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Merry early Christmas and a very late happy Chanukah to my readers. Thanks to gothic girl 1122 for helping me choose which character to use for this chapter. Charlie, Jasper, and, of course Edward, are all upcoming chapters. Sorry for the late update. I have no wireless internet for my laptop installed yet and for some reason I can't log onto my account on my desktop computer. My computer apparently abhors fanfiction because I can't even read a story, so I have to update at school. Also, as you may have noticed midterms are here again Very Sarcastic Cheering so now, I have to create a podcast and a game and a myriad of other things so I can't update as frequently as I would like. Many apologies but if you think this is way too late feel free to chase down my teachers with pitchforks. So anyways, here's the story!!

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Jacob's POV

I can't believe it. The leech is gone. Like, even more gone than he once was. There is absolutely no way that he can ever come to bother Bella, or me, ever again. Which means that Bella can finally get over him and move onto the new man in her life, namely me. I mean, I know she loves me. She just didn't want to admit it because of that goddamned leech. But now? She just has to mourn him for a little while and then she can move on to me. I mean, I didn't hope that he would die, just that she would fully get over him. But he's gone forever with no chance of him coming back, so she has no choice but to get over him. Honestly I couldn't have come up with a better solution to this doting problem that she had for the bloodsucker. So I'll just go over to her house in a couple of weeks and tell her that we can finally be honest about our feelings for each other. So it was perfect. But I began to realize that something was wrong when dad told me that Bella was only getting worse. According to Charlie, she was worse than when Edward had left. She never ate, never talked, never did anything. The worst part was that she never cried. She just kept up this haggard, tired, and depressed look. I had officially had it with her actions so I went over to Charlie's house.

I barged into the house only to find her staring blankly at the TV. I walked over to her and sat down next to her on the couch. Then, I promptly began to tell her exactly what had been on my mind. "Bella? Why are you still mourning that damn leech? He's gone and you've mourned him for months. I've tried to stay away but I just can't. I miss you Bella. Where have you been?" She turned off the TV and faced me on the couch. "What do you want from me Jacob?" It was then that I realized just how much she still loved him. I could h practically see the pain that it caused her to talk to me. I couldn't believe her. I thought that we had something. She's spent so many months crying over him, between when he left her and when he died. When she started hanging out with me, fixing and riding the motorcycle, fixing up the rabbit, I thought that she had gotten over him. What more would it take for her to just get over him? How much more hurt and disappointment would I have to go through for her to finally move along with her life, live the rest of her human existence? It didn't make sense. "Didn't you hear me? I said, why are you still mourning that leech?"

She turned to look at me. She slapped me. It happened so fast but, thanks to my being a werewolf, I didn't even feel it. "That is what you get for insulting my deceased" She put plenty of emphasis on this particular word. "boyfriend. Just because he isn't here gives you no right to insult him. And who the hell are you to tell me what is the proper mourning time? He loved me Jacob! I loved him too! Is that too hard of a concept for you to understand? Damnit! Jacob you're so damn frustrating. I can't even slap you because it doesn't hurt you at all!" She looked at me with utter loathing and hurt in her eyes. I almost felt bad, but then I realized that in order for her to realize the love she had for me I had to break through the haze left over by Edward.

I grabbed her shoulders as carefully as possible so as not to hurt her. She just looked up at me ferociously I could practically hear a very vampire-like snarl come from the back of her throat, so small that the normal human ear wouldn't hear it. Damn, hanging out with her precious leeches affected her more than I thought it would. I almost smiled at how cute she sounded trying to be all scary. But I steeled myself, this was no laughing matter, so I just lightly shook her and told her "Bella! Don't you love me too?! Just get over him! He left you remember!"

She gaped at me. "How could you say that Jacob!? He did it because he loved me! He left me because he wanted me to live a normal, human life! Also last time I checked you left me too Jacob. So don't you dare act as if you're innocent!"

I was filled with rage. How could she say that! She knew that I wasn't allowed to I was under Sam's orders and I can't disobey orders! I told her so in a quieter voice, in case Charlie was listening in. "You know that I had no choice Bella! I was under the orders of the alpha! Sam wanted me to do it so that I could protect you until I learned to control myself! Bella, it hurt me more than you can imagine, and when I overheard Charlie tell my dad that you were turning back into a zombie it hurt me so much to know that I had been causing you so much pain! Bella, damnit! I-I I love you Bella! I love you so much." She looked at me shocked.

Quietly she replied "Well, Jacob, I can't say I can return your feelings. Especially after you abandoned me for 4 whole weeks. If you loved me so much you could have come and been a friend to me!" Slowly her voice began escalating. "If you were a real man instead of the pup you act like you would have comforted me even though I was mourning another man! I know that Edward would have come to comfort me if it was you who had died. Even though he didn't know you, even though my tears would have been shed for you, goddamnit he would still be there for me! You didn't know him either and you're sitting there calling him names. What the hell gives you the right?!" She was screaming now.

"Bella." I said calmly. "I just, I just want you to be mine. I don't want someone else to still hold your heart. I want you to give it to me." I said quietly. But I was angry so I began to show it. I began to tremble and shake. Bella scooted away from me, going to the other end of the couch we were sitting on. I finally regained control of myself, but Bella remained where she sat. She was wary of my temper now. "However Bella," I continued with my voice slowly beginning to escalate. "I guess that you are too wrapped up in the fantasy of your oh so perfect dead" I put plenty of emphasis on this word. "vampire" I lowered my voice for this word. "ex-boyfriend. You obviously don't want to be with the rest of us. So I guess that I'll just leave because you obviously don't want to be with me!" I was now screaming. I quickly spun around and stomped out the door slamming it behind me so hard that I could feel the whole house shake. As I ran out the house I heard feet treading not so lightly. I just walked faster. I really didn't want to talk to Bella right now. Then I heard a voice much deeper than Bella's call out my name. "Jacob!" It was Charlie. My suspicions were right, Charlie was listening to us. I turned around and walked over to him. After all it wasn't as if he could hurt me. "Yes Charlie? What did you need?" I talked smoothly as if there was nothing wrong.

"You damn well know what I need Jacob Black! You are so lucky that I am a cop or else I would have pounded you into the ground by now! You just hurt Bella in there! She is dying Jacob! Wasting away! She doesn't eat, sleep, talk, or anything!" He screamed at me.

"Well, she certainly was talking then, or more appropriately screaming and yelling." I told him smoothly.

"Do you think that this is funny? My daughter is practically a ghost Jacob! If you loved her like you said you did you wouldn't have said the things you did. Being jealous is one thing but to hurt her like that…that is terrible! Until you have changed your attitude about the situation, you are not welcome in my house!" I just looked at him. "Fine, is that all? I have something important to do." I said coolly.

"No, that's not all. I just thought you should know, Bella is crying in there. You were one of her friends and now she has lost you. I hope you're proud of yourself." He turned and walked away from me. I too, walked away from him until I reached the woods, and from there I transformed and ran.

I never did see her again. Then weeks later I found out what had happened to her. I felt awful. I would never see her smile or laugh again. Soon, there was the funeral and Charlie looked heart-broken. The look on his face has haunted me ever since that day. It was a look that blamed me and only magnified my feelings of remorse further. I'm sorry Bella. So sorry. I wish that I had been a better friend. Maybe we could have been together if I hadn't been so awful to you. I love you Bella, and I always will.