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Song For Chapter: The last something that meant anything by Mayday Parade

Chapter two: The Last Something

I woke up after only a few hours of sleep, I turned my alarm off quickly and slowly dragged myself out of bed and to the bathroom. I did the usuall; had a shower to freshen up, brushed my teeth and dressed for school. I didn't care what I wore anymore, I had no one to dress for.

I ran down- stumbling slightly on the last step- to find that Renee had already left for work and Charlie was finishing off his usuall morning cup of coffee, while reading the newspaper. He looked up when I reached the floor and smiled cautiouslly.

"Morning Bells."

"Morning dad." I mumbled.

I went into the kitchen grabbed a granola bar and an apple, I also grabbed my bag by the door stuffing my food in it and leaving for school in my red Chevy truck.

I realised I was early and didn't want to go in and wait with a whole bunch of annoying people, that all looked alike, dressed alike and almost freakin' talked alike. Typical Forks people, if you weren't like them you couldn't be with them. (A/N: I have absolutley nothing against any Forks people. This is just to go with the story.) I took my Wuthering Heights book out and my ipod and began to listen to some song while reading, trying to waste the time and the memories.

I didn't want to be remembering anything and I hated times like this; when I had so much time to do nothing but think. And remember.

All the Forks students knew was that I was found in the forest after being 'attacked and mauled' by bears, where later on the next day I was found by my father Chief Swan who had instantly brought me to the hospital. Only I knew the painful truth.

I heard the bell ring and grabbed my bag and started walking towards my first class, english. I loved english, but now even that seized to matter. I was the first in class so I decided to keep my earphones in and listen until people started showing up.

Mr Greene was always late and from what people were saying, the poor man was having a hard time with his family and kids.

Students started filing into class one after the other, but I ignored them until the seat next to mine was pushed back roughly and whoever it was sat while dropping their bag on the floor. It was hard not to notice even while still listening to music.

I looked up to see Edward Cullen sitting next to me, he said something because I noticed his lips moving but I wasn't going to talk to him. Edward Cullen and his family had just recently moved down here from Chicago. He was popular obviously; hes got the looks and all that. I wasn't interested though. There was only one for me and he was gone now.

Mr Greene finally walked in and I pulled the earphones out.

"Are you okay?" a smooth voice asked. I turned around and looked at Edward questionly wondering why he would be asking such an odd question, to find that he was staring at me with those forest green eyes that went perfect with his complextion. And yet I still couldn't understand why he would ask that. I nodded and turned back to listen to Mr Greene.

"Just asking, you looked a little sad there." he whispered leaning towards me. 'A little sad?' I don't know what I was feeling but I highly doubt it was 'a little sad', it was pain with confusion and fear and sadness and a whole mixture of emotions, but mostly I was numb.

You would think being numb wouldn't hurt, but infact it's the exact opposite. It's like slow death, it slowly and painfully wears you out, until you give into it and let it win you over. But it wasn't winning me over, I was hanging onto something I just didn't know what it was yet. But it was there and it was begging me to hold on, and that's why I did. Every day was more painful than the next and I would continue holding onto whatever it was until I found out.

I could feel Edwards eyes staring at me throughout the entire class. Mr Greene was droning on and on. I felt like this class was never going to end. And so when the bell finally rang I immediately hopped out of my seat and out of the class and away from Edwards questioning looks.

I went to my next class German and after that my classes seemed to go on forever. I was relieved when the bell rang signaling lunch. I didn't eat in the cafeteria anymore, I ate outside. There was to much staring and talking when I was inside.

The only people I talked to anymore or more like didn't ignore me were Ben and Angela. When Jason was here he was popular but never stuck up and never looked down on anybody. Seeing as I was his girlfriend I always sat with him Tanya, Lauren, Jessica, Mike, Eric and Tyler. I was accepted then, but now that Jason is gone I was treated like dirt. I wasn't allowed at that desk anymore, I wasn't allowed to talk with them either.

The thing was though that I didn't want to talk to anybody after what happned. Getting involved with people meant them asking questions, and I wasn't going to answer to anybody I didn't want to talk to anybody and I couldn't exactly tell anybody I'm having these really weird dreams. They probably won't even believe me, let alone try to help.

Ben and Angela though were really nice, they gave me space because they knew I wanted it, but they didn't ignore me completely.

I walked up to the bench that I have gotten used to sitting in ever since he left, right under a big tree that faced the music building with the huge windows. I ate my granola bar and apple and just sat listening to my ipod with my eyes closed and my head leaning against the trees bark. I was humming along to Mayday Parade, and the lyrics were hitting too close to home, and I could feel the tears coming on so I quickly turned off the ipod.

When I sat up straight I noticed Edward standing up right infront of me, with.... concern in his eyes?

"H-how long have you been standing there?"

"Long enough." he said smiling lightly.

I got up to leave so he could have the bench to himself but he stopped me.

"No, no you can stay." he said in his smooth voice. I gave him a weary look but remained on the bench, I scooted over to the far right side so that he could sit. He sat and it was so awkward, I didn't know a thing about this guy and I don't think I wanted to.

"Are you okay?" he asked yet again. What was up with this guy? Why did he care if I was 'okay' or not. I mean usually when people ask 'are you okay?' they're usually not looking for an answer. They just ask it. It's like a filler of some sort.

I was thinking that Edward had asked me the first time out of kindess but now that's the second time. Maybe he didn't really want to know if I was okay or not, he just didn't know what to say to me. I looked at him and nodded again, I seem to be doing that a lot lately.

"What were you listening to?" he asked curiously looking at me. Another question but I can't simply nod I had to talk to him.

"The last something that meant anything." I replied simply.

"Nice," he mumbled. "What's it about?" he asked looking up at me again. I don't think I can explain what this song is about without breaking down, but I was saved by the bell. I grabbed my bag and quickly got up to leave. "Bella." he called and I turned to look at him not wanting to stand another second near him. Why was he asking me to explain what the song was about? I didn't like how he was making me feel, uncomfortable. "Please tell me sometime, I would love to know what it means." he said sincerly. And with that I turned and ran into the building.

I went straight to the girls restroom and was so relieved to find that nobody was there. I cried and cried. That song and Edward and his damn qusetions had brought up a lot of things, good and bad memories that I wanted to just forget.

I wasn't going to any class looking like this, and besides my next class was gym so it didn't make a difference if I skipped it or not. I peeked outside the bathroom and when I was sure there was no one there I ran down the hallway, and out the main door to the parking lot. I got into my truck and revved the engine to life. Tears still staining my cheeks, I reversed slowly but while reversing I couldn't help but notice a hint of bronze hair in my mirror still by the bench, staring at me as I left. Maybe it was just me.

The second I got home I went straight to my room and pulled out the box underneath my bed full of neatly stacked paper and some crumbled and a charm braclet, a bad dream catcher and a whole load of other things that were evidence that Jason did exist, and is still out there somewhere.

I had written all these letters to him, writing down every single thing I wanted to say to him. Later though when I had finished writing the letters I remember that I've got nowhere to send them to, no way they could every reach him. And that was when I got so angry and frustrated and just crumpled up the paper and threw it into the box along with everthing else.

I would eventually shove the box under my bed and cry myself to sleep with the truth slapping me in the face, that Jason was really, really gone never going to come back to me. Then I would have a nightmare with Jason in it, only this time Edward was there too and he was screaming at to leave Jason and follow him. But I couldn't do it, I couldn't leave Jason in pain and again I couldn't help him. I was helpless.

I woke up screaming and realised I had only slept an hour.

I sat up in bed, curled my knees up underneath me and pulled the covers up to my face and cried. It seemed that's all I have been doing lately. I couldn't sleep. I was hurting so much and I couldn't sleep. The bad dream catcher didn't work and it never would.

But, I'll be okay (Is that what you want me to say?)

It's called breakup

'Cause it's broken

But I'll be okay (Is that what you want me to say?)

It's called breakup

'Cause it's broken....

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