A/N: Sorry it's been so long I've had exams and assignment deadlines, all fun! Not! Lol So here's chapter twelve I think there will be one or two more chapters after this and then this is finished. Hope you like. Let me know what you think.

WARNING: There are mentions of rape and a somewhat graphic description.

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The darkness was everywhere. There was no escaping. Not for her. Never for her. Arizona could feel the beginnings of a panic attack. Her lungs felt like they were on fire, they couldn't drag in enough oxygen. She felt like she had been running all night. Everywhere she turned he was there. Every hiding place, every corner he appeared. He had found her after all this time and come to repeat what he had done to her all those years ago. She felt exactly like she did that night that everything had changed.

She could smell his cologne, it sickened her the thought of having to smell him on her skin again made her want to wretch. Even after all this time she knew exactly what he smelt like. The feel of his hands on her skin, the roughness of them. She could even see the sick half smile on his face as he was getting his way with her. All of it made her sick. She wanted to scream, scream till her throat was red raw and someone came to save her. Anyone. But she couldn't, her voice wasn't working he had terrified her into silence.

She felt his hand sliding between the skin of her pubic bone and the silk of her panties, the tightness of her jeans pressing his rough flesh harder into her. Bruising her. So different from the soft touch she was used to in the past. He didn't bother waiting as he slid his two fingers into her damaging her further. She struggled against his hold, she bit his shoulder till he let go and slid his other hand out of her jeans and tried to run for it screaming for help the entire time. She made it two strides before he grasped her wrist and tugged, she screamed out as she felt it snap. He pushed her down to the ground and the next thing she felt was his suffocating weight settle onto her. The whites of his eyes shone in the dark like the front lights on a car.

"Your mine!" He snarled. Arizona struggled and struggled and she couldn't get out of his hold, she was helpless there was nothing she could do. Why did this have to happen to her again? Why did he have to find her?

"No!"

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Callie had worked a 36 hour shift and she was exhausted. It hadn't been busy but that just made the shift seem longer. She had been looking forward to seeing Arizona for hours now, she just wanted to curl up and fall asleep in each others arms. It had been nearly two weeks since the meeting between Jessica and Arizona in the cafeteria, since then her blonde girlfriend had exchanged texts and emails with the girl making sure she was ok. Jessica seemed to have been firmly placed under her wing reminding Callie of how kind and caring her girlfriend was, she had a huge heart.

Walking into the apartment she shared with Christina she was surprised to see Christina and Owen stood outside of her bedroom door with their ears pressed up against it. She lifted her eyebrow at them and cleared her throat waiting for them to notice her presence. She hoped they weren't listening to what she thought they were listening too. That would be too disturbing.

"Thank God your here, roller girl is having a nightmare or else she's dying. I was just about to go wake her up now you can. Goodnight." Christina sighed out as she walked past her dragging Owen with her into her own bedroom and closing the door behind them. Quickly shoving her coat and bag on the peg Callie made her way into her own room to see Arizona sprawled out in their bed, she had kicked the covers off and was moving around obviously distressed about something. Arizona occasionally in the past had had nightmares about her work, about the sick kids she couldn't save. It had taken Callie months to get her to talk about it, Arizona didn't like to dwell on her own problems, she much rather save everyone else and make it seem like she was ok. She quickly slipped her shoes off and slipped under the thin sheet and wrapped it around the blonde haired beauty. Holding her close and whispering her name trying to gently wake her. Tonight had been the first night since her talk with Jessica that she had agreed to spend the night in her apartment and that made Callie suspect these nightmares had been a frequent occurrence over the last two weeks.

"Come on baby wake up." She whispered into her ear and kissing it for good measure. Arizona's eyes flashed open quick as lightening and the panic and fear Callie saw in them broke her heart. Arizona struggled out of her grip, she was trembling in her arms and Callie was dumbfounded never before had the blonde shied away from her comfort after her nightmares, not since she had told her all about them. Giving Callie a push she jumped out of bed and flew across the room till her back was against the door. Callie felt her heart ache at the sight in front of her, usually her girlfriend was so happy and so confident and she had been reduced to a quivering wreck by whatever haunted her dreams. She was sure it was something to do with what she had overheard her and Jessica talking about. "Hey, Hey it's just me! Ari, it's me. Your Calliope. I'm not gonna hurt you, there's nothing here to be afraid of ok. It's safe. Your safe."

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Arizona hadn't felt so freaked out and afraid in years. After her freak out upon waking up in someone's arms Callie had calmed her down and sat her on the bed telling her in a soothing tone to wait there and she'd make her a cup of hot chocolate. After waiting a whole two seconds and realising the dark corners and loneliness of the room wasn't helping her calm down and forget her dream she sped through to the kitchen and held onto the bottom of Callie's shirt whilst she made the hot drinks. It was moments like these that she remembered exactly why she loved her. People in the past hadn't let it go once they realised she had a nightmare, they'd quiz her and quiz her until it turned into an argument and then one of them either storming out and spending the night elsewhere or them breaking up. Callie wasn't like that though, she knew Arizona needed her time and space to feel comfortable about talking about certain things: And this certainly qualified as of one of those things.

"Here, just the way you like it." A huge mug of hot cocoa handed to her with a kiss. "So, I had the longest shift and it was so boring. Can you believe in my whole entire shift only two people had broken bones for me to fix. I shouldn't have bothered going in. I could have stayed with you, and our bed and hot cocoa all day and all night long." She smiled at her and Arizona's insides melted. She knew what she was trying to do, she was trying to take the tension out of the room and make her forget about her nightmare. Arizona suspected Callie had a good idea of what the nightmare had been about anyway, and it made her appreciate her knowing that she wasn't going to push her into talking about it. "What? Why are you smiling at me like that?"

"I love you."

"I love you too, you know that."

"No, I mean," Pausing to place her mug down and push herself into Callie's personal space she planted a long and lingering kiss on her lovely lips. "I really, really, love you and..." pausing to steal another kiss "I promise to tell you all about it, just...promise me you won't run away from me when I'm done."

"I promise, but Arizona you don't have to I mean there's-"

"I know, but I want you to know. I trust you. When I was in college I was dating a girl called Cindy and once weekend when she had gone home to visit her parents some friends of mine convinced me to go to a house party of someone they knew. It was a great party until the end, anyway so I'm not going to go into lots of detail you don't have to know that and frankly I can't talk about it yet but I got drugged and raped by a guy we all knew. He's in prison at the moment, I had to testify against him in front of everyone. Cindy didn't believe me, he was one of her friends he told her I had begged him for sex and she believed him. She announced it in front of everyone at graduation and broke up with me. It wasn't until later that she realised she was wrong, she wrote to me a few years ago and apologised. I never replied, I think maybe I should. Bygones and all that."

Callie couldn't believe the way in which Arizona talked about it she seemed like her mind was somewhere else, she was so detached from the conversation and the idle way she thought on whether or not to reply to an ex girlfriend. Callie had seen this before as an intern, it was common of rape victims and victims of sexual abuse to play down their ordeal and disassociate themselves from it. It was a coping mechanism. She could feel tears prickling at her eyes, she felt so angry that someone could do that to the perky blonde woman stood between her legs and staring at her so lovingly. Arizona also had tears prickling her eyes, the sight of her girlfriend obviously upset about her ordeal, to know she cared that much was so moving.

"Oh god Arizona, I'm so sorry that happened to you. I'm so sorry. I love you I'm never going to let anything like that happen to you again. I swear I'll do everything I can to make you feel safe and I will never ever run away. I love you." She blinked back her tears not wanting to be a sobbing mess when Arizona held it altogether so well.

"I love you too. Do you think we could curl up together and watch the lion king? I don't want to do anything else tonight and I'm too awake to go to sleep yet. Do you think that would be ok? I know your exhausted but maybe you could fall asleep watching it with me? " The blonde was babbling she was so nervous, she still not 100% sure that the brunette wasn't going to run away the first chance she got. Now she had told her about it she just wanted to forget about it completely, she didn't want to talk, she didn't want to think she just wanted to watch her favourite disney movie with her favourite person.

"I think we most certainly can do that. Let me grab your hot cocoa you go get our quilt and I'll stick the movie in. How's that sound?" Arizona was already half way to the bedroom at that point.

"Perfect." She whispered.

A/N: I didn't go into much detail with what happened to Arizona when she's talking to Callie because I don't think realistically she would feel comfortable or want to make an account of all the details, not even to a loved one. What do think?

O, and thank you for all the reviews I love them and they're much appreciated :D

And how awesome in lion king? I watched it recently for the first time in years and it didn't disappoint.