Didn't want to do it.
I really didn't want to do it. No Big Brother Envy, no hurt Red. Already hurt Red enough. I shook my head at him, no, I said no, no hurt her. Envy smacked me, not nice. Called stupid, stupid. Not stupid, not stupid! No no no! Wont hurt her, wont. Red asleep, good Red, sleep good. Greed said we don't sleep, humans do. Wanna be more like humans.
"I SAID KILL HER!" He screamed, stomp foot. Foot with blood. Red's blood. Envy hurt Red.
"No. . . . . . . . . hurt." Hit, he hit me hard on the face. It burned. Stupid get's what stupid get's. Wont hurt Red though. Not hurt Red, Red nice to stupid, likes stupid. Friends are there for each other, stupid Al said so. "Wont. . . . . . . . .hurt. . . . . . .Red."
" 'Won't hurt Red.'" He teased, sounding stupid. Not like me. "You'll do what I tell you to do! I'm your Big Brother! Remember that!" Punching. He punched me hard in the face, I fell over, hard. Face hurt, cheek on fire, stupid get's what stupid get's. The door opened, and I stared as Greed walked in. Greed! He was here, to save me!
"What the hell are you doing here Greed?" Big Brother Envy barked and I slowly stood up. Stupid was the reason Envy was mad, stupid was the reason why Red was hurt, stupid was the why Greed was glaring at me. Talk talk talk! Say sorry, stupid mouth, say sorry.
"I saw you walking up here, your getting sloppy Envy. And I new you weren't stalking a human for no reason." He smiled, stupid shark smile. Big Brother Envy smiled pretty smile too.
". . . . . .S-sorry." I belted out and Big Brother Envy sneered at me. Stupid face, can't do that. Tried to copy Red, can't. Still broken.
"Rage, get out of here." Greed demanded, no smile, not smiling anymore. Serious stupid shark man. I'm scared. Wake up Red, I'm scared. Please don't die, no die. Greed said we can't die, human's can. Don't wanna die, don't want stupid Red to die.
"Get out of here Greed! This has nothing to do with you!" Envy barked, sounding like stupid me, but not as stupid. Just scary. Kneeling, I touched Red's arm. Shake shake shake. Please wake up stupid Red! I'm scared!
"I think it does. How many lies have you told her?! Huh!? What did you say to make her trust you!" Greed screaming, scary stupid shark man. Shake shake shake. Tears, can't see. Water fall down face. I'm scared stupid Red, please I'm scared.
"Rage! PLEASE! Get out of here!" Noise, I made a high pitched noise. Shake shake shake. Please Red! Please! Stupid Red, wake up! I'm scared!
"I didn't tell her anything that she wouldn't believe." Smile evil smile. Angry stupid Greed. It's stupid's fault, all my fault. Cover head, scream. Fighting, lots of yelling. Greed monster, stupid monster. Scream, animal scream. I stood up, Greed's scary face looking at me. Teeth, sharp teeth, red eyes. Black face, not Greed. Not Greed. Water falling, fall fall fall. Big Brother Envy hit's wall, hard. Hole there. Claws, Monster Greed has claws. Not Greed, no no no. Shaking head, Big Brother Envy screams, jumps on Monster Greed's back. No! Stop fighting! No hurt! No more hurting!
"Rage! Please get out of here!" Monster Greed growls, scary growl. Shake head, backing up, stupid hits wall. Stuck. Stupid stupid stupid. Wake up Red, please! I'm scared. Tears, fall fall falling.
Sitting on the ground, Big Brother Envy scratches Monster Greed. No hurt! No! Big Brother goes flying again, hole in other wall. No! Red, please wake up. Stupid is scared! Stop crying, can't stop crying. Stupid stop! Stop stop stop!
"STOP!" I screeched. Animal scream. Big Brother Envy stared and Monster Greed turned.
"Oh shit. Can't piss her off. I'll get you back for this Greed. You wait." Big Brother Envy growls and then get's Monster Greed's hand away from his throat. Stupid Big Brother Envy, stupid Monster Greed. Scared, please Red, Please wake up, scared.
"Rage, stop looking at me like that." Monster Greed growled. Scared, wake up Red! Stupid Red! Sorry for hurting you! Sorry bout your house! Stupid Red! Sorry for stupid blonde. Sorry! Wake up now! Please stupid Red. Wake up?
"NO!" Scream, sound like dieing animal. Cry cry cry. Stupid broken eyes. Touching, Monster Greed is touching arms. Scream and push away, don't work, grabs hands.
"Look at me!" I did. Normal stupid shark man. No scary Monster Greed. "Look at me Rage. I'm me. I'm sorry I scared you." Pulls in close, hugging. Normal stupid shark man hugging stupid broken me. Crying still, can't stop crying. Not scared, no more fear. Stupid Red, you didn't help me. You didn't.
"I'm sorry Rage. I didn't mean to scare you." Nods, I know. Stupid shark man, I know. Hug back, not wanna let go. Don't wanna let go of Greed, my Greed. Martel was wrong, Greed is stupid's friend. He does too like stupid. Right?
"Not. . . . . . .like. . . . .stupid?" I asked, voice sounds funny. Stuffy and dry. Almost laughed, but remembered have stupid laugh, can't laugh. Stupid made Greed hate me, can't show him stupid. Gotta be smart.
"What? What do you mean Rage? You know I like you." He pulled away, staring. Rub tears away. Rub rub rub.
"Martel said. . . . . .Greed. . .. . . Don't like . . . .. . Stupid." His eyes narrowed. Stupid pretty eyes.
"Don't listen to what she say's Rage. And don't listen to that little prick Envy either. They tell you lies Rage, cause they know you don't understand right from wrong yet." Touching face, holding face. Greed was holding stupid ugly face. Ugly girl didn't need to be held.
"Greed. . . . . . .no lies?" He smiled that stupid shark smile. Shaking his head no. No lies, stupid Greed doesn't lie.
"No, I would never tell you a lie princess." Princess. Stupid isn't a princess. But stupid likes to hear it.
"Come on kiddo, let's get your friend here to the hospital." He moved away, no vest. Stupid shark man wasn't wearing his vest. He scooped up sleepy Red, her head lolling to the side. She looked dead. Stupid Red, wake up, don't die. Can't die. I walked over towards the ground and picked up stupid vest. I held it up to my face, and it smelled like Greed. Something funny. But nice. "You can put that on, hold it for me, okay?"
"Okay." I copied him and he smiled. Putting stupid smell good coat on, I walked with Greed out of the house. Gotta get Red safe. Gotta make sure she's safe.
Please wake up Red.
Stupid Red, please?
*~*~*~*~*
"What do you want us to tell her when she wakes up Ma'am?" The stupid fat nurse asked and I glanced around. Greed left me here, stupid Greed. He said he'd meet me outside and walk me home. I had to sound smart. Can't show stupid here.
"Sorry." I whispered and she narrowed her eyes at me. Stupid, you mess up, you get caught, Greed said so. Can't mess up. Stupid wont mess up.
"Her name is Red, and you want us to tell her sorry?" I nodded and tried to smile at her. Stupid twitching. She glared. Stupid mean nurse!
"Okay sweetheart, you can go home. Get those bruises checked out too." Nod nod nod. Fat nurse stared a little longer and then scowled as she saw something down the hall. Look. Stupid blonde ran across the hall, his back wrapped up, his blue shorts little thin and funny on him. Stupid blonde, red is fine. No worries.
"Mr. Havoc sir, please go back to your room or we'll have to clam you down ourselves." Fat nurse shouted. Waddle, waddle, waddle. Like a duck. Laugh, belting laugh bounces off the walls and Fat Nurse screamed, turning suddenly. Stupid blonde stared, and then pointed.
"That's here! She's the one that hurt Lacey! Get her!" No, not true. No hurt Red, never ever hurt Red. Stupid blonde, you should know that.
"No, she was part of the attack sir. Please, calm down." Fat Nurse held stupid blonde by the arms. Let him go, I wanted to tell her, let him yell and hurt me. Deserved it. Stupid got Red hurt, stupid deserved to be hurt. He managed to break away, and I didn't flinch when he ran up to stupid. Stood still, super still. Wait, wait, wait. He grabbed arms, stare, shook me hard. Shake shake shake. And had water in his stupid blue eyes. Stupid pretty eyes. Stupid don't have pretty eyes like that.
"Why?! Why did you hurt her?!" Shake shake shake. Wanted to reach out, wanted to reach out and get the mans hands off me. Stupid blonde. No more pain, no more crying.
"Not. . . . . . . .hurt. . . . . Her." He stared, his blonde brows coming together and meeting in the middle. Stupid face, can't make stupid face.
"What? What do you mean? Why didn't you save her then?! Take the hit!" He screamed, no like scream. Don't scream stupid blonde. No more screaming.
"I. . . . . was. . . . . . . . Scared." I paused as his stupid pretty eyes widened. "I. . . . .. . . .got. . . .hurt. . . . .too."
"Mr. Jean Havoc! Please restrain yourself or we will put you back to sleep." Stupid wide blue eyes staring, stare, stare, stare. Then his hands fell, he quickly got rid of stupid tears and straightened up.
"Sorry Ma'am for bothering you. I hope you can forgive me." Forgive? What's that? Stupid man, talk stupid so stupid can understand. Just nod, nod, nod. All stupid can do. Have to look normal, doing a good job. Leave, quick! Before Fat Nurse and stupid blonde figure me out. Stiff legs pulled me out towards Greed, and then I was gone.
Gone away from Red.
No more hurting Red.
Poor stupid Red.
So sorry.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Greed reached out and touched cheek soft. So soft, with icy pale hand. Twitching, stupid twitching. I pressed my face into the hand, it felt good on hurt spot. Stupid Greed was being nice to stupid since we got to the new hotel. Staring, and touching, and talking soft. New Greed was nice, stupid. I liked new Greed a lot. Wont last though, can't. Stupid will make Greed angry, and stupid will have to leave again.
But now Greed was laying on single bed, stretched out, hand on stomach, and other one touching cheek. Stupid nice Greed. I twitched at him again, smile smile smile. Please let me stupid stupid broken brain, so I can smile at nice new Greed! I want stupid Greed to be the first to see stupid smile. Need to practice.
"Come here Rage. Your thinking about something too much." Stupid Greed moved hand and grabbed mine, pulling me down on his chest. My hot hurting cheek pressed agaisn't his stupid naked chest, the stupid cold skin feeling good and making me relax. Not as many stupid thoughts around Greed, stupid getting better! Getting smarts thanks to Red! Red helped! She had to of!
"What are you thinking about princess?" I stared at Greed's stupid hand on tummy. Then looked a my broken one. They were different. His was big and wide and stupid smooth, mines was torn up, scarred and bumpy looking. I reached over, covering his pretty stupid hand with mine. "Your not talking tonight? And to think, I really missed your talking kiddo." Smile, come on stupid brain, let me smile. Smile broken lips, smile. Can't. Wont work.
"I. . . . . . missed. . . . . . . . You." I whispered but Greed didn't hear stupid. His chest rose up, and I lifted my head as if fell. Stare at Greed, stupid sleeping Greed. Thought he said we couldn't sleep. He promised no lies, stupid Greed, lied about this! I want to sleep too.
Staring at stupid Greed's calm face, I noticed his sharp jaw line, stupid pretty face. Looked peaceful to sleep, I wanna lay down and sleep too. Can't, not sleepy. I followed stupid pretty Greed's jaw lip to full half smiling lips, stupid Greed always smiled, never stopped. I wanted to smile too! Not fair! Stare stare stare. Scared that Greed would wake up. I reached out, touching smooth cheek, touch like Greed touched. Soft and cold, I wonder if my hands were cold. Pulling away, I reached up to touch my stupid hurt cheek, when I felt tugs, tight small stupid tugs. I jumped up, run run run to the bathroom.
SMILE! I smiled back at me! Stupid not so stupid now! I ran back in the room, and Greed was sitting up in bed, stupid was smiling, look Greed! Look look look.
"Your beautiful tonight Rage." Smile more!
Small smile, but my smile!
Stupid can smile!
Smile smile smile!
Gotta show Red!
She'll like it!
I hope!