CHAPTER 4
"No, no, no, no, no,no,no!!!!!!!" I screamed. "Why him? Why Peeta? He wasn't supposed to be going through this pain. He wasn't supposed to be there, and he isn't supposed to die!" All heads turned towards me, but I didn't care. I kept screaming and weeping. Then, warm big hands embraced me and dragged me out of the room. I wiggled out of his hands and went to face Gale.
"Are you crazy?! What was that Katniss, what were you thinking. You made yourself look weak. You had a breakdown Katniss, this isn't the way a mockajay is supposed to be. Just stop acting stupid and think, Katniss. You know what; just, just go to your room."
"Katniss, I agree, you are acting so stupid. You have to just cool down we will get your boyfriend back, but first you have to be reasonable and do the mandatory things first." Said Haymitch who came to appear behind Gale. I looked up at Gale's face and I could tell that he was mad. His eyes focused on the ground, and his expression was unreadable. This didn't change what was racing in my mind, though.
"So, Haymitch, saving Peeta is optional to you is he? Well, he is mandatory for me, and saving him is my first priority, and so be it. I don't care if I die or not I have to save Peeta. Haymitch, it is your fault if you saved Peeta then this wouldn't have happened." I fell to the floor and started crying. I looked up to see Haymitch walk away in disgust and then Gale started to speak.
"Katniss, so is that it, you choose him! After all we have been through, you ended up choosing him!"
"No, Gale I didn't, I chose no one, not yet." I replied.
"Well, Katniss then stop acting like he is your whole life right now, all of us are more important than him right now. Please just act like your true self right now, we all need you, I need you." Was all Gale could say before he too, turned around and walked away.
I later got up and walked the halls until I found a door with a letter on it. It read that this was my room. I walked in and collapsed on the bed. I realized that Gale was right. I should start acting stronger and more like I used to. But I just couldn't leave Peeta there to die; he was still my first priority. Was Peeta still a close friend or was he more. Is this actually love? Did I actually love Peeta? Do I love Peeta Mellark?