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A/N: Thank you all who have reviewed, your names are so many I cannot personally thank each and every one of you (though I will make it a point at the end of the story). Now I thank you all who reviewed the last chapter. Some of you LOVED the lemon and others thought it was 'blah' for those of you who loved it ^^; I'm glad, and to those who did not then it was you who noticed the blahness of the lemon, which WAS intentional. Any ways, thank you all again.

NOTE: It was pointed out to me I may have plagiarized two things from Bjanik author of 'the other way around'. I feel guilty for not noticing my own blunder and correcting it before posting and thus have written Bjanik an apology message and await her reply. If she takes this accident as a fowl move, I will go back and edit the situation where Sephiroth and Cloud are together, but if she is not offended then it will remain.

WARNING: angst, SO MUCH AGST IT'LL BE COMING OUT YOUR BUTT!

Thank you again for reviewing.

Chapter 007

Cloud awoke finding himself alone. He blinked the sleep from his eyes and tried to sit up but regretted it, clenching his fists and grinding his teeth as fire like pain shot up through his rectum and up his spinal cord. He let out a breath and moaned flopping back down. He didn't think it was possible to feel such pain. He took several long breaths trying to relax, but the throbbing pain in his bottom just wouldn't let him. He glanced around to find the generals things gone and he suddenly felt panicked. What if the general had left him! Out in the middle of nowhere! He forced himself to sit up, tears burning the back of his eyes as he scrambled around gathering his things. He found slipping on his pants the hardest part, for the baggy cloth rubbed against his throbbing anus making him want to cry and curl in on himself. But he at least 'tried' to push the pain aside, he needed to locate the general—the fear of being totally rejected frightened him and caused his heart to double in rate and his anxiety levels to sky rocket.

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Sephiroth sat out near a stream that made its way through the forest, PHS in hand, head bowed slightly, long strands of silver hair falling over his shoulders and hiding his face. He had been mentally beating himself over the incidences of the previous night, he had never meant to engage in such an act with the cadet, and didn't know what had caused him to in the first place. He had morals, and he had broken them. He had dragged the cadet out in the middle of nowhere to help him, to train him up so he could have a better shot of passing the SOLDIER exam, and what did he do? He robbed the cadet of his most prized possessions, the cadet could never get back his virginity that he had so thoughtlessly stolen. Sephiroth felt another wave of guilt and nausea wash over him. Not only had he stolen the cadets virginity, but he had done it in the most brutal and impersonal way known to man. He hadn't taken care of the cadet, he hadn't comforted him the way he should have and he knew it. He felt empty and wasn't all too keen on facing the cadet.

He stiffened slightly as he heard a twig snap behind him and a scent like fog, rain and mountain air mixed with musk assaulted his nose. The cadet had located him. "General?" Cloud asked, wincing as he held to a tree to keep his balance. His face was red with pain and effort and sweat lined his brow. Just the boys voice caused guilt to flood the generals insides. He sat up straighter and glanced over his shoulder towards the boy. 'Last night should have been the most wonderful moment in the cadets life…and I ruined it.' He thought bitterly.

Cloud pushed off of the tree and took a few unsteady steps forward before the pain in his anus was to sever and he teetered, falling towards the ground.

"Cloud!" Sephiroth yelled, jumping back and catching the blond around the middle, gently lowering him to the ground, where he trembled and gasped for breath. "Cloud, I'm sorry, but I need to remove your pants." He stated, doing quick work of the buttons on the baggy pants. Once he'd pulled them down—along with the boys boxers—he gently pushed the teen up onto his knees. He fished out a Cur2 materia, he had stronger material but he was sure he wouldn't need it. "I'm sorry Cloud." He said quietly again, as he gently pressed the round orb near the boys raw entrance, causing the blond to yelp. "I'm sorry, but this my sting." He stated as he pushed to orb passed the tight and puckered entrance before casting the spell. Internal healing took a little more effort, but Sephiroth succeeded none the less.

Several minutes later Cloud had replaced his pants and was eyeing the general who had claimed his seat near the river again. He looked away biting his trembling lip. The general had apologized, that's when he knew. Knew that he and the general couldn't be together. He had done something wrong last night, and he didn't know how to fix it. Was it because he cried? The pain had been sever during their 'encounter' but his orgasm had been one of the most powerful he had ever had. Perhaps the general had realized he'd shed tears over that. He was pathetic, he couldn't even handle an orgasm…he screwed everything up. He bowed his head.

"Sir…." His voice was quacking, and he had to force himself to steady it. "Sir, I think I will pack up my things and go and wait near the road for a ride back to Shinra." He stated, turning and heading back to gather his things. Sephiroth didn't stop him, though he wished he could. But how could he? When he had ruined the teens life.

He remembered his first time, it hadn't been all that romantic either, in fact if he recalled he hadn't had much say in the matter, as was his dear friend Genesis's claim to fame. Never needing to ask for permission. Sephiroth balled his fists as a lonely sensation swept over him. He quickly jumped to his feet and dashed in the direction the cadet had gone. It didn't take him long to locate the road where the cadet stood, shoulders hunched head bowed.

Cloud yelped as strong hands spun him around and he was pulled into a tight embrace. He could hear the generals beating heart, and feel his heavy breathing on the top of his head, as silver strands of 'coconut' scented hair spilled down over him. "I'm sorry Cloud." Sephiroth breathed heavily, holding onto the cadet as if both their lives depended on it. "I didn't mean to hurt you, I never wanted to hurt you, never. I love you Cloud."

The blonds eyes grew wide as the general pulled only slightly back as to look down at him, he gazed back up, wide blue eyes locked on to emotion filled jade ones. "I love you, I really do Cloud." Sephiroth said quietly, gently tracing the younger mans jaw. "And knowing that I hurt you…it tears me up inside, makes me feel like…" His expression saddened. "Like a monster." He bowed his head gently pressing his forehead against the blonds. "I never wanted to hurt you, I never thought we'd…I never thought anything like that would have happened. I'm sorry, I'm so very sorry Cloud." He pulled the cadet close, wrapping his arms protectively around the smaller frame. "It shouldn't have been that way, it should have been planned, perfect, romantic, slow…" He gently pressed his lips to the blonds ear. "Gentle."

Cloud had never dreamed he would have heard such 'kind' and 'human' things spill forth from the generals mouth, the demon of Wutai, Shinra's ultimate weapon, the one they called 'not-human'. He let himself be pulled into the embrace, leaning his head against the general's chest. He could hear his heart beat, and could feel his emotions. He gently gripped onto the general's forearm.

"I…I thought it was something I did."

Sephiroth startled quickly stood back and cupped the teens face and shook his head.

"No."

"I thought it was because I was weak." Cloud looked down bitterly. "I truly cherish last night…and I will never forget it…but I feel weak."

"Cloud, it isn't weakness to cry…it is an emotion often shared between lovers."

Cloud blinked and looked up towards the taller man who still cupped his face.

"Lovers?" He asked hopefully. Sephiroth nodded.

"Yes, Cloud I have had feelings for you, for awhile now…and I really long to be with you. But, I can never forgive myself for,"

"No, please don't regret last night, it hurt…but even so I loved it." He pressed himself against the general. "They always say the first time is awkward and hardly ever goes like you plan and that it will hurt. I…I will always cherish last night." He let a small smile cross his pink lips as he tilted his head back to look up at the man holding him. "And I have loved you for a long time to Sephiroth."

Sephiroth felt a bolt of electricity shoot up his spine. That was the first time he could remember the cadet calling him by his name. He gently leaned down and kissed the blonds pink lips tenderly.

"I promise…I promise to make it up to you."

Yes, this one is short, but that is because I didn't want to write a LONG angst chapter. The next chapter will be long, six pages at the least. Please review.