Not my Greed!
No, not my Greed. Stupid blues. They came charging in, stupid blues, and they tried to take my Greed. I pounced on the first one in the door, screaming shrilly, sounding like a eerie dead animal brought back to life. Stupid scream, stupid blue. I started scratching at his face with my stupid broken hands, and he screamed, his hands flying up and taking mine, trying to hold them back. I let out a shriek as I sat on his chest, the others flying by me to go after the stupid blues. Scratch, I scratched and scratched. The mans legs were kicking and he was wiggling underneath me. Stupid blue. Not my Greed! You can't have my Greed!
I lifted my stupid broken arm up high, getting ready to bring it down again, when someone grabbed my hand. My eyes drifted up. Stupid long hair got in the way, and the big stupid sparkly man shimmered as he lifted me up off the stupid blue. No shirt, he wasn't wearing a shirt. I stared, as my feet left the ground, higher, higher, higher, until I had to look down at the man, my feet level with his stupid big chin. Stupid sparkle man. I felt something flip up my face, a smile? I smiled? No, this wasn't me. Not me, not me at all. I threw my leg back, and slammed it hard into his chin right as Roa came crashing into the man from behind. Crazy, I was called crazy by the scratched up stupid blue man. I hit the ground along with stupid sparkles and slid. Let go, let go of my hand. I let out another loud high pitched animal wale as I struggled with his iron hand. Too strong, let go.
Pain, I felt pain. It was setting in around my wrist, and I knew it was broken now. I reached over with my good hand, and I sliced at the man until he finally had to let go to fight off Roa who was still tackling him down. Roa good. I turned to the scratched up man as a blonde blue came up. Stupid blonde blue. Hurt blues. Not my Greed, you can't have him!
"Can't. . . . . . have him!" I screamed, the first time I had any emotion in my voice. I got ready to jump at the man, his bright blue eyes widening, when an arm slammed into me. Pain, it was there again. I screamed as someone pushed me to the ground, holding me back. Not my Greed, can't have him! Can't take him from me!
"Wont. . . . . . . .take him. . . . . . . From me!" I screamed as the man pulled back. Sharp teeth, I felt sharp teeth in my mouth, and that pull across my lips. Grinning? Not me grinning? This wasn't me. I stood up, jumping at the man and holding his shoulders down to the ground. Stupid blue!
"GO. . . . . . .AWAY!" I screamed in stupid blues face. Greasy black hair, I knew greasy black hair. Twitching, lots of twitching on my face, and suddenly I couldn't see right. Everything was fading, stupid purple eyes. Then I saw red. Blue was pinned, not going anywhere, stupid man. I raised back hand, bright red orange hand, fire. It was fire. Smile, stupid couldn't smile before. Now smile. Angry smile. Slam, slam hand down. Move arm! Move move move!
"Boom." I spat, spat words at stupid greasy face. Bring arm down, move now! Bout too, was going too, move, can't. Something hit me. Hard kick. It was a hard kick in the stomach. Falling, fall to the floor, hard. Kick. Red face, hair, blonde. Move! Kick. Stop kicking. Move move move! Scream, I screamed. It echoed back, I heard me scream. Kick.
Up. I'm up, moving, arm going out. Blue eyes, stupid blues. Scared, he's scared. I smell it. Twitch smile, stupid never smiled before. Smile now. Jump. I jump at him, when fire hit me. Fire was around me. No pain, felt no pain. I looked back. Greasy was smiling, stupid smile, hand out. Fire, there was lots of fire in his hand. Around me fire burned. Bright red fire. Smile back.
"Boom!" I screamed at him, and fire was on him. Burning, greasy was burning. Good. Burn. Turn back, Red. Red was standing there, red was here. Not my Greed. Red can't have Greed. No. Get Red. I started to move, shrill screams. They filled my ears, my animal screams. Mine. Smile, angry smile. Stupid can smile. But not like this. Red. She looked up, eyes wide. Stupid red. Fire. Burn Red.
"BOOM!" Blonde. Jumping at Red. Blonde saving Red. Burn blonde, burn. Greed said name, he said my name. Suddenly moving was hard, not turning, being stiff. Red. Fire. Move move move.
I couldn't see again, stupid broken eyes. And then it was all clear again. Burning people surrounded me. Stupid smelly burning blues. I felt my lips twitch, but no stupid smile. I couldn't smile. Not like I did. No smile. I glared at Red as she screamed at me. Said something, something mean? She was touching burned sleeping blonde. Not dead, he's not dead, no fear.
"Not. . . . . . . .my. . . . . . . .Greed." I tried to explain, but she just stared at me. Not understanding, she's not understanding. Fire. Can't say sorry, not sorry.
"RAGE! Come on! We're gonna get caught princess!" Greed. Not a princess. I stared at Lacey, stupid Red.
"He. . . . . . . . . .be. . . . . .fine." I tired to tell her, not making sense. Doesn't understand, she just doesn't know. Listen, I want to tell stupid Red to listen. Please. Can't be sorry, not sorry. Did what I had too. Greed said to fight. Please understand. I kneeled down in front of her, she didn't like it. Stupid Red. She screamed at me, tears. Crying she was crying. No, not cry. Stupid red, it's okay.
"I. . . . . . . . . had. . . . . . .to do. . . . . . . It." I reached out, touching face with broken stupid hands. She flinched, no scared, not scared. Hurt. She's hurting. "I. . . . . . . . . .had. . . .to." Not listening. She doesn't hear stupid words. Stupid Red don't understand.
"RAGE! What the hell is wrong with you!" Greed, behind me, yanking me up. I grunted as he picked me up, throwing me over shoulder. Staring at Red, stupid Greed, he was staring at Red like he wanted to hurt her. No hurting! No more hurting. Scream, I let out a shrill animal cry and Greed cursed and hit me on the leg. Stupid shark man! Mean Shark man.
"Put. . . . Down!" I hit his back as he tore his stupid purple eyes from Lacey. Stupid red, run! Run away. Go, get out of here! Stupid get up! Get up and move! Stupid. Talk talk talk!
Moving. We left stupid red. Crying and alone. Stupid red.
Stupid shark man.
Put me down!
Now!
*~*~*~*~*~*
Greed was mad. Told me to stay with stupid tin can Al. Stupid made Greed mad again. Always messing up and making Greed mad. Stupid Martel was there too. She sat inside Al, least I didn't have to see her. Stupid snake woman. She liked Greed, told me so. She said she can talk to me cause I couldn't talk good. Stupid Martel. I'm getting better. Thinking clearer. Not so stupid. I could tell Greed, stupid snake, but I'm not. He might love her back. Not happening.
"Are you okay Rage?" Stupid can asked. Staring, I couldn't help but stare. He was so weird, stupid can, how can he talk with no body? Greed told me this wasn't my body once. Stupid Greed. He said I stole it, stupid, and I was a shell of a person. Not true. I'm me. No one but me. Stupid Greed, stupid can.
"I. . . . . . . . . .. I'm. . .fine." I struggled out. Greed said to think first. Slow down stupid brain, and think about stupid thoughts. Mixed up. I was all mixed up. He said when I get feelings, I get confused and slow down. Talk faster if I don't feel. "Why. . . . . . . Do you. . . . . .ask?"
"I just saw you sitting still and sad looking. I was worried." There was noise inside his stupid metal body. Martel. Moving, snake lady, she was moving. I glared at his stomach. Stupid Martel. Really didn't like her at all.
"She's always sad looking Al. That's who she is." Her snake voice garbled out from the stupid metal boy.
"Not. . . . . . . . Always. Hurt. . . . . . . . . . .Red." There was another noise, a scoff. Stupid Martel. She don't know me. Stuipd.
"Hurt Red? You mean Lacey?" Nod. I didn't want to talk, I only liked talking to Greed. He understood. Not stupid Al. He didn't know, he didn't understand.
"I'm sure she'll forgive you, she's a really nice person. She puts up with my brother all the time. You should of met her sister. Her and Ed used to be best friends, and we all used to hang out together. . .but then something happened and we don't anymore." Al rambled. He had a baby voice. Stupid baby voice.
"What happened Al?" Martel asked, why did she care. Stupid snake, not care. Al had red eyes. Bright red eyes. Not human. Stupid can.
"Well she died. Scar got a hold of her and well. . .she died. Lacey wasn't herself after it, and we just kind of stopped being friends." Friends? I had friends. Right?
"What. . . . . . . . . .are friends?" I asked, my words sounding a little better, not as strangled. Good. Stupid makes progress. Keep trying to talk faster. Stupid.
"Friends? What do you mean? Their people who are there for you when you need them, and they make you laugh and enjoy yourself." I felt the twitching as I leaned forward. Stupid twitchy smile.
"I have. . . . . . . .a. . . . . friend." There was a noise inside Al. Stupid snake, shut up.
"You do?" Al sounded surprised. Can I sound surprised? Stupid broken brain, work better.
"Yes. . . . . . . . . . . . .Greed." Martel shot out, Al's head going up up up in the air. I stared at stupid snake as she glared at me. I stood up, glaring back.
"Greed isn't your friend. He just feels bad cause your slow and stupid." Not stupid! Not stupid at all! Speak speak speak. "See, you can't even say anything back. He doesn't care anything about you."
Push her, hit her, scream. Something do something stupid! Move, speak speak speak!
"Just get lost Rage. We're better off without you." No! Not true! Greed likes me, Greed's mine! My friend, stupid stupid stupid! No! Not listening, no!
"Not. . . . . . . . .true!"
Laughing.
She laughed at me.
No!
Gotta get out.
Gotta get away.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I ran away.
No one followed. Didn't think they would. Why would someone want stupid me anyway? I was stupid, and I had a stupid broken brain, and I talked stupid words and Greed didn't really like me. I had stupid ugly hair, and stupid purple eyes, and no one wanted me around. I made Stupid Red cry and now I had stupid water from my eyes. Stupid broken eyes. They were leaking all over the place, and can't stop it. Like I can't stop stupid thoughts about that stupid shark man!
He didn't care! Not at all. Lies, swimming stupid lies. I sank to the ground. Lost, I was lost. The woods were dark and tall around me, stupid trees. Digging stupid broken hands into the grass, I let the water fall. Lacey had water from her eyes, crying, she'd been crying. I was crying? I made a stupid sound, low and scary, like a dieing cat. I didn't like the noises I made, they scared me. Maybe that's why stupid Greed didn't like me, cause of the noises. Get better, gotta get smarts. Stupid broken brain, it's cause I'm stupid. He hates me cause I'm stupid. He likes pretty girls like stupid Red. Stupid Red.
Stopping from crying, I sat back on my heels, staring at the trees. Stupid swallowing trees. Greed looking at stupid Red. He stared at Red. Stupid Red! It was her, he liked her! I let out a scream, sounding like a shredded animal cry and a demonic snarl. Scary noises. Fix that.
I started to stand up and run when someone stepped out in front of me. Wide smiling face, stupid purple eyes, and long green hair. He took at step towards me, I stepped back. Stupid man. He made a slow dark stupid chuckle sound, like Greed made at me before, only his was prettier. Stupid pretty man. Another step, but I didn't move back. Not here to hurt, here to help. Stupid smile. Smile like that! Stupid brain let me smile!
"Your Rage. Huh. Greed kept you all to himself, what a waste." He smiled, stupid smile! Can't smile like that, not yet. Still twitching. Get better! Speak speak speak.
"No. . . . . . . . hate. . . .Greed." His eyebrow was up, surprised. Look surprised too. Copy him. Can't, wont work. Mouth wont move.
"Oh you do! Well then, you won't have a problem joining our happy family then, will you?" I stared, trying to figure out if he meant harm. Stupid green hair. He had pretty hair for a guy. He had a family.
". . . .F-Family?" I tired to copy how he said it, smooth and easy. I liked his voice, liked the way he talked. Stupid talk like that!
"Yes. You didn't know you have a family waiting to meet you? Did Greed not tell you anything?" No. Nothing he didn't want me to know. Family sounded nice. Sounded real. Stupid. Only real people had families. I wanted to be real. Stupid Red had a family, she was real.
"No-thing." I held on to the o in nothing too long, making it sound silly. Stupid smile, he smiled at that too. Not supposed to smile. Stupid green man!
"Well then come with me, I'll introduce you to a new life. And your waiting family. I'm Envy. . .your brother." He held out a sleek hand. Stupid pretty hand. I slowly put mine in it, his a lot bigger than mine, like Greed. Only Greed has big stupid hands that were warm and closed around mine right. Stupid green mans were cold as ice, and tightly squeezed mine.
"Brother?" I asked and he nodded, that same stupid smile never leaving his face.
"That's right, I missed you baby sister." Sister. I was a sister. I had family. I stared at our hands, Stupid hands, and saw his skin was as chalky white as mine. Brother. Same stupid purple eyes, same dark hair. Brother, stupid green brother. I tried to smile at him like he was at me, stupid smile, but I just twitched. He seemed to know, he understood. Stupid. He knew!
"Come on now. You've been gone too long, time to catch up." Catch up.
Stupid had a family.
Gone too long.
Fix that too.
*~*~*~*~*~*
I had two big sisters, stupid pretty sisters, and a baby brother. He was nice, and I had a cousin, a stupid fat cousin that tried eat me once. I had a family. Stupid. Baby Brother Wrath smiled at me as he walked over, putting both his small hands on my stupid knees. His stupid smile was cute, not like Big Brother Envy. Wrath liked my stupid thoughts, he said they made him giggle. Stupid, he liked my stupid thoughts! But they were better! With these people they were better! Stupid didn't come out so much, and I could talk a little better. Still slow, but getting better.
"Rage! Can you brush my hair?!" I nodded as he smiled wide, moving his stupid tiny hands. He jumped up in my lap, I'd been sitting in the living room. My spot, it was my spot since I got here. Two days and Greed wasn't looking. Didn't care, he didn't care. Wrath handed me the brush and I lifted it to his hair. Stupid pretty hair. It slowly pulled through smoothly and he sat stupid still. I liked brushing his hair, he made me do it a lot. Stupid pretty hair.
"Hey! Can we walk after this?" He asked as I ran the brush back through his long hair. I twitch smiled, stupid smile. Still not good, still really scary and ugly, but getting better. Big Sister Lust had given me clothes, not like her though. She gave me a short stupid black dress. I liked it, it was pretty, and she gave me stuff to hide my stupid broken hands. They covered the scars, nice, and left my stupid fingers free.
"Yes. . . .we can." He bounced on my lap, didn't hurt, and jumped down, making me put the brush down to stand up.
"COME ON! Let's go!" He smiled wide, want to smile like that! Stupid tiny hand took mine. I looked down at Baby Brother Wrath as he tugged my arm out the door. I followed, not bothering to tell anyone or ask stupid where were going. Stupid smile, wanted a smile like his. Wanted a stupid smile like Big Brother Envy.
"I'm glad you came home Rage! Envy told me about you, how you left and lost your memory. He said you wouldn't remember any of us. But you're here, and I can help you remember, right?!" He looked happy, can't I look happy? I nodded and that made him smile a lot. "Lust said stuff about your head. She said you have something wrong with it, and made you talk slow, but I like it when you talk slow."
"Thank. . . . . . You baby. . . . . . Brother." I twitched at him and he smiled. He knew my twitches. He even taught himself to do stupid twitches too. He twitched back at me.
"Hey look! That's the place that Envy hates! He tells me not to go near it, but I like walking around." I looked at Baby Brother Wrath. He was cute, stupid smile, with his jeans and stupid white tee. Looked normal, stupid normal. Like a kid.
"Why. . . . . . .does he. . . . . . Hate. . . . It so. . . . . . .much?" Baby Brother Wrath shook his head, his stupid brows furrowing together.
"He said it's cause the military lives there, and he hates them. Edward lives there too." I was confused, and I hated being confused. Stupid broken brain wasn't that better. Need to get better, reason why Greed hates stupid. Get better before Baby Brother Wrath hates stupid too.
"Edward?" I tried to talk one words. Easier and faster. Not looking so stupid then. Squeezes hand, Baby Brother Wrath squeezes hand tight. Too tight? Can't tell.
"Yeah, him. I hate him! He took my body! I want it back!" Angry Baby Brother Wrath. Stops walking, looking down. Crying, stupid tears, Baby Brother Wrath is crying.
"No. . . .. . . ..cry." I managed to spit out and he looked up. Stupid crying, I hate crying. Kneeling down, I tried to erase tears. No more, no more crying. Not my Baby Brother Wrath.
"I can't help it! He makes me mad!" Holding. Holding Baby Brother Wrath while he stupid cries. No cry, stop cry. Make Baby Brother Wrath stop crying now.
"Mad. . . . . . .now too." Baby Brother Wrath pulls away, smiles. Stupid can't smile yet.
"Don't be mad Rage. It's not your fault." Smile, I twitched back. Stupid twitching. Learn to smile, stupid brain learn to smile.
"Lets. . . . . . . Walk?" I asked and he nodded, taking stupid broken hand again and pulling forward. Nice place, pretty stupid place. Pretty place where stupid pretty Red lives. Red. Standing frozen in front of me and Baby Brother Wrath. Smile at her, stupid smile! Can't. Just twitched. Not good enough. Glare, she glared and me. Baby Brother Wrath growled at her, squeeze hand, make him stop. Stupid pretty Red mad at Stupid Rage. Can see anger. Smile smile smile. Just twitch. Can't. Not smile yet.
"Hell-o." Held on to the O too long. Stupid sounds stupid. Not good. Stupid pretty Red stared, not understand? Can't understand. Then she sighed.
"You were right. He's okay." Okay? Stupid blonde is okay! Told her. Stupid not so stupid.
"Can't. . . . . . . .be. . . . .sorry." I tried to tell her, and she shook her head, almost like telling stupid to shut up. Wont shut up, but can't say anything. Speak speak speak.
"Sister! How do you know this human?" Baby Brother Wrath tugged arm, glare at stupid pretty Red. Don't glare, I want to tell him that. But can't. Can't talk. Stupid just talk.
"Red. . . . . . . . . .is my. . . . . . . .friend." I tried to tell him and his stupid pretty purple eyes widened too wide. "Right?" I asked her, but she just stared.
Not friend?
Red not stupid's friend?