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Song for chapter: River Flows In You by Yiruma
Chapter five: River Flows In You
I ran through the school halls, and out the main gateway. I left my truck, I didn't want it right now, I just wanted to leave. To leave Edward, to leave Jason and everything and anything that reminded me of him. Memories. That's what Edward brings back, everytime he talks to me, weather he knows it or not. And from the.... talk, we had he doesn't know, he just saw something that didn't go with the lie, that the students of Forks High had come up with; Jason and I. Somehow, somewhere, he had been there and he had seen it, only, how much exactly did he see?
I kept walking, down the pathway. Now, though I didn't have it in me to run, so I trudged along, suddenly not in a hurry to get home. I remembered the conversation, I had yet to finish with Renee and Charlie. I wasn't looking forward to that.
Cars were speeding past me, until at one point one of them slowed to a stop next to me. I walked faster, not knowing who it was.
"Hop in Bella." a velvety voice called. My God, are you trying to kill me? Or just torture me to death? I ignored him and kept walking.
"Come on, Bella. Don't be difficult." he said still driving slowly by me.
"Difficult?" I stopped to look at him. "I'm being difficult?" I asked incredulously.
"No, you're not, and I'm sorry, but I'd rather I pick you up, than some physcopath off the street."
I thought it would be awkward with Edward, after I broke down in front of him, but strangely, it wasn't. He didn't even act like anything had happened. But it had.
"No thanks, I'm fine." I said sharply, and continued walking.
"Bella, I'm serious." he said, the seriousness quite evident in his voice.
"Edward, so am I. Now leave me alone." I said mocking his tone of voice. I heard him sigh, and then mumble something, uninteligible under his breath.
"You are so stubborn, has anybody ever told you that?" he asked, bringing back memories, unintentionally. I stopped again, and leaned down to look at him through the open window.
"Yeah, he has." I said, but then quickly clasped a hand over my mouth, I should not have said that.
"Who has?" he asked, looking at me intently, like I was just about to spill the latest gossip on Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewert.
"Nobody." I said quickly. I couldn't help but notice how his face fell.
"Well, come on in already." he said exasperated.
"Edward, I don't want to, now go." I shouted at him.
"I won't leave. You will get in this car Izabella, even if I have to come out and carry you, I'll do it. Trust me." he said completely serious. Well, either he carries me in or I get in myself, I prefer the latter.
I sighed and got in the passenger seat. Still not awkward, but strange, what do we talk about?
I relaxed, leaning back and putting my head on the head rest, leaning over to look out the window, at the trees flying past us. Edward drives fast, really fast, but I didn't find it scary at all, infact it felt great. I mean, I know Charlie is the Chief of police, but this felt brilliant.
I sighed and closed my eyes, it was then that I realised that, River Flows In You was playing.
"Yiruma?" I asked him surprised. He nodded, " What, you don't like him?" he asked, eyebrows raised.
"Are you mad? I love him." I said smiling widely. It felt weird, like I said I hadn't done that in what feels like a really long time.
"That's great." he said grinning. "I didn't think you would like him."
"Why's that?" I asked curiously.
"I don't know, you just don't seem the type." he said smiling crookedly, he always does that and as odd as this may sound, it's suits him, it's nice and I like it, it's special. And Edward doesn't seem to be like everybody else at Forks High. He didn't judge me at all, like everybody else did. Mauled by a bear, seriously? I don't even have a scratch on me.
"What type do I seem like to you?"
"How do you know Yiruma?" he asked instead, avoiding my question. I'll let it go, for now.
"My mom plays a lot of classical music around the house, and Yiruma's River Flows In You just so happened to be my favourite one." I said.
"That's my favourite too," he said, smiling and motioning with his hands for a car to go by.
It was suddenly really quite. I lay back and closed my eyes, listening to the sweet music, filling the car.
"Idiot." Edward exclaimed so suddenly causing me to jump out of my seat.
"What? What is it?" I asked in panic.
He huffed, and then began explaining what had happened. "I had my indicators on, clearly indicating the I was going to the right, when out of nowhere this moron comes out with his dumbass Volkswagen Rabbit, banger of a car, and thinks it's smart to indicate that he's going to the left, when the freak is going to the right, causing me stop so suddenly that something could have happened. Then when I shout out idiot -which he is- he sticks out his middle finger at me."
I stared at him for a while biting my lip and fighting the urge to laugh, unsuccessfully. I began laughing so hard, it was causing pain in my sides. Edward looked at me incredulously. "This is not funny Bella." he said, making me laugh even harder. "I could have crashed, I bet then you wouldn't be laughing."
I tried to stiffle my laughter but succeding with just a chuckle this time. "Of course I wouldn't laugh if you turned this car into a pretzel Edward," I mock scolded him. "How could you think I don't value my life that much?" I tsked and looked out the window.
I glanced at him quickly to see that he was fighting a smile himself, I looked out again satisfied. "Of course," he mummered. "I'm sure you do value your life so much, you should."
"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked sceptically.
"Nothing."
"Oh come on, you can't say something like that and not explain." I said exasperatedly.
"Well, if you didn't value you your life so much, you...... you would have tried to..." he cleared his throat, but didn't continue.
"Tried to what. What are you talking about? And why are you so nervous?"
"I'm not nerv-" he began but stopped when I gave him a stern look. "Okay I am." he admitted. "But how can I not be, when you want to know something that I'm sure will make you run out of this car? I don't want that to happen." he said in defeat.
"I won't run, promise." I said, it can't be that bad.
"You didn't apologise." he said eventually, but that wasn't what he was going to say and I know that for sure, because that definitely is not something that will make me run from the car. Question is though, why did he avoid the original question?
"I'm sorry Edward, I really am, I was mean to you, and I had..... no right to be, but you weren't exactly minding your own business either, still I apologise." I said. "But Edward, that wasn't what you were going to say."
"Where do want to go right now?" he asked, yet again avoiding the subject.
"Would you just stop." I shouted at him. "I am not going to run from the car, and I promised, I'm not one to break my promises."
"Fine," he mumbled in defeat. "I said I saw you with a guy that last week, remember?"
"Yeah, Edward, but this conversation isn't up for negotiation."
"You wanted to know." he stated obviously.
"Okay, what about that time?"
"Well, you seemed really hurt at the time and I'm just saying that, if you really didn't value your life, then you would have tried.... I don't know, something." he said finally.
I stared, gaping at him. "You thought I would take my own life because of a boy?" I asked incredulously.
"No, that's not what I'm sayi-"
"That is exactly what you're saying Edward, don't even deny it." I interrupted him.
"Bel-"
"You're unbelieveable," I said, opening the door and causing the car to skid to a stop, making me fall forward, I got out and slammed the door.
"Bella!" Edward shouted but I kept running, the undeniable tears falling, I couldn't get away from that night, no matter how hard I tried to forget it. I can't and it was like I always knew that but I thought I could maybe, just maybe ignore it, forget it. And suddenly it was like the truth just hit me in the face, showning that I couldn't run from it, Edward was right I'd have to face it. But that was easier said than done.
I could hear Edward running behind me, but that only made me run faster. Next thing I knew I was losing my balance and the ground was getting closer. I fell onto my knees, but I quickly stuck my hands out to prevent my face from meeting the ground, only all my weight came onto my right arm causing it to bend, and I could have sworn I heard a crack. I let out a scream, it was so painful. Tears were running down my cheaks faster than ever now, and it only got worse when Edward knelt down beside me.
"Go away." I screamed at him. "Just leave me alone, I hate you!"
Yet, he wouldn't go away, he was pulling me to him as I thrashed with my good arm, and pushed at him with my legs.
I kept pounding on his chest, when I realised he wasn't going to let me go, I fell limp in his arms, and he held me tight against him, as I tucked me head in under his neck, sobbing. Sobbing because Jason left me, sobbing because I had no idea why, and sobbing because somebody seemed to care, and I held on tight to him.
"It's going to be okay," Edward murmered in my ear.
"No it's not, it never is." I cryed.
"Shhhhh." he whispered. I lay there in his arms, for God knows how long, him murmering assurances the entire time. "I need to get you to a hospital." he said suddenly.
"I don't want to go." I whined.
"I'm sure you don't Bella, but you have to unless you want to have a broken arm for the rest of your life, and be known as a vegetable or cripple, and then when you're older your hand will be permanently that way, and you will never be capable of moving it, hence being called cripple." he said simply, as if we were taking a walk on the beach on a sunny day, so relaxed.
"It's not funny Edward, and you're scaring me."
"Well then come on, I'll carry you." And before I could protest, he had slipped one arm under my knees and the other around my waist, causing me to wince in pain as he moved. "I'm sorry," he apologised profusely.
When we got to the car he sat me down and began buckleing me in. "I can do it myself you know." I said.
"Actually bella you can't and even if you could I wouldn't let you, so don't even bother arguing with me, it isn't going to work right now."
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A while later Edward was parking into the garage of a humingous house, no scratch that, mansion.
"What are you doing? This isn't a hospital Edward." I said, gaping.
He looked at me amused, as he got out and went to my side to open the door. "Yes, Princess obvious, this isn't a hospital, it is infact my home." he replied smirking.
"Wow." I breathed. "But why bring me here?"
"I thought you said you knew my dad is a doctor, Bella?"
"Mhmmm." was all he got back from me.
"He's not at the hospital today, if that's what you mean."
He put an arm around my waist and proceded in carrying me the few feat to the hou- mansion.
"Dad," he called as soon as he stepped into the mansion. "Dad."
"Edward?" A man's smooth yet rough voice replied. "What are you doing out of school?"
"Edward put me down." I hissed. "Before your dad comes down, and finds yo-" I was cut off by the man himself, coming down the last step.
"Who's this?" he asked smiling warmly.
"This is Bella," Edward introduced. "I need you to look at her." he said.
"Edward, I am," Edward's dad replied chuckling, I muffled a laugh myself as he winked at me.
"Funny," he deadpanned. "But Bella fell and well, I think she broke her arm. That's what I need you to see." he added.
"Okay, nice to meet you Bella."
"You too Dr Cullen." I replied.
"Carlisle, you can call me Carlisle. Now let's go upstairs, and I can have a look at your arm."
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"Yeah, this is broken, can you try make a fist? But don't force it, just gently." Carlisle said. I did as I was asked only to wince in pain, it was like clawing koala off a tree, nearly impossible, it hurt so much. I wanted to be able to bend it, to prove I can, but tears build up from the excruciating pain, that shot up my arm. "No, no don't force it I said, you'll only make it worse." Carlisle said, rushed. "You'll need some exrays. Edward, could you drive Bella down?"
Edward agreed, but this time I didn't let him carry me to the car, which angered him greatly, but there had to be some space between us, I shouldn't have gave in to him, that was just pure stupidity and dangerous, I shouldn't have broke down infront of Edward, now what, would that be the second break down? There aren't going to be anymore from now on, that's for sure.
"Bella, do you really hate me?" Edward asked when he had started the car, and was reversing. I stared at him, but he never looked back.
"I didn't say I hated you." I lied.
Now he looked, eyebrows raised. "Bella you did, loud and clear, I'd be surprised if the people down in Timbuktu didn't hear you." he added a bit of humour, but I knew he was serious.
"I'm sorry," I whispered. "And I guess I broke my promise too."
"Do you want me to leave you alone?" He asked sadness evident in his voice.
"Edward just stop, I was angry, I said some things I didn't mean, and again I'm sorry."
"Well, actually I was going to say, 'Tough Bella, I'm not going anywhere.' Now, I bet you didn't see that one coming." he said chuckling.
I smiled, and looked up at him. "But Edward, if I asked you to leave me alone, would you?" I asked, willing him to look at me, and he did, but he had this hard, stubborn face on, completely different in comparrison to the carefree, down to earth Edward that had been joking around just seconds ago.
"No matter how hard you try to push me away, and no matter what you say to hurt me, or simply get rid of me, it won't happen. That's a promise Bella." he said his forest green eyes staring right into me.
"Edward," I breathed. "Keep your eyes on the road."
"I don't break my promises either." he added after a while.
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Edward dropped me off just outside my house. I never thought I would say this, but I actually didn't want to leave the car, and no it's not what you think, I was dreading the talk I would have to finish with Charlie and Renee. I have a feeling it isn't going to end good. It's definitely not going to end good.
"How did you know where I live?" I asked suspiciously.
He raised his eyebrows. "For an intelligent, beautiful girl Bella, you're not that intelligent at all." he said humour evident in his voice. I took a shaky breath, beautiful? I shook my head and looked out the window.
"Hey," I said laughing and turning to him, shoving him a bit, " I am intelligent," I paused. "In comparison to some people in Forks High." I said looking directly at him and raising my eyebrows.
"I know you are," he murmered. "And here, what do you mean some people, huh?"
"Oh nothing." I said nonchalanty.
"Sure." Edward said, drawling the sure, making me laugh.
"Uh, Bella, not that I want you to leave my car," I flushed. "But really, I don't think your parents are going to like it if you stay out here all night." he said in a matter of fact tone.
"Yeah," I sighed. "They wouldn't like that." I put my head down and was about to leave the car until Edward called to me.
"What's wrong?" he asked, slowly reaching toward me and cupping my face in his hands, his emerald green eyes gazing into mine.
"Nothing." I whispered, looking at him wide eyed, what had brought this on all of a sudden?
"You're lieing, but okay, I'll let it go." he said, still not letting me go, and yet I didn't want him to, strangely. I felt safe with Edward I realised, I always had, even when he said things that upset me, or.... reminded me, of things.
"Again," he said breaking the silence. "You're upset about something, I can tell, you're frowning and sighing, something has you worried or upset, either way, I won't push it, but Bella, do know I'm hear and I'm willing to listen, anytime, anywhere, no matter what, call, text, I don't care I'll be there." he promised.
"Thank you," I whispered closing me eyes and leaning forward, resting my forehead against his, my voice breaking. "Really."
"Anytime."
I took a deep breath and moved away, trying to catch my breath, with my hand on the handle, just about to open the door, until I heard Edward whisper, "Sweat dreams."
"Not likely," I mumbled, and quickly got out of the car, not once looking back.
As I opened the door and was about to step in a thought came to me. I could avoid tyhe conversation, sneak upstairs maybe.
"Bella, in the living room, now." I heard my mom say. Damn it, now there's my plan out the window, even though it wasn't much of a plan.
I trudged down the hall. "Yes, mother." I said from between my teeth.
"Sit down, we need to talk." she said motioning towards the couch. I sat, and crossed my legs, and then I noticed Charlie sitting in the far right handside corner, in one of the oversized, leather couches, frowning, and huffing every now and the, Renee, standing close to me, arms crossed. Had I have not known any better I would have laughed, the scene was so comical.
I persed my lips and looked from Renee to Charlie. I wasn't going to start this conversation.
"Why'd you let him go without an explanation?" Charlie asked. Honestly? It's not like I asked him to leave me, with no explanation.
"Dad, I didn't ask him to leave, he left, I couldn't do anything about it."
"Why?" Renee asked, looking down at me.
"He doesn't love me anymore, okay? Could we just not talk about this?" I asked desperately.
"Bella, the boy doesn't just suddenly up and leave, because he doesn't love you anymore, nobody does that." Charlie said, sympathy in his voice and looking at him, it was in his eyes too. I didn't like it. And I didn't want it.
"Well he did, what does that tell you dad?" I asked, teeth gritted.
"It doesn't tell me anything, I still feel like there's something I don't know."
I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. "Something I don't know either dad, I'm not hiding anything from you, I swear I don't know."
"Have you tried calling him?" Renee asked.
"I have and there's nothing he's not here, I don't know where he is, I don't even think he's in the country anymore. Maybe he's gone back to Ireland." I said. " Can we just leave it, please." I added.
"Okay, but only if I start seeing you going out with people, friends, shopping, anything Bella. Act your age, go out, live your life, before you regret it.
Not likely, I thought, no one even likes me. "Sure." I said anyway, standing up. "I'm going to bed."
"We're serious Bella." my mother added.
I kept on, up to my room.
Oddly, I did have sweet dreams.........
I know you all hate me, and I don't blame you. I know I hate it myself when other authors don't update in ages, and now I'm doing it myself. But like I said, I was gone for two weeks and when I came back my dad had gotten rid of the internet.
I know you guys will be looking forward to a lot of chapters since I was gone so long, but really because there was no internet I wasn't motivated to write, because I know I can't update. But this is a very long chapter. Also, I've got my summer exams coming up in, only two weeks!!!!!!! I have to study obviously, because my results will show, what level I'm to be put in for my Junior Cert next year, and that's very important to me, so that comes first.
And then to make it worse I'm going away for two damn months for my summer holidays, honestly, if it was up to me, I wouldn't go, but it's not, so.....
I'm really sorry. But I'll try. Enjoy!