It was two days later when Castiel next 'popped' in.
One minute the chair by the side of the bed was empty the next Castiel was sat there.
"Jesus Christ!" Dean almost leapt from his bed where he was sitting.
"No it's just me" he looked serious "why would you think it was Jesus Christ?"
"I didn't…oh never mind"Dean shook his head "What do you want?"
"I came to warn you..."
"Oh I should have known. It's been way too quiet these past few days. Ok, what's coming Cas? Demons, ghost's, vampires, let me guess vampire ghosts?"
"It's demons and angels" Castiel turned to me "They're after you Caitlyn"
"What did I do?"
"It's what you're going to do"
"What is she going to do?" Sam asked resting his hand on my arm.
"She's going to save you Sam?"
"Save him from what?" Dean Demanded
"I don't know all the details; I'm cut off from heaven so I have to make do with second hand information"
"So you're second hand information could be wrong" Dean remarked.
"I know enough to know that if Caitlyn is meant to save your brother, there are a lot of angels and demons that will try to stop her and she's in mortal danger"
Without thinking I stood up and gathered what few belongings I had acquired since I'd gotten here.
"What are you doing?" Sam stood up and blocked my path towards the door.
"I'm leaving; you and Dean are in the middle of the apocalypse. You don't need this right now. I can't expect you protect me on top of everything you're already dealing with"
"Like hell you are" Dean chimed in surprising me as got up and stood by his brother "If you can help Sam I think you should stay, plus I 'm kind of getting used to you been around. I mean you're not bad… for a witch I mean"
I reluctantly put my thing down "Ok I'll stay for now but I don't know how I can help Sam" I told Dean
Dean turned to where Castiel had been sitting but he was gone again.
It was getting late and I was tired but what Cas had said about the demons and angels being after me had me really rattled and I didn't dare go to my room alone. By 2am I felt I had no choice and I got up to leave.
"Where are you going?" Dean looked up from the magazine he was reading.
"To my room, I'm tired"
Sam and Dean glanced at each other.
"Oh we didn't tell you, Dean's going to sleep in your room and you can stay in here in his bed, we didn't think you should be alone, not if you've got angels and demons wanting you dead" Sam told me.
Dean got up to leave, "Thank you" I said gratefully
He nodded as he left the room.
After I'd changed in the bathroom I crawled into bed. Suddenly I wasn't so tired anymore as my thoughts raced around in my head I glanced over at Sam in the next bed.
"Sam? Are you are awake?"
"Yes, what's up Cait?"
"I want to help you, I just don't know how"
A few minutes passed and he didn't respond so I assumed he'd fallen asleep
"Cait?" he finally said.
"Yes"
"Ever since I set Lucifer free …" he began "I know how important it is for me not go back on the demon blood but its get so tempting sometimes…."
"I know it's been hard" I finished for him.
"You dreamt all that too? With Ruby?
"Yep"
"How can you know everything about me and still bear to be around me?"
"I don't think you're a bad person Sam, I know it s all a big mess right now but you thought you were doing the right thing"
"I set Lucifer free" he responded angrily "It' doesn't get less right than that"
I didn't know what to say
"I'm sorry" he ventured "I'm not angry at you, I've just been feeling so angry about everything these days and I can't even kill a demon without been tempted by the blood anymore and I can't talk to Dean about it without him freaking out How am I supposed to stop the apocalypse?"
"I switched the light on, walk over to his bed and sat down. He sat up and I took my chance before I chickened out. I put my hands on his shoulders, pulling him towards me. I put my mouth to his and gently kissed him as I thought about what a good person he was in spite of everything and how much I wanted for him to feel at peace.
"Wow" he said when I eventually pulled away "That wasn't like a normal kiss"
"I wouldn't know it was my first" I admitted.
"Really? Well kissing is usually nice but it generally doesn't make you feel like you've had a soul detox like that just did"
"I probably could have done that without kissing you" I admitted.
He didn't say anything as he pushed a handful of stray hair from my face and kissed me again.