CHAPTER 5
The next few days were the same as ever. We all went to the meeting and discussed the plans further more. I, like always, would stay out of the conversation, and that was that. I would ignore everyone and just go to the meetings and then go back to my room. Both of the rooms were the only ones I've been in since we came here. Prim would bring food to my room but, it didn't make a difference, I would never eat much anyway. The days passed and everyday I would think how much closer Peeta was close to death everyday. The days passed and the days got longer and so did my crying. Finnick came into my room one day and sat down on my bed quietly. I waited for him to speak but nothing came out. His eyes were a little swollen and he looked like he was crying. I decided I should start our conversation.
"So what's wrong Finnick?" I asked as calmly as possible. He shook his head. I tried to make him tell me, as I stared right into his eyes. He looked up and then told me as clearly as he could. "We found Annie, Katniss." My face quickly turned into a smile. I was happy for Finnick. If anyone had the chance to spend this time with some one they love it should be Finnick. Finnick wasn't smiling though he was frowning. His eyes were swollen and a tear slid down his face. Then it hit me. He said that they found her but, he didn't say alive or dead.
"Finnick I am so sorry I had no idea. Ohhh Finnick it will be okay I promise." Thos was all I could say. Then, on impulse I did the only thing I thought would make him feel better. I embraced Finnick in a big hug telling him it would be okay. Finnick, as I thought he would, didn't pull back. Rather he hugged me back as we both cried together thinking of our loved ones. We sat like that for a while and then the door opened. We pulled apart afraid to be caught. Finnick wiped his tears away as I turned around. There stood Gale in the doorway face full of shock. "It's not what you think Gale." He turned around. "Finnick was sad because Annie died and he needed some comfort. The hug just expressed our friendship nothing more. He was thinking of Annie and I was thinking of…" I trailed off. He didn't seem mad but once I started on who I was thinking he turned red. He swiftly walked out of the room slamming the door behind him. I got up and quickly walked out following behind him. I ran trying to catch up to him. His pace grew quicker as he started to speak. "I knew it, you have always chosen him and I never stood a chance, you just didn't want to tell it to my face. Look I know you like him but I still thought you wanted me. I guess I was wrong. I can't believe you were with Finnick. Yeah he lost a loved one I got that. I am losing one to; watching you slowly slip away is bad too. Where is my comfort, well I don't get any. Why? Cause I'm too strong to go into depression. Wrong! Katniss if you choose him you can tell it to my face. Okay!" I stop running and I guess Gale notices that since he stops too. I can't believe he said that.
"I never said I chose anyone. I just miss Peeta. He is my friend. Gale, and he is being tortured because of me, I miss him because I have spent so much time with him for the past month and him not being here makes me feel empty cause I've seen him for so long. I didn't choose, and if you were there, I would have done the same thing. I don't want to see any of my close friends get hurt. I haven't chosen yet Gale. Please understand that." Gale seems to grow quiet he walks towards me and hugs me. He doesn't let go and soon it is hard for me to breath. I push myself off him a little. I look up at him and he looks at me too. He starts bending slowly and then I notice what he is doing. I don't go into shock this time and put my hands to my lips before he reached it. His lips press against my hand and he pulls back puzzled. I shake my head and his face turns red again. He doesn't say anything, though. I smile at him just as Haymitch runs down the hall towards us. I ignore Haymitch's urgency as I glide out of Gale's hands. Haymitch tries talking to me but I ignore him.
"Katniss really I need to talk to you!" Say Haymitch in a snappy tone. I kept ignoring him which made him get madder. I was guessing he didn't take a drink today, because he was more alert than usual. I tried looking bored and innocent but it didn't show.
"It's about Peeta." Haymitch's words slowly hit me as I absorbed them in. I walked straight towards his room with him following behind. Gale stood there not turning his head, but I knew he was mad. As we walked into Haymitch's room he closed the door. He made me sit down on the bed before starting.
"They are using Peeta for bait, Katniss. They are sending all of the hostages to District 12. I think this is our only chance at saving him and the others." Haymitch's words brought delight to me. It felt like the first time in a long time I was seeing the sun. My face wore a high smile and Haymitch's face wore one too. Then I realized that we were going to go onto capitol owned land now. I stood up and looked Haymitch straight in the face.
"When we go to rescue the hostages I want to come too." The words flew out of my mouth before I even thought about the. I expected Haymitch to frown now but he didn't.
"That's why I am telling you. Gale didn't want me to because he didn't want you to get hurt or get your hopes up to high. None of the others wanted to let you go because you weren't helping with anything at all. I made them make you go. This will help you be more responsive and I knew this is what you wanted to do. So don't screw this up okay?"
Haymitch never was this kind before but I didn't want to question it. I threw myself in his arms and he didn't let go. He knew this was my way of saying thanks for everything he had done for everyone. I closed my eyes and all I saw was sunshine. The sun was finally starting to show for me down here underground.