Randy couldn't speak. His mind could only hear that voice from his past laughing that he would become like his own master one day. But he hadn't, he had become worse he went for blood in the wrong way using too much force to get what he wanted. Randy thought he had been in control but he hadn't been, never, he had barely he not pulled back in time. But tonight he let the dark side of the Viper consume him he hadn't fought it.
Evan noticed Randy looked like he was in a faraway place and took it has a chance to escape. He pulled his body out from under Randy and stood up. He looked at Randy and could tell something was wrong with the tattooed man and want to help him but Cody's yelling at him prevented him.
Evan moved to the cross and finished getting Cody down. Cody rubbed his wrist and held Evan has the both gazed on at the now crying Randy.
Evan gave a little whine and took a step towards the sobbing form but Cody grabbed his arm hissing, "What the fuck are you doing?"
"He needs us..." stammered Evan his voice thick with pain and emotion. He knew Cody was angry but he knew too something was serious wrong with Randy and that scared him. "Cody look at him," he urged softly, "He's breaking down...he didn't mean to..."
"You think I give a fuck about him right now?" snarled Cody. The blue eyes were burning with indignant anger and reaching up he gently tilted Evan abused face back trying to stop the flow of blood, "Evan he was trying to kill you!"
"No, no he wasn't," protested Evan swaying slightly.
Cody swore again then wrapping an arm around the smaller man he gently guided Evan to the only chair in the room – Randy's large dominating leather chair. Easing the decidedly shaken Evan down Cody knelt in front of him – ignoring the protests from his own abused and battered body - and swore again. Evan looked a mess. Needing something to clean the blood away with Cody saw Randy's shirt and without caring about the consequences he grabbed it, and started to rip it apart into smaller strips. Once he had useable pieces he gently began wiping the blood away, cursing each time Evan flinched and whimpered.
As Evan's face finally came back until view from under the red wash Cody swore again then glancing to his left he stared at Randy, "I hope you're fucking happy you bastard! I think broke his cheek bone as well his nose."
But Randy didn't respond. He just knelt in the same spot legs spread as if still straddling Evan, tears streaming down his face, his mind lost in memories of his own pain and humiliation. Memories he thought he'd locked away from ever.
Randy couldn't see or feel anything but the screaming and laughing in his mind from the honey brown eyes mocking him. That wicked voice chanting over and over, "Just like me, just like me." Randy look at his knuckles seeing Evan's blood on them knowing he had become what he feared the most he had become just like his master.
Evan tried to get out of the chair to go to Randy but Cody stopped him. "Cody he needs us!" Evan pushed Cody back finally standing. Moving to go to Randy Cody grabbed his arm and pulled him back.
"Evan you need a doctor," Cody started pulling Evan to him, hugging the slightly older man. "He's finally shown us his true self."
"I'm sorry," came the whisper from the trembling Randy who was blankly staring at the wall. "I don't deserve either of you," his words were so quiet almost nonexistent but both Cody and Evan heard them.
"Your right you don't," Cody snapped guiding Evan to the basement door. Cody was so blinded by raged at Randy hurting Evan and not playing by the rules he didn't care that Randy was killing himself with mental torture.
"Cody my nose can wait. I don't think we should leave him in this state," Evan was trying to stop Cody from leaving the room fear of what Randy might do to himself screaming in his mind.
"Evan!" snapped Cody trying to pull the resisting man after him, "We're leaving."
"No we're not!" snapped back Evan yanking his arm away from Cody. Giving his upset love a faint smile he glanced back and said softly, "I'm not leaving him like this."
"Evy...Puppy," breathed Cody, "He tried to kill...he ignored the safety words he was hurting you. Really hurting you..."
"I don't think he meant to," protested Evan wiping at his ruined face, "Cody you didn't his eyes. They were haunted so haunted and I…"
"He was right..." sobbed Randy his emotion finally finding a voice, "I am like him...oh fuck what have I done…" and with the boys watching he fell forward, his forehead resting on the ground the powerful body shaking with the force of the sobs escaping his throat. Evan took one look at Cody then turned purposefully walked back towards Randy, back towards the man who had minutes before been beating him senseless.
Sinking to his knees Evan reached out and touched Randy's shoulder whispering, "Randy…please...stop crying…please we can…" his voice died into a horrified gasp as Randy slowly looked up at him Evan heart breaking as he stared at the shattered remnants of the man he loved.
Randy's face was pale his eyes just pits of void. Tears steam over his face that was normally made of stone. Neither Evan or Cody had ever seen Randy like this, their strong powerful Viper looked so lost so scared.
"Who is he Randy," Cody whisper not liking that Evan was still so close to the man that had violently beaten on him. Cody sank down next to Evan to make sure if Randy lashed out that he could either take out Randy or pull Evan away in time.
"He can't hurt you any more Randy whoever it is you're not like them," Evan kissed Randy's temple there attempt to calm him failing.
"Yes he can any time he wants. God he won, he won," Randy pushed away from the boys standing to walk towards the toy cabinet. "He is the game, his game. AH! All he's ever done is play mind games with me," Randy clutched his head has he ripped open the doors grabbing a metal object. "I can't love, I'm not meant too," Randy dropped back to the knees and the boys saw what was in his hand.
"Randy put it down," Cody stood up and walked towards the manic Viper has Evan looked wide eye at what Randy was holding.
"Cody..." whispered Evan unnerved by the blade Randy was holding in his hands.
Cody waved him silent, mouthing, "It's okay." He walked over to Randy and dropping to his knees beside his shattered lover he murmured softly, "Randy…Randy please look at me…"
Randy didn't react he just kept murmuring, "Not meant to love...not meant to have beautiful things...not meant love...unlovable...so unlovable...damaged...so damaged..."
Cody bit his lower lip then taking a deep breath he soothed, "Randy you're not unlovable you've got two people who love you...please Randy look at me…"
"I hurt them…my boys…my beautiful boys…." whispering Randy. He suddenly raked his head with his hands the short nails leaving angry red marks in his shorn scalp. Cody winced as the tip of blade grazed Randy's face, leaving a thin trail of blood. He was desperate to take it away but had no idea how Randy would react if he did.
Just as he was thinking of what to do Evan joined them, sinking to his knees on the other side of randy the smaller man gave a loud sniff and sputtered miserably, "Randy look at me…" he reached over touching Randy's face turning it to face him. He stared up into the lifeless eyes and with another sniff he simply leant forward pressed his bloody lips to Randy whispering, "I love you…I mean it...I love you…please…come back to me, come back to us...we need you..We need our Randy back…"
Randy didn't react he just looked as if he didn't see Evan like he saw something behind Evan. "Please don't let them touch me, master you said only you would hurt me. I've been good," Randy whisper. "Don't you love your pet?"
While Randy was rambled Cody snatched the knife from him throwing it across the room. "Randy we're here, your boys are here," Cody kissed Randy's temple.
"Who hurt you, who didn't love you because they were stupid," Evan nuzzled Randy's neck.
"Please don't leave me dirty on the floor," Randy just kept ramble looking like he was starting at ghost. A ghost Cody and Evan wished they could exorcise.
"Randy let's go take a bath, and relax," Evan rubbed the tattooed man's shoulders but Randy still didn't respond.
"Evan maybe we should call John or someone that's known Randy a long time," Cody shift to be kneeling on one knee.
"No, no," Randy crumpled to the floor and curled in a fetal position. "Don't hurt John. I'm sorry I didn't mean to. Just leave him be, PLEASE!" Randy screamed holding his head. "Get out of my head! I HATE YOU!"
Evan and Cody stared at each other, scared out of their wits by the way the man they both adored was curled into a ball of abject misery screaming over and over again "I hate you, leave me alone."
Running a hand over his broken face Evan whispered, "Cody what do we do?"
"I don't' know," replied Cody he was getting desperate. Biting the side of his lip mumbled, "We could try and move him? Maybe get him to the bedroom, get him away from this stuff...he hysterical I mean I...I...I don't...I..."
Evan suddenly yelled in surprise as Randy's' hand lashed out curling around his calf. The older man dragging himself up pleading, "Please make him stop...make him stop don't let him hurt, John, oh please...I'll be good I promise I'll, oh fuck, fuck not all of you, please MASTER…"
As Randy fell back down his body racked with more sobs, Evan had an idea. Taking a deep breath he whispered, "Cody, help me get him upright."
Cody frowned but helped each of them taking hold of a long arm and slowly levering the almost limp body up right.
Evan licked his lower lip then taking another deep breath he ordered, "Keep hold of him keep him upright, then letting his voice drop to a desperate whisper he murmured, "Please forgive me if this hurts, Randy..." then swinging his right hand he slapped Randy right across the face. The slap echoed out around the silent playroom, the Viper's head snapping to the side with the sheer power of the impact. Evan held his breath as the Viper's gaze fell on him.
"Puppy?" Randy's mind slowly came back to reality but he could hear the echoes of the faintly haunting him.
"That was for my nose," Evan smiled and hugged the taller man. "Now please you have to tell us who hurt you."
"I…I…can't" Randy whispered and he felt Cody left go of his arms and also embrace him.
"You have to Randy it's destroying you on the inside and it will destroy everything the three of us have," Cody kissed the top of the shaved head.
"I…I can't," Randy screwed his eyes closed still trying to block the voice.
"Cody let's get him up stairs away from all of this paraphernalia," Evan motioned his arms around the play room. Cody threw one of Randy's arms over his shoulders and Evan wrapped around Randy's waist as the two of them lifted him up slowly walking him towards the open door leading to the stairs.
The got Randy upstairs and lay him on the master bed Randy had just been trembling repeating that he can't. Cody went to open the currents and let natural sunlight into the room.
"Codes," Randy's voice was almost a sob . "Keep them closed. Boy's I've failed you I've become the monster I vowed never to be. I'm just like him."
"Please Randy let us help you, your troubled, but you're not a monster," Evan frowned as Randy gaze upward at the ceiling.
Sinking onto the bed besides the shaking Viper, Evan tenderly caressed Randy's abs his fingers rubbing soft circles over the muscles.
"Randy," he murmured, "Please you've got to trust us. You're not a monster. You just...you…"
"I hurt you..." breathed Randy his grey pain-filled eyes locking with Evan's, "I hurt you. I hurt my beautiful Puppy…"
He reached up his hand trembling so much that Evan just captured it between his own and held it in his lap as he replied, "Yes. You hurt me but you stopped. Randy you could have hurt me so much more but you didn't," soothed Evan catching Cody glaring at him out of the corner of his eye. Tilting his head Evan indicated for Cody to join then.
Kneeling behind Randy, Cody lay down spooned his own bruised and beaten body along the length of Randy's, his head resting on Randy's' shoulder as he murmured, "Randy please. You've got to trust us..." he reached over his hand thumbing away some of the tears that had streaked Randy's' face whispering, "We need you...we need our Randy."
Randy closed his eyes and turning his face away from the boys he whimpered, "No you don't...you deserve better...better than the monster you've got."
"Randy you're not a monster," Cody kissed the shaved head. "It's obvious that there is something inside that is killing you that tonight made you snap. I know you can control it," Cody frowned looking at Evan's face his rage slowly ebbing but still worried Randy might lash out at them again.
"Randy, you do so many wonderful things for us. Got us a new home completely and renovated it to be a slice of heaven. You hold us and shower us with attention after we take bad bumps or have shitty days," Evan snuggled closer trapping Randy between his and Cody's body.
"Because I didn't want to be like him, I never was held or praised. It was good bitch lick the cum off your lips," Randy bit back the memory. "Now I've done the same to you."
"But we were playing and we've played like that before. You just need to remember a safety word means stop," Cody propped himself up to look at Randy's tear stained face.
"I know it meant stop but I didn't want to, god I wanted to, just like he would," Randy closed his eyes remember being beaten, raped, battered till he could stand by his master. "Just like," Randy couldn't say the name.
"Batista?" Evan questioned but Randy's expression didn't change but he thought that might be who because he had heard rumors. Taking a deep breath he tried one other name from Randy's past, "Hunter."
Randy reacted instantly, thrashing against the boys trying to get free yelling. "No...No... You can't know...you can't he'll come he'll…come here...he'll try and hurt you..."
"Shh, shh!" soothed Cody wrapping his arms around Randy pulling him back down.
Randy was still struggling in Cody's embrace as Evan shifted position kneeling in front of the terrified Viper. Cupping Randy's' face in his hands, Evan assured, "Randy calm down. He's not here. And even if he was we'd protect you. You know that. Randy please...come on relax…shh that's it..." he caressed Randy's' face wiping the tears tracks away, his thumb brushing over Randy's' spit strew lips. Smiling lovingly Evan sighed and murmured, "What did that bastard do to you?"
Randy didn't reply he was lost in his own world again. His lips were moving and as Evan strained to hear what he was saying he could just catch hints of words but one thing he understood all too well was the fact Randy had rarely been a willing playmate. Sitting back on his heels Evan looked at Cody – who was still wrapped around their lover pressing soft loving kissed into Randy's shoulder and neck murmuring soft nothing trying to sooth the frightened viper.
Suddenly Randy looked up exclaimed, "He'll hurt you! He'll hurt you just like he hurt him. God he tried to help me, he tried to free me...god he was so angry, he so mad…"
"Who?" asked Evan frowning, "Randy who? Who tried to save you before?"