Author's Note: I came up with this one night as I was listening to the song "Angel" by Sarah McLachlan. Just listening to it made me think of Snape's death. What was he thinking as he looked into Harry's, or Lily's, eyes? I hope you enjoy it! I had fun writing it. As always, reviews are welcome!
PS – To the readers of Unlucky, I haven't abandoned that story, I've just had a bout of writer's block combined with real life catching up to me in the forms of school, family, friends, etc.
Disclaimer: I asked the characters of Harry Potter to be mine, and they ran away to Antarctica.
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Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
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Severus had made a mistake. Not just one, but too many to count. He had hung around with the wrong crowd, followed the darkest wizard of all time, and above all, lost Lily. It was his fault Lily and Potter died. If he had not been so stupid, so longing for acceptance, they would still be alive. But Albus gave him a second chance. Severus just had to protect Harry, her son. Had it been worth it? The boy was going to die anyway, he had to. It did not matter now. Nothing did.
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I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty
Oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
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He was dying, he knew it. There was no cure for Nagini's bite. Severus was going to die, but first he had to let Harry understand. Harry had to understand what his least favorite Professor had done for him and what Lily had done for Severus.
"Take…it…take…it…"
He saw the memories mixing with the blood, silvery blue against Gryffindor red. What had Albus said? "Sometimes I think we sort too soon." Maybe he had been right…
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In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
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Severus was clinging desperately to Harry's robes now. There was something he had to see once more. "Look…at…me…"
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You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
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Lily's eyes. Lovely, wonderful Lily. He could see her smile, hear her laughter, all in those emerald depths. All he had worked for, everything he had done for her son, was for Lily. For her.
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So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting
Keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
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Severus had been the spy, fooling Voldemort for years. His work was based on lies, hundreds and thousands of lies, that could all crumble in a second. He had risked his life, not for Harry, or even Albus, but for Lily. He had to redeem himself. He had to make things right.
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It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness
Oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
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He was slipping away, like water over stones, away from the world. The green eyes found the black, and he was gone.
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In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
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Severus sensed it before he saw it. King's Cross. A train was stationed on the tracks, looking as if it was leaving any minute. He could see people through the windows, dozens and dozens of people, many who he recognized. Perhaps this was not the end. Perhaps death really was the next great adventure.
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You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
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There was Albus, smiling fondly at him. "Well done, my boy. Lemon drop?"
Lupin was there too, with Tonks. Both nodded at him. He nodded back.
Fred Weasley and Colin Creevey were there too. "Hey, Professor," Fred greeted, grinning at him.
There were others: Mad-Eye Moody, Sirius Black, James Potter, and even Severus' mother. But right now he was only looking for one person.
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You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here.
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There was a flash of red hair, and suddenly he was engulfed in a warm hug. "Severus!" said a voice he had only heard in his dreams.
Severus returned the embrace readily. "Lily…"