DECLARATIONS OF A DIFFERENTIATED TEEN
By Alahria Silvermoon
Disclaimer: Anything Harry Potter-related that you recognise from the books/movies belongs to J.K Rowling. And whoever made the Harry Potter movies.
Wednesday 14th December, 3:13pm, Potions
Snape is being a git again.
Gah.
3:15pm
Snape is still being a git.
Gah again.
3:16pm
Does he ever shut up?
Gah times one hundred.
3:19pm
Gah times one thousand.
3:20pm
Gah times infinity plus one.
That's much better.
3:31pm
He has like, his own way of doing all of the potions. It is so weird.
I hate to say it, but he is really quite smart.
Only at school though. Potions, I mean. I have no idea what he's like at the rest of his subjects.
He'll probably end up being a famous potion maker and earn millions of galleons.
3:33pm
Now I'm depressed.
I bet I'll end up with a crappy job like cleaning toilets or something.
Like Filch.
Shudder.
3:37pm
Lily and James's potion just blew up.
Slughorn told them off because they were too busy bickering and flicking ink at each other to concentrate on the potion.
I think he is starting to realise the huge mistake he made in making Lily and James potions-partners.
Thank Merlin for that.
3:45pm
Lana just started giggling at something Remus said.
3:47pm
Now they're both laughing.
And Julez' face is slowly going red. She'll probably end up exploding something.
Poor Lana. She is obviously completely smitten with him.
3:48pm
Hang on.
Did I just say 'poor Lana'?
Ugh. As if.
Friday 16th December, 10:06am, DADA
Professor just announced that we were going to learn how to do patronuses.
Those wispy white animal things that repel Dementors, in case you were wondering.
I so hope I never encounter a Dementor. They seem so creepy.
10:23am
Okay, so patronuses are hard.
I mean, you'd think that they would be easy, seeing as all you do is point your wand and yell; 'Expecto Patronum'.
But no. It requires a lot of concentration and determination and that other thing.
About half the class has already managed to do theirs. Including Marietta. Hers was a misty white swan that glided gracefully around the room before dematerialising.
I bet I'll end up with a pig or something equally awful. Like a frog. Or maybe an ant.
10:32am
I half did a patronus. It was just a wispy white thing that had no shape so I couldn't exactly tell what it was.
But it's something.
Julez' patronus took the form of a wolf. Lucky her. She gets like, a strong animal that can kill things.
Snape just got a butterfly.
Ahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
He went red, sat down and sulked. Well, serves him right. That's karma, that is.
10:45am
I love white chocolate.
Mmmm.
10:48am
We are continuing Patronuses next lesson.
Julez says not to worry and that I'll be lucky if it evolves past a cloud of white mist.
She's such a good friend, isn't she?
10:49am
Sirius said hi to me just now.
And smiled.
And I melted once again.
Sigh.
11:17am, Gryffindor Tower
Oh Sirius, you own my heart
I know that we shall never part
Even though you do not notice me
One day I know it will be
I will love you until the day I die
Always and forever, the rest of my life.
11:19am
That was actually a really crappy poem, wasn't it?
2:14pm, Potions
I am in Potions once again. Listening to Snape go on and on about how brilliant he is and how useless I am.
Well, at least I'm doing something. Chopping up some stringy weed stuff, to be exact.
And at least I'm not like Marietta. Who is just standing there twirling her hair around her index finger and pouting at herself in her compact mirror and making ga-ga eyes at Sirius. She is so obviously in love with herself.
2:19pm
THINGS THAT MAKE ME WANT TO PICK UP THE NEAREST CHAIR AND FLING IT AS HARD AS I CAN RIGHT ACROSS THE ROOM.
1. When people stare at you. I hate that. Like they'll just sit and stare at you with that lost look on their face like they're totally out of it. And then you get all paranoid and think that there's like, tomato sauce on your face or you accidentally dyed your hair green or something.
2. When your worst enemy (aka. the girl who has made your life a living hell since the day you started school) starts going out with the guy you've had a crush on since the day you started school. And also knowing that he is in love with her, even though she is an evil cow. And also knowing that he can't see what an evil cow she is.
3. When it's one of those hot, humid, sticky, muggy days and the teachers just expect you to continue doing your work like normal even though you're about to pass out from the heat.
4. When you're waving your quill around out of sheer boredom and then accidentally flick ink in your eye. That happens to me all the time.
5. When you wake up on a cold morning and you're all warm and comfortable and snugly in your warm, comfortable and snugly bed and then you realise that you need to pee really badly. I absolutely hate that.
6. People who fidget. I don't know why, fidgeting just really annoys me. I can't stand it.
7. When evil little poltergeists terrorise you by throwing water balloons at you and tripping you down stairs and pelting you with hard objects.
Grrr.
2:27pm
I have really bad chest pains.
It feels like I've been stabbed in the heart. Over and over again.
2:29pm
Ouch.
2:31pm
Maybe I'm having a heart attack.
Ohmygod.
2:36pm
Just went up to Slughorn's desk and told him that I thought I was having a heart attack.
And everyone heard me and the whole room burst out laughing. Including Slughorn. Oh, and Sirius.
Then I was told to go back to my seat and that I was fine and there wasn't long until the lesson was over.
2:39pm
The pain is getting worse. And no one seems to care.
Well, if I do end up having a heart attack and dying, I swear that I will come back and haunt this room and all the people who didn't try to help me.
2:41pm
Maybe being so broken-hearted all the time is starting to take its toll on me. I mean, seeing as the love of my life doesn't return my affections.
And I have heard about witches and wizards dying from broken hearts. I don't how that works, but I do read Witch Weekly.
I bet I am dying from a broken heart.
2:45pm
I just voiced my concern to Lily and Julez. And Sirius overheard. And you want to know what he said?
He goes; "Who's broken your heart, Evelyn? I'll kill them for you, if you want." And the best thing is, he sounded like he meant it. Like, he got this really angry look in his face like he was going to hit something. And he looked a bit sad as well, like he could feel my pain or something.
I always knew that his whole 'tough guy' attitude was just an act and he was really sensitive and sweet on the inside. Sigh.
But then Lily had to ruin it and go; "I was reading in Witch Weekly the other day that when you get really stressed out, you tend to get chest pains."
And then James was all; "You've got chest pains, Evelyn? I didn't really need to know that."
So then I went red and Sirius hit James on the arm and Julez laughed and ended up choking on her Fizzing Wizzbee.
How embarrassing.
Like, as if Sirius needed to know that my chest was hurting. As if he needed to know anything about my chest, actually.
I bet he knows quite a bit about Marietta's chest.
2:51pm
Well, at least I know that I'm not dying from a broken heart. Or about to have a heart attack.
And there is only 9 minutes left of the lesson.
2:52pm
8 minutes left.
2:53pm
7 minutes.
2:54pm
6 minutes.
Is it just me or is time going really slow?
2:55pm
5 minutes.
ARGH.
2:56pm
4 minutes.
2:57pm
3 minutes.
Getting there…
2:58pm
2 minutes.
2:59pm
I minute.
Yay!
5:14pm, The Great Hall
That looks weird, doesn't it? 'The Great Hall'.
Why is it even called that?
6:11pm, Girls Dorms
I have just been studying myself quite a bit. And I have come to the conclusion that my lips are too thin and my hands are too small and my fingers are too thin.
You know what's extremely weird? I'm quite slim from the waist upwards, but quite big on the bottom half. I am so disproportioned.
I used to be real skinny before I hit puberty and became a teenager. I've filled out heaps though.
Uh…
6:45pm, Gryffindor Common Room
I hate Potions. Seriously. Me and Lily are desperately trying to complete our Potions essay on the properties of moonstone.
I can't believe I even took it up. I know I've said this at least a thousand times already, but I really should have dropped it last year.
6:53pm
Lily just quietly whispered to me that Sirius keeps looking at me out of the corner of his eye. I asked her how she knew and she said that she only noticed it because she just realised that for the past ten minutes or so, James has been staring at her with a stupid expression on his face.
6:55pm
I just looked over to where they were sitting and sure enough, James is staring at Lily.
6:59pm
Lily just told James off.
"Why don't you take a picture, Potter?" she snapped. "It'll last longer."
And everyone in the Common Room was like; "oooh".
But James was being all cocky and arrogant and goes; "You want to know what I think Evans? I think you're sexually frustrated. And you're taking it out on me."
You should have seen Lily's face. She turned beet red from anger and fixed him with another one of her glares.
"When do I ever want to know what you think?" she asked furiously. "And mind your own business, and stay out of my life!" And then she gathered up our textbooks and both of our papers, yanked to me feet and pulled me upstairs with her.
7:04pm, Girls Dorms
Lily is still fuming. She is currently having a long rant about James. She's all like; "I cannot believe that he even bothers to talk to me anymore! What is his problem? Is he not normal or something? Does he have some sort of mental defiency? He needs to get it through his head that I will never go out with him. I'd rather date Snape. He is just so incredibly arrogant and selfish and I really wouldn't care if he fell off his broom and died tomorrow at the stupid Quidditch match."
I'm just politely listening. And fantasising about Sirius. Sigh.
9:09pm, Girls Dorms
Julez just came in. She was all flushed and happy and giggly once again from having spent yet another evening down at the lake with Remus.
I bet they've had sex already.
Saturday 17th December, 12:15pm, Quidditch Stand
The Quidditch match just begun. It's Ravenclaw versus Gryffindor.
Well, I am going for Gryffindor. Of course.
Although the Ravenclaw Seeker, Ryan Peakes, is sexy. Not Sirius-sexy, of course. But still sexy. Me and Lily are just like oogling him as he zooms around the Quidditch Pitch trying to find the Snitch.
James is one of the Gryffindor Chasers, by the way. Lily is going on and on about how stupid he looks on his broom. I don't think he looks that bad, actually. I love the whole messy-hair look he has going, it's kinda sexy.
Lily just read that last bit and she shrieked; "You find James Potter sexy?"
And heaps of people turned their heads to look while I was like; "Uh, no. You misread it." You know, trying to save myself from embarrassment and all.
Oh my god. Julez just went; "Of course she doesn't, Lily. She's completely in love with Sirius. Duh."
And he just happened to be sitting a few seats down. With Marietta and Lana and the rest of the Marauders. I can't tell if he heard that, but I hope not.
Oh please, let him be a bit deaf today from all the people screaming. Please.
12:19pm
Haha. Some girl from Hufflepuff just took off her bra and threw it at James. It missed him, though. All the girls shrieking is really starting to give me a headache.
12:21pm
Can you just imagine Sirius on a broom? I think that he'd be sexy as a Keeper.
Mmmm.
12:26pm
Oh, come on. As if you don't find Sirius Black sexy.
Even Lily says that he is definitely one of the best-looking guys at Hogwarts.
12:32pm
Ho-hum.
Quidditch is kinda boring. Like, all it is basically, is a bunch of people flying around on broomsticks playing around with balls. It's not that great really. I don't see why people make such a big deal about it.
12:34pm
Gryffindor is winning, so far. 150-110.
12:39pm
James just conjured up a bunch of red roses and threw them at Lily. I think he meant to all romantic and everything, and have the roses fall gently down all around her.
But he threw them a bit hard, and they ended up whacking poor Lily in the face, almost knocking her off her seat. Everyone started laughing, but I don't think James noticed where his roses landed. He just went speeding off into nowhere; I think he spotted the Snitch.
Well, Lily is really mad now. She had started off on another one of her James Potter rants about how stupid and idiotic he is.
I bet they'll end up married with kids. One boy, with glasses like James and green eyes like Lily.
12:45pm
Sirius and Marietta are making out again. Ugh.
Can't they get a room?
Julez and Remus do. They're so cute, right now they've got their arms around each other and Julez's head is resting on his shoulder. They make such a good couple. And you can tell they're like, completely head-over-heels in love with each other.
12:51pm
Lily is really pissed off. She just goes; "I hope he falls off his broom and ends up in a lot of pain. Otherwise I swear, I'll kill him." Her face is bright red. She looks kinda funny.
Julez just told Lily to knock on wood, just in case she jinxes James and he actually does fall off his broom.
Lily just laughed and said; "That would be good thing." She has become so sadistic lately.
12:56pm
How can people fly around on sticks high up in the air? How can they not find that terrifying?
Just imagine if you fell. You'd just go splat everywhere.
Ouch.
12:59pm
Argh. Julez just read that last bit in my diary and goes; "Oh yeah, I almost forgot you were scared of heights, Evelyn." Then she snickered.
3:09pm, Gryffindor Common Room
Oh my god.
3:11pm
Guess what happened?
At the Quidditch match, just before. Apart from Ravenclaw winning 300-120.
James Potter fell off his broom.
3:15pm
From high up in the sky. Like, higher than the highest-Quidditch-hoop-high.
3:17pm
He is currently in the Hospital Wing. Unconscious. With about a million broken bones, which Madam Pomfrey is fixing up.
3:19pm
Poor Lily is hysterical. She hasn't stopped crying since he hit the ground. She keeps saying that it's all her fault and that she's killed him and she's a murderer.
Which is ridiculous, if you ask me. The whole Lily-being-a-murderer-thing. James fell off his broom because he slipped. And uh…fell. Plummeted to the hard, rocky ground.
It was kind of scary. Poor Sirius was clearly upset as well. He's at the Hospital Wing right now. With Marietta.
3:23pm
Lily is entirely convinced that she has killed James.
Me and Julez are taking her to see him in the Hospital Wing, against her will.
3:24pm
I do hope that he is all right.
A/N: Ohmygod. I finally finished it. It's taken me weeks to complete this chapter. Mainly because I've been extremley busy with work. And this month hasn't been my most inspirational month. But I'm slowly getting back into the habit of writing. And today was my day off! And tomorrow (Wednesday) as well! So that gives me more time to write, and I promise that I will try my best to get the next chapter out as soon as possible. Right now, I'm aiming for tomorrow night, but if not, within the next week.
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