.
7:11am
I mean, me betrothed to Snape? And being the heir of Slytherin?
That's real creepy, that is.
Now I'm too scared to talk in case I start hissing.
7:13am
I talked normally.
I need a potato…
8:21am, Great Hall
Ohmygod.
Guess what just happened?!
Are you guessing?
Well, I'll tell you anyway.
Okay, so I was eating my breakfast right, and then Julez goes; "Here have some eggs, Ev." And then she handed the plate of eggs to Sirius so he could give them to me.
And then Sirius went; "She doesn't like eggs. Do you?" And he flashed me that sexy smile of his.
I was so startled that he remembered that tiny minuscule little detail about me, that I nodded my head and gave a weird grunting noise.
Julez informed me later on that I sounded like a pig. And I threw my empty goblet at her.
But still. He remembered!
I can't believe he actually remembered!
Life is so wonderful, isn't it?
8:26am
Julez just read that last entry over my shoulder. And then she goes; "I thought you were over him."
And then I informed her that I was. And I was just happy that he remembered, because no one ever remembers that I hate eggs.
I mean, it's bad enough my own mother serves me a huge plate of eggs every Sunday (when I'm at home). You'd think my friends would remember too.
Julez just informed Sirius how ecstatic I was that he remembered that I hated eggs.
"Actually, I was just happy that someone remembered," I stated.
Sirius just looked at us strangely.
8:32am
I just caught Snape's eye and he glared at me.
Ohmygod.
What if my dream actually comes true?
I DON'T WANT TO MARRY SNAPE!
Ew…
8:35am
I accidentally said that out loud. Marietta was sitting next to me and she gave me an evil glare and called me a freak.
Charming, really.
11:13am, Girls Dorms
Ohmygod.
Guess what I just found out.
From Tania Harlitiah. (Even though I don't think I should trust her anymore, but I know for a fact that it is true).
Okay, you ready?
The whole time I was going out with Tristan, well, he was cheating on me.
I am in a severe state of shock.
11:19am
Yeah, so apparently he was cheating on me with some blonde Hufflepuff.
Why is it always blondes?
I am beginning to hate blondes.
No offence to Julez.
11:25am
Tania thinks I am so weird.
When she told me about Tristan cheating on me, (which was in front of all the marauders as well), I started laughing. I don't know why.
She was like; "Um, I'm going to go now."
Then I calmed down and noticed Peter edging slowly away from me with a scared look on his face.
I think I scared him. Again.
Well, I scare everyone, don't I?
2:12pm, Girls Dorms
The whole school now knows that Tristan was cheating on me.
Just about almost every girl in the whole school (minus the Slytherin ones) have come up to me and told me that if I needed to 'talk to someone' I could always talk to them.
That's nice, isn't it? And here I was, thinking the whole school was against me.
I should go out with cheating losers more often.
2:16pm
Okay, so I am perfectly aware of the fact that I should be holed up in room bawling my eyes out.
But I'm not upset or anything.
I mean, sure I'm mad. But I didn't really like him or anything, like I wasn't in love with him.
But still. What a prat.
2:19pm
What am I meant to do if I see him?
Do I do what Lily would do, and go up to him and scream at him?
Or do what Julez would do, and hex him into oblivion?
Argh, help!
2:23pm
I have figured it out.
I will just avoid him!
Perfect.
2:29pm
I bet Sirius would never cheat on a girl.
6:03pm, Girls Dorms
Lily and Julez just brought me up a huge plate of mashed potatoes and veggies.
Yummy.
9:01pm, Gryffindor Tower
My pride is severely wounded.
I couldn't even keep a guy interested in me.
How pathetic is that?
Sunday 30th November, 10:14am, Girls Dorms
Sirius and James hexed Tristan.
So he sprouted tentacles, feelers and had a laughing attack.
Now they both have detention.
10:16am
I feel so bad now. Even though Sirius did it for me.
Which must mean that at least cares about me as a friend.
And as for James, well, I bet he just did it in order to impress Lily and therefore show her what a nice, caring person he is.
10:19am, Common Room
Sirius just told me to stop apologising, I had nothing to do with it, and that he likes hexing people anyway.
11:13am
The marauders are sitting with me, force-feeding me chocolate. They made Peter sneak out and get it.
Remus keeps telling me I am not pathetic. Sirius keeps saying that Tristan is pathetic. James keeps asking if Lily knew about him defending me. And Peter just mumbles stuff occasionally like; "It's not your fault, Evelyn."
Well, duh. But still, he's nice. They're all nice.
Like how they're trying to cheer me up.
But they think I was in love with him and now I am heartbroken.
Which isn't true, as I just explained to them. I am just wierded out that I couldn't keep a guy.
11:19am
Remus and Julez went off somewhere. Again.
And James went off in search of Lily, dragging Peter along with him. Well, not dragging, since Peter would willingly follow James off a cliff.
So now I am left alone with Sirius.
Oh, help me. Kill me.
11:26am
Sirius just said; "He doesn't deserve you, anyway. You deserve so much better."
I almost passed out. Again.
Isn't he just so sweet?
I am more in love…
Er…
What I…uh…meant to say was…um…it was just a figure of speech.
Like, you know how sometimes you say to people; "I could so marry you right now!" But you don't mean it, it's just something you say because you're so happy with them.
Yeah, well that was like that. Minus the whole marrying bit.
11:31am
Sirius just went out to find James, leaving me alone with a bunch of fifth year Gryffindor girls.
I still can't believe he said that. I'm practically dying.
I seriously feel like I'm about to pass out.
He thinks I deserve better!
11:45am
All the Gryffindor girls can talk about is how sexy Sirius Black is and why he won't date any of them, and how all boys are scum.
I just nod my head and say "Yeah" occasionally and that stops them from interrogating me any further.
I wonder if I could somehow sneak away?
12:13pm
They've all gone to lunch now. I said that I wasn't hungry and they were all like; "Oh, I understand that".
So that gets rid of them for now.
8:09pm, Girls Dorms
I ran into Tristan accidentally after dinner. It was so awkward.
I said; "You healed up pretty well."
And then he was like; "Oh, uh, you heard about that?"
I just sort of glared at him. At least I think I did. Knowing me, I attempted to glare and ended up looking like a demented cow or something.
"Look, Evelyn, I'm really sorry," he said. "But a snake just can't shed its skin, right? And anyway, we both know that you didn't like me in that way anyway." Then he sort of gave a half smile. "I did like you, Evelyn. But I knew that you liked someone else. I know who that someone else is as well, but don't worry, I won't say anything. But what goes around comes around, right?" And then he walked off, leaving me gaping in shock.
My mouth kept opening and closing. Like a fish.
Okay, so now I have another reason to feel like absolute crap.
8:11pm
Confided in Julez and Lily. They told me not to be ridiculous, and I wasn't pathetic or a cow.
Julez was like; "You can't help who you fall for."
But still, I kind of led him on a bit, didn't I?
Oh god. I am as bad as Marietta.
8:15pm
Lily just whacked me with a pillow and told me that I was nothing like Marietta.
8:23pm
I bet she never has to worry about guys cheating on her or anything.
8:59pm
If I straightened my hair everyday, wore a ton of make-up, invested in a push-up bra and acted like a total cow, do you think Sirius would go out with me?
9:03pm
I highly doubt it.
Then why is he going out with Marietta?
He deserves better than her.
Monday 31st November, 2:03pm, Potions
It seems like I am in Potions all the time.
Ugh.
And Professor Slughorn just announced that he was going to be pairing us up, and we will now be working in pairs on our Potions.
He is now going on about how it will be a good experience for us to step outside of our social circles, make new friends and show us a lot about working with others.
Whatever. It will probably kill us all.
Unless I get partnered with Sirius…
2:19pm
Ohmygod.
Guess who I got partnered with?!
A/N: Mwahaha I'm so evil! So…who do you think she got partnered with:)
Oh and by the way, I added an extra few things into the 'bathroom scene' so if you want to go and re-read it, then go ahead.
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