Twin Equinox

Chapter Two - Filler: Running

I heard her voice clearly in my head. Here we go again. My goodbye was painful, running away like that. But what other choice did I have? Its either I get hurt by staying, or I get hurt by leaving… It's lose-lose!

The thing about Bella is that she is completely out of it. She has her own little bubble and it goes right with her. How does she know if everything goes right? She doesn't. She just pretends it does.

I have problems. Maybe I should go to therapy. I can't afford it though… Maybe I can just get a psycho shrink that will at least listen to me before freaking out. I know exactly what to tell him.

Hello. My name is Jacob Black. I am a werewolf. When I phase my clothes rip off and for a second, I'm completely naked. I'm in a pack full of guys so it shouldn't really bother me. But now Leah joined in… and that girl sees me naked…and I see her naked too… I'm scared. Oh, and I'm in love with my best friend, Bella. She's in love with a dead, ice-cold parasite—a vampire through you eyes. Oh, and, right now, I need you to catch me before I feel that it moves me. Help?

And then he runs away screaming in terror. That's how it will always be. It should have been that way with Bella, too. Maybe she's just used to being around monsters…

Running through Canada, I passed through a thicket of trees. Pine trees, I guessed… I heard wolves get quite large around these parts. Of course, I have absolutely no idea where I am. Suddenly, I'm not alone. Another wolf phased.

I heard Seth running through another conversation with Bella. I tried to block it out. I've heard this before. My try was unsuccessful, however. I still managed to hear Bella worrying about me. The few words said it all.

She asked, 'How was he?' I had nothing to say. Where in the world are you Jake? What do you want me to say to her?

None of your business.

Jake, she's killing me here! Every phone call she makes! Do you know what she puts me through?

Is it better than Leah?

Eventually you're going to have to come back, you know…

I don't have to do anything.

What about the wedding?

What about it?

And then silence. My harsh words did the trick. Seth phased back to tell Bella. I cringed with the thought of her in pain once she heard those words. I sighed and turned around.

I wonder what I'd look like. After all this time as a wolf… My hair would have probably grown out again. Maybe I need a haircut… Remembering the wedding had made me weak. She was going to give her all to a dead, bloodsucking leech.

I stopped running. Unable to walk even a few feet forward. I sank to the ground and started crying. Or whatever it is that wolves do. Images swarmed my head. The movie we watched. The kiss I stole. The motorcycle I repaired. They would be gone. All gone. Those two little words will kill it all.

I do.

I mentally slapped myself. Wasn't it me that told her that I would never give up? Wasn't it I that said that it was best to keep fighting harder—now that there was limited time left? I gave up that fight. I gave her up.

I was shaking. It got me thinking. If anger can turn me into a werewolf, what does it turn a werewolf into? I pondered this for a moment after cringing. I never really cared about learning either way.

Deep breaths, Jacob… Deep breaths…

It's scary to be what I am, having to always be careful around my loved ones. Never really being able to be human… Just...werewolf. This was why I envy Mike. He was a weak, insufferable marshmallow—no doubt—but he was human. He was the kind of guy Bella should have liked. The kind of guy I used to be...and can never again be.

I could never be that Jacob again. Never. Bella would never love me again. I know she must, for now, but once she marries that leech and turns into one of them, she won't care about me anymore. She won't care about the pack. She'll be a monster.

And I'll have to kill her.

I let out a loud, agonized howl into the air. I couldn't return, not yet. If ever.

I continued to run forward, paws pounding against the forest floor, and gave over to the instincts of the wolf inside me.

Frocked:
My first chapter and it's only a filler. That kinda sucks...
So, I guess you don't all know me—I'm usually for the 'Sonny With A Chance' stories...
HunnyABee is my actual close friend and she's a pretty decent girl when she's not helping me murder someone...
Just Kidding!!!
I know this may be OOC—what am I supposed to do about it?
I'm not a guy!
Review if you dont want me to come and get you at night!

HunnyABee:
She's so weird. But I love that little sprite, lol. Hmm... Sprite... I could use some soda...
Anyways, what did you guys think of little Frocked's filler? I wanted her to do a chapter on Jacob's disappearance, how things were going, but she didn't know what to put since it was basically running. Running and thinking about Bella and sadness.
Frocked is pretty cool—weird as heck, but friggin awesome.
Don't worry—she'll be writing full chapters soon enough... ;) No spoilers here, though. MWAH, and REVIEW!! :D