Evil!Chuck comes out to play for our thirteenth chapter. Enjoy, lovies.
What You Feel
'I just want to break you and watch you bleed.'
– James, Bad Girl Rising.
Despite everything he might say to the contrary, sometimes Chuck Bass wonders what it would be like if Blair Waldorf was just as unhappy as he is: what it would be like with her sitting on his bed, waiting for salvation; her watching as he cavorted with an old/new flame; her shitless and witless and without a hope of anything in sight. He wonders if she'd make the same decisions he has, the same sacrifices – he imagines her sitting at the bar, cold and empty, telling Serena that she loves him but knows she can never make him happy.
When he has these dark thoughts, he rolls over and buries his face in Blair's brown hair. The gentle scent of the product she uses seduces him, ensnares him and only him.
What with time passing and his slow but sure realisation that ChuckandBlairBlairandChuck is not a fluke, it takes only a few months for him to just stop wondering.
It takes him a lifetime, however, to stop being comforted by the smell of her hair, even as the strands beneath his nose shade from dark to light to grey to white.
Fin.