Hi my honeys! I'm sorry it took some time to update, but here it is ;) So I hope you'll enjoy it! Review and let me know!
And yes, since I am from Finland and today was a really tragic day for all of us ( the Kauhajoki school shooting incident where 10 kids got killed), it would be nice if everyone who reads this chapter would spend a quiet minute for their memory /
At first when I woke up I wasn't sure where I was. I hadn't opened my eyes but I could tell that I wasn't in my bed, not in home or at the safehouse. And then there was this nice, warm feeling and a weight that was over me. Like I wasn't alone. Shit! How could I forgot that the man of my dreams is propably laying next to me?Well, atleast he stayed... Maybe he is still sleeping, should I go before he wakes up? My mind was filled with questions and my peaceful feeling was long gone. Slowly I finally opened my eyes to see what was going on. Yeap, there he was, still sleeping. His other hand was over my bare stomach and his face was near mine. It should be illeagal to look like that when you were still asleep. Gorgeous, that's the word.
For a moment I stayed still, listening to his breathing and gazing at his face; how his lips moved slightly like he was whispering something without voice. The las night had been... magical. We fit together like we were made for eachother. I could still feel his touch at my skin, his lips on my neck, my lips...Stop it! Now! Do not think about those wonderful, perfect things! I was so afraid that he didn't feel these same things towards me as I felt for him. With a sight I decided to get up and leave the room before he would wake up. It would be easier, for both of us. Tenderly I lifted his hand away from my stomach and got up as fast as I could. Then I realized that I was still naked.Clothes, clothes, where are you? After a careful scanning I finally found them hiding at the corner of the room. I slid my nightgown on and tiptoed to the door. I opened the door and walked out of it, but before I closed it I gave Nicholas one last look. Right then, a second before the door closed our eyes locked together; he had woken.
I stood at the corridor breathing heavily. What had he thought when he saw me leaving? Did he think that last night was a mistake? Did he like touching me? I was sure my mind would explode, there were too many things going on. And I knew that I had, or atleast I should have bigger problems than him; there was a traitor running free and I had to find out who he was! There was no way I was letting this thing go now, it was something I had to do. Touching the wooden door with my fingers I said goodbye to the most wonderful night of my life and left for my own room.
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"Anna just do it please, for me? I really need your help now. It's not so bad, you can go to the movies and walk around and do stuff like that..."
I was going to work tonight and I needed Anna's help. She needed to leave the house with me, like we were going out together and make sure that Nicholas would see it too. After that I could change my clothes and go to work like normally. This way I could be sure that Nicholas wouldn't come to look for me for some reason and wouldn't find out that I was nowhere to be seen. It would be easier for Anna too, I didn't wan't to make her lie for me if I wasn't in my room. Now I only had to reassure her that she would have wonderful time alone before she could come back to the house with me.
"Okay, I'll do it, but it's just not fun at all. All of our frends have left the city, or country like your parents, and I have no one to see! If only Robert could have a day off..."
"Oh please, could you be more in love with the guy Anna?"
I was laughing at her but at the same time I felt sad, the words were actually ment for myself. I couldn't get Nicholas off of my head no matter how hard I tried. And Anna's teasing comments weren't helping me at all. I hadn't told her about how far did we go last night, but I did tell her something. And that something was enough for her. I wouldn't get any rest for years, years and years.
"Yes, I could, I could be like you... Ha! So, should we be going in any time soon, Michael?"
She was right, we should be going soon so that I'd still have time for change and get back to the house. I pulled my clothes and stuffed them at my purse. I wasn't sure where to start, but I had a small plan. I would follow some of the men at their work, trying to find out if some of them did something suspicious. Only thing I really knew was that the traitor was someone I knew, someone from my work. It made me mad that I couldn't get the owner of the voice in my head, sometimes it was close to come out but it never did. I was sure that if I only heard him talking again I would recognize him.
Anna and I left the room and made our way to the front door of the building.And just as I had imagined, Nicholas was standing at the lobbey, talking with some of the men. He hadn't put his mask on his face so I could see how his perfect eyes followed me as I walked trough the hall. No matter how I tried I couldn't help myself, I was weak: I coudn't pull my eyes off of him. It was like time was slowing and there was no one else than us. I was quite sure that he was going to take a step towards my direction but luckily ( was it?) Anna took my hand and started to yank me like a madman. The spell broke and everything got back to normal. I felt sad when more and more space got between us, I knew that I would see him soon as Michael but that wasn't the same.
"You should be lucky for having me with you! If you were alone there you would bee doomed! You have no control of your body when you are near him, you know."
Anna was half laughing and half serious when she pointed out her thoughts. And I knew that she was right. I was so going to change that, I had a job to do and I coudn't wander around thinking about Nicholas all the time! WIth my new found energy I grabbed my frend's hand and pulled her around a corner a few block away from the base. With her watching my back I changed my clothes and soon I was no more Michelle, it was a duty time for Michael.
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"Okay, everybody listen to me now! It's going to be a normal night but I am going to choose one man to come with me. I have some things to do and I need help."
I arrived back to the building back just in time. I was anxious and ready for action. I hadn't really decided who to follow first and if I should check their lockers first for any details, but I was full of energy to get something started. I assumed that Nicholas (oh what a man) was going to choose Robert like always so I wasn't really paying attention to what was happening around me.
"So Michael, is it ok for you?"
Shit, why is Nicholas looking at me with his perfect eyes? Did he ask me something? What?
"Excuse me sir, could you repeat your question? I wasn't...listening."
He gave me a strange look and I was glad that he couldn't see my face, not only because I wasn't really a guy but because I must have looked crazy. I felt crazy, everytime he looked at me. Stop it!
"I was asking if it was okay for you to come with me tonight?"
No, it's not, I can't be with you, alone. And besides I have other things to do.
"Yes, sure sir. "
I can't believe how mighty my will power is.
Hope you enjoyed it! ;)