A.N.: Ok so here's the next part. I would have had it posted sooner if the site wasn't trying to drive me crazy and not let me post anything. So here's the next part I hope you like it. More coming soon.

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Part three

"Stupid incentive jerk thinking I wouldn't understand how dare he," Penelope ranted as she slid into the cloth covered bucket seat of JJ's SUV.

"He wasn't thinking Pen," JJ started only to be cut off.

"Damn strait he wasn't thinking. Treating me like a common unappreciated fool and here I thought we were friends. Stupid me," Penelope went on not bothering to let JJ get a word in. "I can't believe I actually thought about telling him."

"Telling him what?" JJ asked her curiosity pecked.

Penelope stopped and turned towards JJ, "What honey bun did you say something?"

"What were you going to tell him?" JJ returned shaking her head.

"Oh!"

"Don't you dare close down on me now Garcia. You dump Lynch, granted he was a son of a bitch to begin with, but you still haven't told me why and now this. What's going on in that head of you're Pen?"

Penelope turned silent staring out at the darkness the low hum of the SUV the only noise.

Softly Penelope's voice, filled with regret answered, "Your right about Lynch. The funny thing was I didn't see it at first I thought for once I had a good guy someone who treated me good. Unfortunately everything was a lie. He couldn't understand why I loved my job so much or why you guys were so important to me. He wanted me to choose between him and my job."

"Seriously he really wanted you to choose?" JJ asked her tone filled with surprise.

"Yea he did. Only God knows what I would've done if Emily had walked in a few minutes after he ordered me to choose. I was so anger and ready to throw something at him. Emily made him leave. Helped me calm down and demanded I tell her everything."

JJ felt a little hurt that Penelope hadn't come to her, but she pushed it aside, "I take it that wasn't the end of things?"

"No far from it," Penelope answered glancing over at the blonde sitting next to her. "For the record sugar I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner, but after it happened I just wanted to try and forget everything. The funny part is he actually thought by proposing that I would just drop everything and come running to him. That I'd give up my job my life just, so I could have a family. But he didn't understand that I already had one, maybe not by blood, but by the bond we share."

"He really proposed?" JJ asked shocked by this new revelation.

"Yup had the ring and everything I just couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to say yes to someone I didn't love. Not when I had finally realized my heart belonged to someone else."

"When did it change?" JJ asked knowing who she was talking about brought a small smile to her face.

Penelope sighed, "I've always known. It just got a reinforced after that case in Arizona the one were a serial killer choose cops as his target. I went to Der… Morgan that night hoping to help comfort him give him some peace of mind after such a horrible case. We ended up talking for hours that night about everything. The next day Kevin pulled his little stunt proposing to me. I ended it in that moment after everything else he'd done the names, the scaring me at odd times just to see me jump, I was done."

"Why didn't you tell me any of this Penelope?"

"Didn't want you worry kitten you have enough on your plate as is with Henry you didn't need more," Penelope responded on a sigh.

JJ shook her head, pushing the comment aside for later, "Back to the original question what were you going to tell Morgan?"

Penelope faced the window again trying to come up with a good excuse not to answered, but knew she deserved better, "I… I was going to tell him that I wanted him back. His friendship means so much, but this cold distance he's been putting between us was killing me. I needed my best friend back."

"What about love Pen? Were you ever going to tell him you love him?"

"I all ready have Jayje, but he doesn't see it that way."

"Did you try and explain it to him?" JJ asked as she turned into the federal buildings parking garage.

"No and I never will. He wouldn't see me that way," Penelope answered her eyes falling to her lap.

"Now your being the stupid one Pen," she held up a hand to stop the words coming from Penelope, "no it's true. If you love the man let him know that don't just hide it away."

"He'd never accept me JJ you and I both know that."

"Bullshit," JJ exclaimed pulling the SUV to a stop, "he would accept you in a heart beat. It's the other way around really. He thinks you'd never accept him with his broken soul and tormented past. You can't live with the insecurities you have Pen. Trust me I know and am living with the choices I've made."

Penelope's head whipped around to stare at JJ, "But I thought…"

JJ shook her head, "Not the time Pen tomorrow. It's late lets get this paperwork finished so we can go home."

"You know I think you're wasting your talent. You would make a damn good profiler," Penelope commented coming to join JJ as they made their way towards the elevator.

"Only with those I love Pen," JJ answered glancing up and catching sight of Reid standing by the elevator with Hotch, Rossi and Prentiss.

Penelope caught the longing in her eyes as she watched Spencer before it vanished. In that moment Penelope understood her words. Around mid-night Penelope made it home. Her mind heavy with the thoughts running through her mind, everything JJ and Rossi said reverberated around. However her worry over where Morgan was took the front seat. He hadn't turned up at the BAU to finish paperwork. She'd tried him on his cell many times and had even thought about going to his house before heading home, but decided against that thought.

Now she sat with a picture album filled with memories in her lap trying to figure her life out. She all ways thought that by now she'd have a husband, children and a house. That her life would be stable, but that thought flew out the window not to long ago. She could only see loneliness in her life now. Turning the page Penelope paused at the last picture in the massive album. Taking the past Christmas Eve when Chicago became snowed in and travel had came to a stand still up north. She had offered her Christmas traditions to Derek once again knowing that he needed something of family around him. They'd gone to dinner that evening at their favorite diner before heading to Hotch's were they celebrated Christmas like family. Of course she should have known better than to let Emily and JJ secretly pick a spot for the mistletoe. Her and Derek had been caught under the green sprig in the kitchen doorway.

Granted the kiss had been short and sweet, but the electricity that followed through her body from that barest of kisses had kept her up that night thinking about him. Closing the book Rossi's words came back to her…

"A piece of advice Penelope," Rossi began watching her closely. He caught the small nod before continuing, "don't let your insecurities stop you from getting what you want. If you think its worth that leaps then take it."

He was right; she had to take that leap. It was time to stop hiding behind her insecurities and get on with living life. One way or another she just hoped that he would accept her and love her as she loved him. Life was after all about taking chances and hoping for the best. Everything did happen for a reason right?

End note: As you can tell this was all Penelope I figured she needed a little push hopefully in the right direction.