Sorry that it's late luv's I had half of the story all written for you but I forgot to charge my laptop and it died and deleted everything I had, like, half of a story up and it sucks cause last night I was really on a roll cranking out the ideas so yeah it sucks pretty bad. Let's see what am I forgetting? Ah, yes! Happy Hanukkah or Chanukah to the jewish readers! and as of the day that I'm writing this it is exactly 7 days 'til Christmas and 4 days from when my school let's out for break. However, it's only a 2-week break Sniff. Okay on with the story.

Disclaimer: Still not mine.

Charlie's POV

A soon as I got the news about Edward I knew we were in for it. Poor Bella, and she had just gotten over her zombie case too. The whole cycle started again. She would get up, get dressed, say bye to me and walk out the door. She didn't even bother to eat, last time she at least took care of herself somewhat. But then from the house the Cullens picked her up and drove her to school. They do their thing at school, but Alice, bless that girl's soul, tells me that Bella doesn't eat lunch either. Then afterwards she comes home, does her homework, and retreats to bed. But she doesn't sleep. Nightmares maybe, but whatever it is I've checked in on her more than once and without Edward in her bed, oh yes I knew he was in there all this time, I didn't really mind after a while because they never did anything. I could sense ever since he left her, her sleeping pattern was disturbed. I almost said something about how I knew all along that they had been asleep together, but I figured it would bring back memories for her that she didn't want to relive. Anyways, she just doesn't sleep. She sits there quietly on the edge of her bed and smoothes the sheets over and over with her hand.

Since Bella wasn't sleeping I finally decided to get her some sleeping pills, maybe she would be able to rest and get better. I took her to the hospital in the clinic area so that she could see a doctor about getting some sleeping pills. When I left her I decided to find Carlisle, I wanted to see how well he was doing since even talkative Alice didn't talk so much anymore. So I looked in his usual area of the hospital, the ER. I sat in the waiting room patiently, knowing that he would come out soon. Sure enough after only five minutes of waiting he showed up.

"Carlisle!" I called. He turned to me.

"Oh, Charlie. Look I get a break in ten minutes wait for me at the cafeteria?" I nodded. "Thanks, see you then." I quickly walked to the clinic and asked the nurse sitting at the desk to tell Bella that I was in the cafeteria and that if she wanted she could come and join me.

I quickly walked over to the cafeteria from there, where Carlisle was sitting at a table making tea. I sat down in front of him. "Hello Charlie. I haven't seen you in a while." he said calmly.

I looked closer at him. Carlisle looked the same as always. Well put together with not a single hair out of its place, but he just looked so down. "Hey, how, well, how have you been?" This was extremely difficult considering I was not a man who usually discusses feelings. "I'm OK I guess, as OK as any man who lost his son can be. Esme's lost it almost completely. She never does much other than look at all of our old pictures of him. The guys have been doing their best to cheer up the girls and vice versa. There isn't much else. The occasional trip to his grave. How about Bella? Alice said she isn't much better."

"Yeah, Bella hasn't been doing to well. I'm worried about her. She doesn't do anything, I mean it was worse than last time." He cringed when I said this.

"Listen I'm sorry for that. Edward thought it was for the best that he just make it a clean break, just a good-bye and that would be it. Turns out that maybe they should have kept in contact huh? Stay together a little while before what happened, happened. But, enough of this, what are you doing here. I know you didn't come just to see me." He finished with a strained smile.

"Bella hasn't been sleeping at all. When Edward left she used to have horrible nightmares. At least that was what I guessed. She never did tell me why she would wake up in the middle of the night, screaming. Anyways, I figured she was having awful nightmares, but she really does need her sleep, so she's at the clinic discussing sleep medications with a doctor."

"Nightmares?" he asked.

"Maybe something with being alone, because once she started hanging out with Jacob they all disappeared, but sure enough, when he left her the screaming came back. Jacob's a good kid. I can't imagine why he would have left her like he did. She won't tell me, and Billy just said that they had a fight and some things to work out. So I guess I never will know what happened." I rubbed my forehead. "Did you know that Edward slept over at my house most nights?" He gaped at me. "Yes, he certainly did. I'm not bringing it up because I had an issue with it. After all, they never did anything, and she seemed fine, so I let it be." He was still staring at me.

"Well, I knew he disappeared somewhere at night just figured that it was to drive around or something." He said, seemingly shrugging it off.

"So you never guessed it would be something like this? Well, no he is…was a good kid. Never did anything wrong. His parents raised him right for sure." He paused looking thoughtful. "You know he loved Bella right? That was why he never called or kept in contact. She said that she loved him often, very often in my presence. She told him things like 'you are my existence' or 'you are my life' sometimes when they talked to each other, and, if I didn't know better, I would swear that they were saying their wedding vows." He shook his head. "He broke it off the way he did so that she would move on. He thought that there was no chance of us returning, so he just tried to make it a clean break for her. It was terribly sad. He wanted her to move on even though it would hurt him to do so. There were plenty of girls interested in LA but he was never interested. He spent most of the time at home pining for her. It was pathetic, actually. Well, the girls didn't think so, they thought it was romantic." A small smile lit up his face. He then shook his head. "They were hounding us about why we never pined over them when they were gone. It was rather silly. Edward being ridiculed by the men in the house, and cooed over by the girls." His smile deepened. "I should probably go, my break's almost over now. It was good to talk to you though. So long Charlie."

I sat there absorbing everything that he had told me. Edward never called because he loved her? He wanted her to move on? He made proclamations of his love to her on multiple occasions? What is this? I have to talk to Bella about this. Where was she anyways? I walked over to the clinic area, and because I was looking for her I wasn't looking where I was going and ran right into someone. "Oh I'm-oh there you are Bella!" She looked at me.

"Oh hey Charlie. Here." She handed me a prescription for some sleeping pills. "Can we go?" Well, Bella still wasn't saying anything.

"Sure Bells, we can go."

We walked back to the car in silence and then we headed home. Weeks passed and nothing changed. Bella didn't appear to get any better, but on the bight side she wasn't getting any worse. Until one day when Jacob finally came to visit Bella. I was outside cleaning up some stuff in the back yard. When I finished and came inside expecting it to be quiet. It was far from it.

"Bella, just get over the stupid leech already! He's dead, and before that he left you! He never talked to you! Never sent an e-mail or even a letter!" Then I heard the sound of a slap. I waited quietly to find out who delivered it. "What the hell was that for?!" Jacob yelled. "That," She replied calmly. "was for insulting my deceased boyfriend!" I silently cheered, even though as a cop I knew I shouldn't promote this kind of behavior. But I couldn't help but be happy to know that my Bells can protect herself. "He never kept in contact, because he loves me." She finished. He wanted me to move on!"

"And you did! Bella, I know that you love me! You love me! You just don't want to admit it! You're too damn stubborn!" He yelled at her.

"No Jacob! You have just deluded yourself into thinking that I love you. I don't know if you love me or not but I love Edward! Besides, if I recall correctly you left me too!" She practically screamed. Followed by this comment was fevered whispering from Jacob, and the more fevered whispering coming from Bella. Since I was in the kitchen I didn't hear it unfortunately. Suddenly I could hear voices again and I heard Bella whispering so that I could hear her. "I don't care if you were under orders!" What? Orders? What the heck does she mean by orders?

"Look Bella, I came over here to tell you that I love you and to move on from that leech, but I guess that you don't want to get over him. If that's how it is, then I'll leave you to your moping. I won't be coming back anytime soon. Bye Bella. Call me when you're ready to admit your feelings for me.

When he left Bella looked as if she had been slapped, then she fell off the couch. She curled up on the floor and began to cry. I flew out the door to find Jacob. Where the hell did that boy go! Truthfully, I had always hoped that Bella would date Jacob instead. I know that I never admitted it to Bella, but can you blame me? I knew this kid since he was born and I had only recently met Edward in comparison, so I wanted the boy that I was positive had been raised right. But after what I had just witnessed I was beginning to doubt this so-called great up-bringing. It was quite sad really. Who taught him this behavior, cause it sure wasn't Billy. Finally I saw him on the outskirts of the forest. "Jacob!" I yelled after his quickly retreating form.

He paused in his step a moment and then turned around and began walking towards me. When he reached me he said coolly. "Yes Charlie?"

I couldn't believe the gall of this boy! "Don't you 'yes Charlie' me, boy!" I growled at him. "What the hell was that? Can't you tell that she's miserable? That she misses him? It was a hard loss for her as much as it was for the rest of his family!"

"Well I wanted to get her out of her funk, to move on. I guess I thought that if I admitted to her that I love her then she would have come around or something." He said shrugging his shoulders.

"You are so lucky that I am a cop or else I would have hauled you to the ground in no time flat and bashed your face in!" I said roaring now.

"Look I'm sorry Charlie. I don't know what else to do. Sorry. Now is that all? Dad is expecting me now so we can eat." He said frustratingly cool.

"No that isn't all." I spat. I was about to take two low blows here but until he could respect my daughter he could definitely take these without any regret from me. "Firstly consider yourself banned from my house for good until you apologize to my daughter! And secondly, I hope you're proud of yourself, you made the girl you claim to love cry." I saw his cool demeanor drop for a second to one of pain then the mask was back. "There, now I'm finished. You can go, and don't forget you're not allowed on this property until you thoroughly apologize. Good-Bye Jacob." I turned on my heel and stalked the way to the house. I walked in the front door this time and walked in on Bella still curled up and crying her heart out. "Bella?" I asked. She looked up from the floor straight at me.

"You heard everything, didn't you dad?" She said her voice thick with tears. "You heard what he said to me?"

I looked at her. Had she always been this perceptive? I don't recall her being able to read me like that. "Well, yes. I banned Jacob from coming until he apologizes for everything he said to you. You know, he can be pretty stupid sometimes but, I really think he loves you." She just looked at me. "Can I go dad? I'm tired. I just want to sleep." I let her go. She was probably going to take a pill and go to sleep, which she still looked like she needed.

A few more weeks went by then one day I got the call. It was from Alice.

"Charlie?" She asked her voice quivering a little bit.

"Yeah?" I replied. "What is it?"

"I-it's Bella." She said tripping over her words. It sounded like she was about to cry.

"Wha-what about Bella?" I asked bracing myself for the worst but, nothing could brace me for the news that came.

"Sh-she's dead Charlie." She said. I heard her begin to sob. "Sh-she killed herself Charlie, she said she couldn't live without Edward."

"How?" I asked her. But I didn't need to ask. I already knew, it was those sleeping pills. It was kind of suspicious that she was still looking as if she wasn't getting any sleep. I guess she never took them and killed herself by swallowing the whole bottle.

"I-it was the pills. She never took them, she swallowed the entire bottle Charlie. She k-killed herself." I couldn't believe it. Bella was dead. My only child, dead and gone. I couldn't believe it.

"I have to go Alice." I said robotically. "Charlie?" I heard her ask. "Yes Alice?" I replied. "She wanted you to know that she loves you. She just couldn't live without Edward."

"Good-bye Alice." I said.

"Bye Charlie." She hung up.

I walked over to the front desk. I told the receptionist that I had to leave. When she asked me why, I merely told her that it was important and that I didn't plan on coming to work for a week. She said nothing and I left.

I drove home. "Alice?" I called "I'm right here Charlie." She replied to my call. "She's in the kitchen"

I walked in on her kneeling and looking at Bella, who was laying on the floor. "You can go Alice. I can take care of it." She nodded her head and quickly walked out the door. I gave her 5 minutes to drive away and then I felt the yell that was building in my throat out. It was loud, long, and filled with the pain that I felt for losing my Bells. My only child. I yelled until I had nothing left and then I began to cry. I curled up next to my dead daughter and cried.

A/N Yes I made Charlie know all along. I figured that it would make things a little more humorous considering how bleak the story is. I know I keep adding things but I just keep getting these great ideas so I can't help but pour them out. I don't remember which area Carlisle worked in but I stuck him in the ER since that sounds like the place where he could help out the most. About the fight dialogue, I forgot the words in the fight scenes so I just improvised sorry if you're shaking your head at my stupidity. God I'm frickin freezing it's like 60 degrees outside which is cold if you live in South Florida like I do so yeah we just got that cold front that was snowing the rest of the U.S. into their home so yeah. It went from about 92 degree afternoons to 70 degree afternoons in no time flat. And 80 degree nights to 52 degree nights. Brrrrrrrrrrrr! One last note. Thanks for those of you who encouraged me to write more. You are all the best readers ever! Actually this is the last note. I won't be able to update for a while after this since its going to be christmas break and I won;t have any access to wireless internet but I will keep to my promise of previews if you review and correctly identify.