I turn over a little in the hospital bed. I examine my room more closely. I am in a private room, not one of those that have two patients in it only seperated by a curtain. I turn over again so that I am on my back. I feel weak and helpless in this position. I hear my slow heartbeat on the monitor next to me. The smell of medicine surrounds me. My breath comes out ragedly.' I am so close to dying' I thought. Maybe finally I will have some peace...
There is a light knock on my door. A nurse walks in with a smile on her face.
"Miss Swan?" She whispers softly, as if the small noise she makes could hurt me. I turn my head to face her but say nothing. "You have a visitor." My brow furrows. Who would want to visit me? I look at the nurse confusingly. "He says he's an old family friend."
She turns around and swiftly walks out. A young man walks in, well more like he glides in. He has tousled bronze hair. Honey colored eyes, and a flawless face. He was...He was...I couldn't believe it. Was it really him? But it was a little hard to be sure. His clothes were torn all over. His hair was overly messy and he had bags under his beautiful eyes.
"Bella? Oh Bella!" He rushes to my side, his face held a look of concern.
"E-Ed-Edward?" I barely make out a whisper. He looks hurt, concerned, sorry...all the bad emotions you can think of.
"Yes Bella. It's...me."
"You." I begin. My voice is weak now. I can barely talk. Partly because I am still so shocked. But mainly because I am so ill. "You came back."
"Of course. I heard you were ill. So severly ill. Well, Alice saw you. I rushed over here the minute I heard." He says softly. Why would he even care. He doesn't love me. Nobody loves me.
"Why? Why would you even" I cough sickly. "Even care!" My voice drips with hatred. I can barely breathe. "You left me." I whisper so angrily. "You told me you would never come back!" Tears sting my eyes.
"Bella, I." He looks sad now, like he wants to...cry. But I'm almost positive it's my eyes playing tricks on me.
"Stop. I don't need explanations. Just, just go away. Don't come back." I turn my head away. Something cold grabs my hand. I look over and see Edward on his knees, grasping my hand.
"No, I can't Bella." He looks deep into my eyes, making my heart act funny. The moniter next to me makes and annoying fast 'Beep, Beep, Beep'
"Why?!?" I whisper yell. I'm too weak to actually yell. "You did it before. You left me, I'm going to die. I'm going to finally be free! Free of." I stop and feel the tears form. "Free of the pain. The pain you brought me. You broke me Edward." A single hot tear rolls down my wrinkled face. I try to look away but Edward stops me and holds my face in both his hands.
"Bella, I lied. That day in the forest. When I told you I didn't love you, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do. After I saw what happened at the party, I couldn't bear to put you in anymore danger. It seemed like you were getting injured whenever you where near me. I always put you in harm's way. I couldn't do that anymore. I had to leave."
My mouth felt dry. I couldn't speak. It couldn't be true. What he is telling me right now, it just can't be true!
"What?" I stared at him.
"I love you Bella. I never stopped loving you, I never will. You are the sun that lights my world. Without you, I have nothing." He rest his forehead on the space next to my arm. I stay quiet for a moment, taking it all in. He looks back up at me and takes my hand in both of his. "Can you ever forgive me for what I did to you? Is it possible for you to take me back? I'll beg Bella. I would. I would do anything for you, anything Bella please just,"
"Stop." I sigh. "Edward, I forgave you a long time ago. It's just...complicated now. I'm going to die, soon." I look down. "And I don't know if I can believe what you are saying."
"Believe me Bella. Look at me. Look into my eyes and tell me I am lying. I'm not." I look up and into his eyes. They are truthfull, soulfull and most of all...loving. "Bella, is there any way you could love me again? Ever?"
"Edward, I never stopped loving you. I never could." I shake my head weakly.
"That's all I needed to hear."
I look up just in time to see Edward's happy smile before he had my head in his hands again and kissed me. His lips were ice cold and hard against my fragile old ones. And then, I was spinning.
I felt like I was falling. Darkness was crashing down on me and I didn't know what was happening. The last thing I remember was the heart moniter's long, never ending beep.