Callie knew what she was doing, she was very well aware of how she was pulling away from Arizona. But she wasn't ready for I love you's and flowers and happily ever afters. How did she know if Arizona was the one? The girl for her? It wasn't long ago she wasn't even into women and now she's a breath away from having to say I love you to one. That's why instead of heading over to Arizona's for the night she's sat her at Joe's drinking Tequila alone.

She knows its sad and pathetic but she can't bring herself to go over there and she doesn't even think Arizona will mind. OK, she knows that's a lie. Arizona will most definitely mind, she'll probably mind a lot seeing as it was only a few hours ago they had reiterated their plans. It's too late now though, she's already been here for an hour and fifteen minutes.

She takes out her cell hoping to smooth this over.

-

Instead of her night on her sofa with Callie she's once again faced with a full bottle of wine and alone. Callie had stood her up and here she was thinking last night was a fluke. They were meant to be in a relationship, when she had a crappy day, when she was battling memories from years before she needed her girlfriend to be there, she needed her girlfriend not to add to the drama but to be there for her. She needed her to curl up on the sofa with her and tell her its all going to be ok. Otherwise why have a girlfriend at all?

She cared deeply about Callie but it was becoming more and more obvious to her that Callie obviously didn't feel the same or was incapable of having a working adult relationship. She's limited herself to just one glass of wine tonight, she can't turn up at work hung over again, not with the merger going on and the possibility of more job cuts. Her cell starts ringing from its perch next to her and she's half surprised that Callie's bothered to call her this time. Smile once again in place.

"Hey Calliope, how are you?" Cheerful without a hint of the upset she's feeling.

"Hey, look Arizona I'm swamped here at work and I'd really love to come see you tonight but I think it'll be hours before I've finished. Rain check?" The lie she's told almost didn't sting, that is if she hadn't already called the hospital to talk to Callie and the intern she had gotten through to had told her Dr Torres had left already. She laughs, and it comes out more bitter than she had hoped.

"Sure." She clears her throat, the saltiness of her tears hitting her lips distracting her. Callie's sigh of relief is heard down the phone.

"Thanks, that's great you have no idea how swamped I am. Even with all these interns there is still so-"

"Super, my day was super. I have to go now. See you tomorrow at work." Then she hangs up. Her lips tasting of salt, her cheeks wet with tears and her eyes stinging with unshed ones she curls up under a blanket on the sofa alone.

-

Callie looks at her phone with a frown. The answering dial tone assures her she didn't just imagine that, Arizona cut her off. She had been trying to tell her girlfriend about her day and she wasn't interested. So much for I love you's.

-

The next time Callie see's Arizona they're both at an event the hospital is having. It's in a hotel ballroom, lots of big shot doctors and heads of boards and what nots. It seems for the night the Chief has chosen two attending's to be his trophies, apparently they had been doing a fantastic job. That's why she hadn't seen Arizona yet, apart from afar Arizona Robbins and Owen Hunt were his trophies. It seems that the merger is getting to the chief no one really knows why he's trying so hard to show he's not too old to have his job, they know he's great but the harder he tries the worse things get. Tonight for example is an attempt to show off the great attendings they have working at the hospital. It seems like a waste of time to her, they could be saving lives instead of sipping champagne. Expensive champagne that the hospital pays for.

"She's pretty isn't she." An unfamiliar voice says behind her. She finds herself side by side with a stranger who is openly admiring her girlfriend. She already hates him.

"Yeah she is. Do you know Arizona?"

"Oh yes, sorry, Austin Walker. You're Arizona's girlfriend right Callie I think I was told right?" If she wasn't hating him right now she would find him smile endearing and not to mention hot.

"Yes. So you know Arizona?"

"Yeah, we, um, dated in college. Not for very long though, I assure you my not being a woman thing turned out to be a problem." That smile again. Callie didn't know how to feel shocked was a good one, upset another. Arizona had dated a man, how many men had she dated? How come she was learning about this from a stranger, let alone an ex of hers.

"Excuse me a minute would you?" She asked with a smile on her face that could melt butter. Approaching Arizona she realises the Chief is probably going to kill her for this because she is in the middle of what looks like a boring conversation with what looks like an important man but she interrupts anyway, apologising for the inconvenience and making up a story about a patient that needs Arizona's opinion.

"Calliope, which patient? It's not Jessica is it?"

"No Arizona, I made that up."

"You...made that up? Calliope why would you make that up? I was really worried for a moment there, christ."

"No don't Calliope me. I just had an interesting conversation." Lifting her eyebrow up at Arizona she expects a guilty look, a look of worry something all she gets back though is a raised eyebrow in return. "With an ex of yours, Austin?"

"Austin's here?" Arizona asks with a smile, she hadn't spotted him. Was he maybe avoiding her? She hoped not, he was one of her closest friends.

"So not the point." Callie mutters, she can't believe out of all the things where he is bothers Arizona the most. "You dated him, you dated a man."

"Only the one but yeah for two months. It didn't work out, he wasn't a girl." Shrugging her shoulder, "why is this such a big deal anyway?"

"Because!" The weird looks in their direction as well as a frown from the chief tell her she's talking too loudly, grabbing the blond by the elbow she leads her outside onto the patio. "because Arizona you told me you hadn't dated any guys and that's why your parents weren't surprised when you came out. Now your telling me you have. How am I supposed to trust what you say? How am I supposed to know that?"

"Because I'm your girlfriend."

"Are you? I don't think that's a good idea anymore." The silence after that statement physically hurts Arizona. Callie herself can't believe what she just uttered, she hadn't intended to break up with the blond but it had just slipped out and there was no going back she could tell by the look of devastation on the blonds face. "Ari-"

"We have trust issues now? My girlfriend not showing up to any of our dates is an issue. My girlfriend lying to me about it is another one. My girlfriend who by the way hasn't spoken to me properly in two weeks, and still introduces me as her friend from work whenever we run into anyone is still a huge issue. And what gets me the most is you don't even realise your doing it. None of it, or if you do you just really don't care at all." She has tears itching to be released but she won't let them, she can't, not yet. "So yes we have issues Calliope, we have lots of issues but me missing out one small detail isn't one of them, at least not an important one. And if you cared at all about me, about us you would be able to see past that. It wouldn't even be an issue." She shoves her glass of champagne into Callie's hand and storms off through the glass doors.