I closed my eyes and concentrated on getting myself back to Sam in the future.
When I opened my eyes I was in a room and Castiel was lying naked on a bed with three scantily clad women.
"Whoa" I yelled covering my eyes as I turned away
"Umm, you're a bit late for the orgy maybe you can join in the next one" Castiel offered
"I'll take a rain check"
"Caitlyn?" he asked
"Yep, it's me"
"When are you coming from?"
"I was trying to get as close to 2010 as possible"
"Well you've come a bit too far" he said "its 2015"
"Castiel put some clothes on please" I pleaded
"Oh umm sorry" he began to dress "sorry ladies that's it for today"
After they had left I turned to Castiel "Where do I start? I mean what the hell" I shook my head "never mind I don't know how much time I have what happened with Sam? did he kill Ruby?"
"No but Dean did"
Something didn't feel right "So it's ok now?" I asked hopefully "Sam's ok?
"Not exactly"
"How not exactly?"
"Sam got hooked on demon blood after Dean killed Ruby?
"But how?"
"Lilith held him down and force fed him Demon blood. I guess it was always fated to happen one way or another. Caitlyn you just can't change things that have already happened"
"So where's Sam now?" I dreaded the answer.
"He said yes to Lucifer and killed most of the population; he only left a few hundred survivors worldwide"
As bad as I felt about the billions of people he had killed while Lucifer used Sam's body as a meat suit I had to ask the next question.
"And Sam? Is he…" I couldn't finish the question.
"He's not dead but he's not the Sam you used to know, Lucifer left him a dribbling mess. Caitlyn, all the people he killed. He couldn't handle having their blood on his hands"
"Oh God" I muttered, I couldn't begin to imagine what it had done to him "I have to see him"
"Are you sure?" Castiel looked uncertain
I didn't want to see Sam in so much pain but I knew I had to "Yes" I replied "I'm sure"
"Castiel led the way. We were walking towards a small building when I saw Dean coming towards us "Caitlyn?"
"Yeah"
"About time you got here, Sam needs you. Can you help him?"
"I'll try" I promised
Castiel unlocked the door and my eyes fell to where Sam was cowered in the corner. He looked like he hadn't slept in weeks and he'd lost a lot of weight.
"Sam" I walked towards him and knelt down.
Just when I thought this scene couldn't break my heart anymore he looked at me blankly as if he didn't know. I leant forward to kiss him and tried to do the same thing I'd done the first time I'd kissed him.
"Cait" he recognised me as I pulled away "I've missed you" tears fell down his eyes "I hurt so many people"
"It's ok" I lied as put my hand gently on the back on his hand and washed away all the bad memories of being Lucifer's vessel. I kissed him again, then got up to leave "I'll see you soon" I lied again knowing I'd never see again, not this version of him anyway.
"What did you do?" Asked Dean "I made him forget been Lucifer's vessel but it won't hold, the memories are too strong.
"So what now?" Dean asked.
"Now I have to go back to whatever time the Angels haven't blocked me from and try again" I replied sadly