A/N: I want to say thank you in particular to BurningUnbrellas: I know it is very sad at the moment and maybe for a while but it will come out of it, promise : ]

And MongolianBeef84: Thank you for your review, I will definitely use Barry I think that's a brilliant Irish name : D Right, so, everybody it is Jason Barry but I will mention it in the story, incase no one reads this. Let me know what y'all think ; ]

Song for Chapter: Painting Flowers by All Time Low

Chapter three: Painting Flowers

I woke up again to my alarm ringing, I hadn't even realised I had fallen asleep but I was so glad I had woken up. The alarm had stubbornly woke me up in the middle of me trying to walk back to Jason, and not listen to Edward.

I did not like Edward Cullen that's for sure. I only talked to him twice and not even that seeing as he did all the talking the first time and the second time, I would hardly call that talking.

But he was trying to make me talk, something I don't want to do, and he's acting like he knows things about me, things I haven't told anyone about not even Charlie and Renee. After that horrible night, I just told them that I was walking around in the forest and fell. But then they questioned the letter I left saying that I was out with Jason and why did he not help me. "Because he left me there in the first place" is what I wanted to say, but that wouldn't have eased their worries, so I lied. I said that I was with him but then he told me that he was going.... somewhere.

They asked of course, but what was I supposed to say, he didn't tell me himself.

I shook myself of those thoughts and rolled out of bed, and to the bathroom. I didn't feel up to having a shower so I just washed my face and brushed my teeth. I was walking back down the hallway to my room when I heard my name being used in a conversation between Charlie and Renee.

"Charlie, this is not right." I heard Renee's hushed tone. "She can't keep walking around like this." I didn't hear what Charlie had said but it angered Renee even more.

"I cannot believe you," she screached. "This is my baby girl we're talking about, and don't you go telling me to give her time Charlie." I knew it was wrong to eavesdrop but they were talking about me.

"You think I don't know that?" replied Charlie getting angry. "She's my girl too, and believe me looking at her like this everyday is killing me." he said lowering his voice.

Then I could hear my mom crying and it was quiet except for small mumbling coming from Charlie, reassuring her I guess.

And here I thought that this mask was working on everybody. Maybe it was working to an extent but I always thought it had worked on Renee and Charlie the most, I was wrong, now the only thing left that they didn't know was why Jason left and where to, but even I didn't have the answers to those questions.

I went back to my room and changed into some dark wash jeans, a black v-neck sweater along with my black fluffly boots and my jacket. I stuffed my books in I don't even remember doing my homework. I must of done it since my books were splayed out around my desk.

I stormed down the stairs, stamping my feet harder than usuall for Charlie and Renee's benefit. Only they didn't seem to have moved, because when I came down Charlie was holding Renee close to him, she had her head burried in his neck while he was whispering things to her, and she would nod every now and again.

Because of me. I was causing them this pain. If it wasn't for me and my dumb problems they wouldn't be like this. We would go back to the way everything used to be, where we would go out and have lunch together as a family and when we could talk about anything. But it can't go back to the way it used to be, I have to move on and I've learned that now. I was going to change, because it was obvious that Jason wasn't coming back anymore.

I walked over to the kitchen bar table and poured myself a glass of milk. I sat chugging it down until Renee looked over and saw me at the table. "Oh sweetie," she said wiping at her face. "I didn't know you had come down."

"Yeah," I said trying to smile a genuine smile up at her.

"Bella we need to talk," she said frowning, and I could see her plastering on that stubborn mask, that meant no argueing.

"Sure," I said simply. " 'Bout what?"

"About you, and... Jason."

"Mom there's nothing to talk about." I said trying to immediatelly stop this conversation while I still could.

"Isabella." she said sternly. "There is a lot to talk about." she continued without letting me answer. "Like where is Jason? Why did he leave you? What were you doing in that forest on your own?" Suddenly I couldn't take it anymore.

"I don't know, okay?" I shouted.

"How can you not know Bella?" Charlie asked who had up until now been listening to us talk from the sitting room. Now though he was in the kitchen and slightly angry too.

"Because I don't, I j-just don't," I whispered my voice breaking.

"Was it his parents?" Renee asked. Charlie and Renee already knew about Jasons parents, he had to tell them at one point. When we were younger I promised him I wouldn't tell anybody. Then we became desperate and he had to tell them.

"I don't know." I said yet again. "That's what I thought too."

"But he would tell you?" my dad said looking at me suspicously almost.

"Dad he didn't tell me a thing. Only that he had to leave." I looked at the clock above the kitchen door and realised I would be late if I didn't leave right then. Charlie was about to say something but I cut him off.

"I have to go dad, bye."

I was just about to step out when Renee called, "We'll finish this conversation later."

I sighed and stepped out into the light drizzle. I hated Forks weather it was constant rain and sleet and just wetness, and it was so green. I hated it right, but it was where I spent my childhood, I didn't hate it too much to want to leave it yet.

I got to school just on time, I hopped out of my truck and walked down to the main gateway thinking about how I needed an explanation as to why I wasn't in for my last three classes. Just half way down when I was about to step into the school, I tripped over the kerb that I always seem to forget is actually there.

I held my hands out to stop the fall only to grab onto something or should I say a certain someone. I was holding onto his arms really tight, my eyes still shut. He put his arms underneath mine and pulled me up while still keeping his arms around my waist.

I looked up and didn't realise just how close he was, my eyes locked with his green orbs.

"I-I'm sorry." I stuttered and tryed to pull back and head in but he held me in place. I thought he was angry at me for nearly pulling him down with me so I started to apologize profusely.

"I am so sorry I didn't see you. I'm so stupid I come by here every single morning and I don't have the commensence as to actually remember that there is a flippen' kerb here where I have to actually lift my foot to get over and not fall flat on my face again I am so sorry I didn't mean to practically pull you down with me please forgive me I promise not to get in your way ever-" I rambled on and on all in one breath until he cut me off.

"Bella!" he said. "Woah it's fine, really you were going to fall and wasn't thinking you just wanted something to hold on to. And I just so happened to be that someone." he said smirking.

"Right." I blushed and looked down. Edward still hadn't let go of me, and strangley enough it wasn't as uncomfortable as I thought it would after Jason. But that didn't mean it was right, so I tryed to pull out of his arms again. This time he let me though, but I could have sworn I saw a flash of.... pain in his eyes? No, I'm imagening things now, lack of sleep and all that. "I'm still sorry." I said.

"Okay apology accepted I guess." he said smiling crookedly. "But we don't want to be late for class, so lets go."

We got to class on time surprisngly. However I kept telling him how because of stupid me we were both going to be late for class. He insisted I wasn't stupid and we would get there on time, hence the smirking right now. 'I told you so' he mouthed when I looked at him. I rolled my eyes and turned to listen to Mr Greenes lecture.

Half way into class a note was slipped under my elbow. I looked up at Edward questionly and he cocked his head slightly towards the note. I didn't want to open it, from the look in his eyes I knew I wasn't going to like what I read.

I looked at the dumb piece of paper and slowly reached for it. I made sure Mr Greene wasn't looking and held it up behind my pencilcase to read just four simple words in his ellegant writing I want to know was all it said and my breath caught. I knew what he was talking about but I decided to play dumb. Know what? wrote to him and slipped it over.

I was pretending to listen to Mr Greene as he talked about an essay of some sort. But I couldn't help but glance at Edward and notice how his jaw was clenched his eyes darkened. Bella you know what it said. I looked up to find him staring at me with such intensity I had to look away. No, not really I wrote back in my messy scrawl.

I could have sworn I heard him growl when he read what I had written. He didn't write back for a good while, but when he eventually did, the paper was dented where he had written evidence of him nealing to hard on the paper, he's angry. But he shouldn't be. Me and my problems shouldn't be any of his concern. He should just leave me alone.

You will tell me soon it said. I crumbled up the paper and stuffed it in my pencilcase. I looked at him and frowned, why did he want to know so bad? It was just a song. As if noticing my confused expression he leaned forward to whisper in my ear his breath sending a tingly feeling all over my body causing me to shiver.

"Everything has a meaning," he murmered making my breath hitch.

When I wake up, the dream isn't done

I wanna' see your face,

and know I made it home.

If nothing is true, what more can I do?

I am still painting flowers for you.

Showed my cards, gave you my heart,

Wish we could start all over.

Nothing's maken' sense at all.

Tried to open up my eyes,

I hopin' for a chance to make it alright.

A/N: Right sorry I know chapter isn't that long hopefully they'll get longer. Oh and after this update sorry I might be a little late on updating because I'm leaving for the Easter Break, and I have to try update my other story. However if my story Just One Night doesn't flow as easly as this I'll come back here I promise : P

Oh and I know it's a weekend and all but I do still have homework and yeah that maybe why the chapter is short. Sorry for any mistakes I only looked over really quickly, I was just so eager to update. And motivated to wright : )

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