Author's Note: I am so happy right now! Thanks you guys! I was debating to wait on this story until I finished my others, which could take forever as I'm stuck… Anyways so happy! So here's chapter 2!
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight
Chapter 2 (The Heart's Choice)
RPOV (Reneesme's)
"Nessie?" called Jake
"Go away!" I shouted, my voice cracked, I was tired not only physically but mentally too. I had cried the whole night and the morning too.
"Please Ness," he begged entering my room I lifted my head off the pillow. I noticed the tray in his hand
"I brought food and ah…" he trailed lifting up a cup filled with thick red liquid; blood. And it was fresh too.
"Thanks." I said sniffling and grabbing the cup while he put the tray on the bed.
I chugged it down, loving the taste
Jake crunched his nose in disgust but said nothing; this was something he had gotten used to about me, not that he enjoyed it.
"Is Nahuel still here?" I asked after putting the empty cup back on the tray and dabbing my face with a napkin.
"Yeah." Jake said his mouth turning into a frown
"Is he ok?" I asked
"How the hell am I supposed to know?!" he asked angrily
I glared at him in response "you hurt him Jake at least have the decency to check on him," I stated
"What are you my mother now?" he asked his voice turning cold
"No but maybe you need one," I stated. I was still angry at him; he had been such a jerk to Nathuel.
"Let's not get into this again," he growled
I involuntary shifted back on my bed, it was jerk reaction but the mood suddenly became thick and cold.
"Nessie I wasn't," he said
"You're just a time bomb," I stated my eyes welling up with water then running down my face.
"I wasn't going to transform and attack you," he said
"You attacked Nahuel." I stated as if it were a good enough reason for me to be scared of him. I know Jake better than this; still I couldn't stop thinking of Nathuel and how much pain he had been in last night.
"He was trying to court you, and I love you Nessie you know I do!" he shouted
"Do you?" I asked, he never once voiced his emotions
"Yes I do! I've never felt this way not even for Bella!" he exclaimed
"Hold on you mean my mother?" I asked
"Well..yeah..kind of…" he trailed
"You liked my mother?" I asked stunned, why had he never told me this? Or better yet why didn't my mother tell me?
"Yeah I also kissed her twice," he said holing up two fingers
I stared dumb founded at him, him and my mother?
I felt fury run through my veins, "when?" I asked
Jake shifted on his feet, he seemed slightly embarrassed… or was he now afraid of me? No it must be embarrassment.
"While she was dating Edward," he answered looking down
"She cheated on him?!" I asked
"Actually I forced her to kiss me," he said
"YOU WHAT?" I shouted
"I liked her ok?" he asked like it wasn't so bad but it was! He kissed my mother!
"Was it good?" I asked
"What?" he asked
"Was it so good that since you couldn't have her I was the next best thing?" I asked grabbing one of my throws pillows off the floor and hitting him with it.
"No, I think that somehow I knew all along about you. Especially during the pregnancy Ness I couldn't stay away from Bella and then you came and the past just disappeared it was you I could only see. Ness you need to understand I merely had a crush on your mother I was young and didn't know what love really was, until you," he said calmly as he kneeled in front of me.
I stared at him wordlessly, I couldn't blink I felt weightless he just admitted he loved me. Hurry up and say something idiot I scolded myself.
"I'm sorry Jake I didn't mean to get upset I just never knew that you loved my mom. To be honest I never thought you liked anyone," I said
"What are you jealous of your mother now?" he asked smirking
"No, or at least not because she kissed you because it wasn't a big deal to you, right?" I asked
"She was my first kiss," he said, I frowned in response "but your first kisses are never the good one's anyway right?" he asked
"I would hope not in your case, but in my case well you know I've never kissed boy," I said
"Yeah Ness that's kind of pathetic I mean really you're like seven right now you should be married by now have like six kids, come on!" he joked
I rolled my eyes, "but really Jake I've never kissed anyone," I said hoping he could read between the lines.
"Oh," he said realizing "you want to kiss me don't you?" he asked smirking
"Yes I was going to last night," I said
"You mean before we were rudely interrupted?" he asked
I nodded leaning forward, his lips touched mine and it was nothing like I imagined. It wasn't heated just nice Jake's lips moved slowly against mine and I tried following I felt awkward and shy. I pulled away first and pulled my head into my arms as I felt the blush-blame my mother's genetics for this one-inch across my cheeks.
"Ness?" he asked
"Sorry I guess I'm not a good kisser am I?" I asked
Jake laughed, so my embarrassment was funny to him? I looked up ready to glare daggers at him when he said.
"Ness you were fine, like I said your first kiss isn't your best kiss but it sure is memorable,"
"So next time I'll be a better kisser?" I asked
"As long as you let it happen, don't force it," he answered
I nodded
"Was I at least better then my mother?" I asked
Jake didn't seem like he wanted to answer
"You have to remember that she has had experience," he finally said
"Yeah but still was she better?" I asked
"Oh Ness it doesn't matter does it?" he asked
"Please just tell me!" I begged
He made a small nod
"Yes she was better? Or yes I was better?" I asked
"Ness," he whined
"Please?" I asked
"Your mother was better." He stated
"OK." I said as it sank in
"It doesn't matter though ok?" he asked
"Right, I should go get change," I said remembering I was still wearing my pajamas.
"I guess I'll wait outside your room then," he said smirking
"Pervert!" I shouted as he left my room I heard him laugh in the distance.
I quickly changed into a blue dress, combed my hair, and brushed my teeth. Afterwards I sat down on my still un-made bed. I couldn't figure out why I hadn't said I loved Jake too because I did right? I never really thought I had a choice but what if I did, have a choice I mean. That put everything in a new perspective. With that I got off my still un-made bed and headed out of my room.
"Let's go," I said putting my small hand in his large one. Hoping he wouldn't see my mind as it wavered between him and Nathuel I guess my heart just couldn't choose.
A/N: I was hoping to update sooner, still I hope you enjoyed it! You know the drill R&R please!