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As he was walking towards her, he had this weird feeling inside, as if his chest was really tight. He knew this was because of the situation between him and calleigh. He missed her, he knew that since the day he left the hospital to go home and she wasn't at the house. But standing this close to her and yet so far away at the same time, he realized how much he really did miss her, and he hated what he was feeling and really hoped to never feel this way again. He hoped to be able to talk to her, at least get her to forgive him for the way he acted towards her and the decisions he made without really listening to her. He had his reasons and he hoped that in some way she would be able to at least understand him...because he knew he hurt her and even if she was here with him, he knew that she was still feeling hurt. She loved him, even though they never said it to each other, it was fully expressed in her actions, so if he was feeling like this and he was the one who really hurt her, he could only imagine what she was feeling. If he didn't talk to her, he knew she wasn't going to say anything to him, because that's how calleigh was, she was a private person and even thought when they were together, she started to open up to him like she had never done before, certain things were still kept to herself...He never pushed her to tell him things all the times, but he always let her know that he was there for her, and eventually she would tell him, or sometimes she'd just lay there and hugged him.

He cursed himself for stepping in one of the toys that belonged to his niece, it was worst that it made these weird noises. It startled calleigh and she looked back towards his direction, surprised by how close he actually was, and she hadn't notice before, and wouldn't have had if he didn't step on the toy. The look on his face, made calleigh smile a little...he looked like he got caught doing some midnight tip toe when he wasn't supposed too.

" Hi " He said smiling a little.

" Hi " She replied softly, shaking her head.

He took a few steps towards her and sat next to her on the grass, he looked at her and she was looking into the lake behind his parents house.

" I love the view in this place." she said

" I know, me too..." He said looking in the same direction as her. " I like coming here a lot to think, clear my mind."

" I can imagine." she said nodding.

" When I was younger, I used to lay down on the grass here and listen to music. " He said smiling to himself and Calleigh was now looking at him " Marisol would come down from her room and sit next to me. I'd try to pretend I didn't notice she was there and then she would make me talk to her, about what was bothering me." As he finished he looked at her, she hated this look...this hurt look in his eyes.

"Did it work?" she asked.

He laughed. " yeah it did, she never failed to help me out." He said.

" You miss her uh? " calleigh asked, even though she already knew the answer.

" A lot, Cal...like i told you, especially since i got out of the hospital. I'm stuck at home, don't feel like doing anything, and I couldn't go back to work. My mind keeps running the entire day about things and people in my life...wished she was here to help me through this"

Calleigh looked from him towards the water, just then he looked at her, and he knew this was the time to tell her that those thoughts involved mostly her.

" Thought a lot about her..." he took a deep breath, looking towards the lake " Mostly about you though." He said and when he felt her eyes staring at him he looked back towards her. She turned and he saw her take a deep breath.

" I'm really sorry Calleigh, about us...about what I did to you." He said.

" Eric..not here." she whispered. Cutting her off he said " I cant pretend that i don't care about you, that i don't miss us, that it's killing me to be this close to you but yet so far away at the same time."

" Eric we are at your parents, maybe we shouldn't have this conversation here." She said.

" They aren't coming over here. Don't worry...I didn't want to have this conversation here either, but I just want to let you know that I'm very sorry for everything I put you through, it was never my intention to hurt you in anyway. Completely the opposite."

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*flashback*

He didn't know exactly where he was going, all he remembers was getting in the car and driving. He wasn't even supposed to be driving by himself, because of the medication he had been in since getting out of his second brain surgery 2 weeks earlier, but he could stand being at home alone. He found himself stopping the car in front of his parents house, he noticed his two other sister were home aswell. Yeah, maybe this would be a distraction, he knew they were going to kill him once they found out he drove himself, but they would also distract him from whatever was going on. He sat inside his car for about 5 minutes, just staring into space and then he got out and made his away inside the house, he knew it'd be open. From the entrance he could hear they were all in the kitchen, so he just made his way there.

" ERIC " He heard his sister yell as soon as she saw him walking towards the kitchen door. He also noticed his mom and Pavel, no his dad actually turn towards him. His younger sister Carla showing up next to him with this questioning look.

He looked at her and then at everybody else and smiled. "What?" He knew what but just asked anyway.

" How did you get here, Eric?" He heard his mom asked. He walked up to her gave her a kiss on the cheek and replied " I drove here." He said hi to his dad right after, by giving him a hug and then gave Izza a kiss on the cheek.

" What do you mean you drove here? By yourself?" Carla asked as he sat down on the table next to her.

" yeah, i drove myself here."

" Eric you know you're not supposed to drive, especially by yourself." Pavel added.

" I know...i just could stand being home anymore. I had to get away, found myself parked up front a few minutes later."

" What's wrong baby brother?" Izza asked.

" Nothing, just bored...I can't go to work till a couple of weeks. I got tired of being home and doing nothing. I was starting to get a little paranoid." He explained.

" Well, we're glad you made it here safe, but don't you ever do that again." Carla added

He laughed. " Yes mom."

" Can you stay for dinner Eric?" Pavel asked.

" Hum yeah sure dad." He replied getting up and walking towards the living room.

" Where you going?" Clorinda asked.

" Bathroom, relax guys I'm fine." He replied back.

He had to smile at how worried they seemed to always be. He wasn't as bothered by it because since he was the baby, the attention had always been focused on him, but if he was being honest it sort of bothered him that they were on him all the time. His sisters left a short while after, to go pick up his niece at school and then go home. He stayed for dinner with his dad and mom...they talked during dinner, about how he was recovering, football, how work was going for his dad and a bunch of other stuff. Clorinda noticed how her son was acting a little strange, she knew something was bothering him, but she would wait till after dinner to ask him. After dinner was finished, Eric helped him mom with the dishes, said goodnight to his dad who always went to bed early.

He went into the living room and sat down on the couch, closing his eyes, he rested the back of his head on the couch. He soon felt someone sit down right next to him, he turned his head towards the direction and smiled and his mom. A "sad" smile she noticed.

" Something bothering you mijo. What's wrong?"

He closed his eyes once again and took a deep breath and let it out. "How can you always tell?" he asked with a shy smile forming in his lips.

" I'm your mom remember, I can always tell, so spill it."

" I don't know what's really bothering me mom. It's just ever since I got out of the hospital, I've been home and I don't feel like doing anything...My mind keeps running non-stop."

" About?"

" Everything. Work, the shooting, the car crash, about the first time I was shoot, Mari...mostly about Calleigh though."

" Calleigh." He heard his mom whisper.

" I never meant to hurt her mom. I wish I could explain that to her, make her understand." He softly added

" You haven't seen her?"

" No, I saw her at the hospital but that was the last time. i was even surprised she was there you know, we hadn't been talking much for about a week before the shoot out."

" She was there everyday eric. i saw her crying in alex arms, when you were in surgery. No one thought you were going to make it. Two brain surgery is not something easy. She thought she killed you."

" I know...she just hit me on the shoulder. I went through much worst after the car crashed, even before."

" You haven't gotten the chance to talk?" His mom asked.

" No, I hurt her mom...something I told myself and her that I'd never make her go through again. I didn't listen, when she told me to not get involved. I yelled at her, told her to stay out of my business, told her she didn't understand what it was like, I told her how messed up her family was, how they always fucked up with her life, but she still helped them, so who was she to tell me what to do when I was trying to help out sharova. I hurt her mom, I knew all her weak spots, all the ways to really hurt her and I used it."

His mom saw a few tears run down his cheek.

" Why Eric? Why would you make her go through that, when you deep inside you knew she was trying to protect you." His mom said firmly.

" I know. I Knew, but I had gotten myself to far in. I just wanted to protect her you know. Maybe if i pushed her away a little she wouldn't get involved with what I was doing. I never meant to push her to far mom, I swear." A couple of more tears flowing down his face "I was so mad and confused about everything and I took all out on her. I thought sharova had changed, I thought he wanted to change, that's why I got involved. I thought I owned it to him, because he went to where I was being held and came forward that I was actually his son. I never thought it would go this far, getting involved with the Russian mob, being involved in a shootout like a criminal, getting shot again by the one person who was everything to me, the bullet shifting, trying to escape theRussians after the car crashed, because i knew they found out that I was the one who called MDPD anonymous telling them the location of the trade-off. Having surgery all over again. Remembering Marisol's death all over again. But even after going through all this, it hurts the most knowing what I did to Calleigh."

His mom shifted a little and placed her arms around Eric, she knew she was part to blame for all this. For not telling him earlier the truth about his birth, about who his father was. " I'm so sorry mijo." She said, ad few tears falling down her face aswell.

" I miss her so much mom. I'm like so lost right now, I wish I could go back in time and take back everything I said to her, because I knew she was only trying to protect me. I wouldn't have gotten involved with sharova. But I put him before her, for what? He completely destroyed my life."

" What is done is done Eric. But Calleigh cares a lot about you mijo, you should've seen the stage she was in while you were in the hospital."

" She didn't deserve it mom. None of it, all the lies, all the pressure I placed upon her, all the bullshit." he said shaking his head.

" She didn't, and you were 100% wrong, but I don't need to tell you that because you already know."

He nodded. "I was hurt you know, even though I knew she was trying to protect me, I was mad that she couldn't trust me. It was like she didn't trust me at all."

" She did Eric, because through everything you put her through after finding out about your father, knowing how dangerous he was, she stood by you."

" I wish I could talk to her, let her know how truly sorry I am for everything." he said.

" You can Eric, give it sometime and then try to talk to her."

" I feel like i threw 10 years of friendship and a couple of months of relationship away." He said. They were both quiet for a couple of minutes, Eric tears had dried and when he looked at his mom, he saw a small smile starting to form in his mom's face.

" What?" he asked a little confused.

" You've completely fallen in love with Calleigh." she said.

His forehead wrinkled a little. " What?" he asked

" You've fallen in love with Calleigh, haven't you?"..." I mean you don't only love her, because you've always have. But you've fallen in love." She added.

He was quiet for a few moments, Yeah he loved Calleigh. They've never said it to each other, but by the way they acted with each other it was obvious...But had he fallen in love with her? Because that was totally different. Now that he stopped to think about it, his mom was right, he had fallen in love with her. "I think I feel in love with her a while ago, I've just been trying to ignore it, it's something I've never felt before. She's perfect in every way mom and now that i don't have her here with me it's driving me crazy. Never in my life I thought it would hurt this much to know a relationship is over."

" Doesn't mean you can't restart Eric. If you love her, then talk to her...at least let her know how you feel, that you're sorry. If things have to end between you two, then end it in the right terms. You are one determined men, have been since you were little. I know that if you care about her like i know you do, then you going to fight for this. I like Calleigh, always have. She's a nice person and I know that she really cares about you. Whenever you're around her you're different. You're a better men when you're with her."

" I am." he added.

They sat there silent, then talked for a few minutes. A little later, his mom placed a kiss in his forehead and told him to get some rest, that he could go home in the morning. He was asleep by the time she got to her room. As she pulled the cover and lay down in bed, her husband faced her and asked if Eric was ok.

Her reply was " Eric is in love." and with that she felt Pavel smile.

" Calleigh? " He asked.

" Oh yeah." Chlorida replied smiling.

" He's been in love, probably just realized it though." He added "Hope they work things out." and with that they both feel asleep.