"Someone I cared a great deal for," Randy whispered. "And I was in love with and he with me. I had to hurt him and kick him to the curb to protect him. I had to lied say things I didn't mean or Hunter was going physical hurt him and more," Randy sniffed as the boys listened. "Hunter punched and kicked him, a flat out assault and I was forced to say yes master hurt him, I love you master," Randy shuddered and tears feel from his eyes. "I had to wrap my body around him and kiss as though I was in love with him and then let him fuck me while he watched batted and beaten on the floor."
"Randy couldn't you fight back there was two of you," Cody was confused. "And only one of him."
"If I fought back it would have cost me my career and he would have lost his career too. He loves this business to much I would never take that from him," Randy whispered.
"I don't get it Randy why didn't this person trying to save you press charges?" Evan wiped a tear from Randy's cheek.
"He was promised more money than he could imagine and he got it and more. I made him take the money, I think deep down he knows I had no choice and has forgiven me but," Randy curled up in a ball. "But I'll never be loved by him again and that is why now I know I'm a monster and I can't love anything and no one should love me."
"Randy..." began Cody but Evan shook his head silencing his lover. He had an idea forming in his head and as he looked at Randy curling into a tight ball he knew they had to do something or the man that he and Cody both loved and adored would be lost forever.
Slipping off the bed he indicated for Cody to come with him. For a moment Cody heisted then pressing a final kiss onto Randy's' shoulder with a whispered, "I still love you." He slid off the bed and walked over to join Evan by the window.
"I think I know how we can help him," began Evan having to sniff every now and then to stop the blood that was still dripping out of his smashed nose.
"Go on," nodded Cody absently reaching over and brushing away blood from Evan's cheek.
"We call his old lover - not the one who abused him!" he added quickly seeing the protest forming on Cody's lips, "I mean the one who tried to save him. Cody he thinks no loves him he thinks he doesn't deserve love and you and I both know that is so wrong. But I don't think he'll believe us. I think if he hears it from his old lover, from the one he just spoke about I think we can save him."
Evan searched Cody's face – he could almost see the wheels go around processing what Evan had actually said. With a slow nod of the head Cody murmured, "Okay I agree but two questions. Who is the old lover and how the hell do we convince him to come here?"
"Randy?" Evan looked at the Viper on the bed tear tracks staining his face, his eyes swollen and red. "Who were you in love with, tell us."
"I can't you'll be mad," Randy looked at his boys. "Because now you know I care about him."
"Do you think we're going to assume you'd leave him for us," Cody got on the bed and made sure Randy's vision was filled with only him. Evan sat beside Cody stroking the Viper's thickly muscled leg. "We know that won't happen and that you love us. It's ok if you still love him too you can't just stop loving someone," Cody kissed Randy's forehead. "Evan and I are proof of that aren't we?"
Randy knew Cody was right but still feared that they were only staying with him because they feared a suicide attempt, which they were right to think because Randy wanted to kill the monster. The monster inside that made him lash out at his lovers, the two men he swore to protect with his life, yet he had been the one to hurt them.
"Why do you want to know?" Randy asked his grey blue eyes heavily dilated from the tears he was holding back again.
"So he can show you that he forgives you and loves you too. Even if your relationship failed because of," Evan shudder at the thoughts of what Randy had to endure and Randy himself curled up tighter when he thought Evan might say the name.
"John," the words were almost too faint for Cody and Evan to hear but the boys looked at each other and nodded at the name.
Evan rubbed Randy's thighs and murmured, "Thought so."
"I haven't spoken to him...about...what happened...about what happened after.." stammered Randy His voice faded as he looked at Evan then reaching over he caught the hand caressing his thigh and whispered, "Evan I'm so sorry…"
"It's okay," soothed Evan leaning over. Resting against Cody he bent down and gently pressed his lips to Randy's mouth and whispered, "I still love you and you'll always be my Viper."
Randy stared at him then slowly broke down in tears, turning his face into the pillow and sobbing softly simply overcome by the soft declaration of his small lover.
Pulling back Evan bit his lower lip then looking at Cody he whispered, "Stay here with him. I'm going to call John."
Cody nodded. As Evan slid off the bed Cody snuggled down pulling the still sobbing Randy into his arms. As Cody settled down Randy opened his eyes then realizing there was only one body wrapped around him he asked nervously," Even? Where is he? Cody where is he?"
"Shhh," soothed Cody watching as Evan walked out of the room, "Shh Randy it's okay, He'll be back I promise, he's coming…" he pause then added with a soft sigh," And so is John."
"John?" Randy questioned. "No I can't face him Cody the things I said to him," Cody kissed Randy rubbing the older man's back.
"Are things you didn't mean. It's ok Randy," Cody frowned as Randy held his eyes shut.
"You should take Evan and just leave me Cody. You had every right to be mad at what I did. We had rules and I didn't listen I became consumed with what I wanted the feeling like I had the power over someone like he had over me," Randy looked up at Cody threw dark wet lashes. Cody knew that 'he' meant Hunter and not John.
"Randy what did he do to you? Please tell me I can handle the truth Evan might not be able to," Cody tilted Randy to look into his aqua eyes. "But I can."
"What didn't he do Codes that list is shorter. I was straight back then when he forced me to be his pet," Randy started telling the story. "Remember when I took your virginity?"
"You were gentle you spent forever just fingering me," Cody remember the night Randy wooed him into bed.
"I was lucky to get lube and I got a little toy play and then," Randy took a deep breath and bit his lip Cody seeing the agony on Randy's face from the memory. "his fist."
"His what," Evan exclaimed in shock standing in the door way having heard the majority of the story.
Cody glanced back at the door and swore. He really didn't want Evan hearing this. He knew Evan hated the darker side of Randy's love and he was certain Randy had suffered far darker things than they could ever imagine. Also he needed to look away because the tears forming in his eyes were not what Randy needed right now. The idea of being fisted as a virgin terrified him and he could only imagine the pain his lover must have been in. Not to mention the fear.
"Randy!" exclaimed Evan his voice holding a slightly note of hysteria, "He...he fisted you…the first..."
"He took my virginity with fist," finished Randy his voice thick and hoarse with emotion. "I apparently passed out. I woke up to find him...cleaning my wounds and then just when I thought it was over he…he started fucking me…and I..God..." Randy closed his eyes a mix of humiliation relief and pain flooding over him, "God forgive me but I begged him to do it...I..."
"Randy don't!" Evan crossed to the bed and clambered onto it. Crawling up he snuggled himself against Randy's' body, his arms wrapping protectively around the older man, pressing kiss after kiss into the exposed skin whispered, "Don't! Don't think about please…please Randy...don't think about it!"
But Randy didn't stop. He kept talking, telling them everything, "…one time he drugged me and in the back of his limo he...he used champagne to fuck me…he loved seeing me broken he loved to hear me scream...and I was no different tonight I wanted to break both of, I wanted..."
"Randy stop please!" begged Evan. It was only as Randy glanced round he saw tears rolling down Evan's face cutting a clear path through the blood, "Please!" whimpered Evan, "Please I can't take hearing about you being tortured…oh god we need to be John here! We need to make this right because…" he was crumbling into tears and without thinking Randy just reached up and pulled the small man against him hugging him with all his might.
"John won't come Puppy the things I did and said," Randy nuzzled the Raven hair. "I might have well physically raped him because that's what Hunter and I did to him emotionally."
"But Randy you two are still best friends back stage," Cody rubbed the tattooed shoulders.
"I know I think he has forgiven me to a degree but there is no way he's forgotten or every let me kiss him again," Randy sniffed back the tears starting to relaxed in the embrace of his boys.
"Maybe if you told him what you told us," Cody kissed the tattooed shoulders.
"Cody I don't think that will help," Randy tried to bite back the memories still screaming in his mind. "I was Hunter's whore. No one, not even John will touch me there not after all that's been inside me."
"We want to touch you there," Evan looked up his eyes red and puffy. "We don't care what he put in you. They were just toys."
"Evan, my puppy it wasn't just toys," Randy looked at Evan's mouth open like he was going to say who else. "I don't their names Puppy, I was just strapped in a swing in a club, and gangbanged."
Evan gave whimper then without warning he just lunged forward wrapping his arms around Randy's body murmuring, "Oh god...oh Randy…" his hot tears were soaking into Randy's neck his lashes brushing Randy's skin. Randy returned the hug pulling the small man closer while looking at Cody – the grey blue eyes silently beg Cody for some reaction.
Cody blinked then pulling back he breathed, "He...he made you...Jesus Randy..." Cody stood up swearing loudly he kicked the bed then looking at his distraught lover he snapped, "He's dead. He is fucking dead!"
"Baby no!" exclaimed Randy reaching out for his other lover, "Baby please. Cody, listen to me. If he knows you know...he'll...Baby please... just come here..."
Cody glared at him and sniffing loudly he shook his head asking, "Why? Why did he...why did he do that to you?"
Randy closed his eyes and rubbing his face against Evans soft hair he growled, "Because he could."
"Does John know…about the multiple rape at the club?" asked Cody his voice hoarse with emotion.
Randy shook his head then slowly realizing what Cody had called it he opened his eyes and looked at his youngest lover rumbling, "You..You called it rape," he paused and blinking in confusion he asked softly, "You...you don't blame me for what happened?"
"Of course not!" Cody held Randy tight. "It's not like you willing hopped in that swing and propped your legs open," Cody nuzzled Randy's shoulder.
"I don't know baby, he fucked with my mind so much," Randy closed his eyes and stroked Evan's hair. "He broke me time and time again making beg for things I didn't want yet at the same time my body and mind want it all."
Evan sobbed into Randy chest his mind showing him things he just didn't want to see such as Randy in that swing surrounded by unknown men who one by one abused and hurt his lover making Randy scream in pain. "Please no more Randy, I can't take hearing about it."
"It's ok," Randy tried to soothe but he knew it wasn't ok what had happened it would never be ok. He was going to live with those nightmares forever never knowing if he wanted what Hunter inflicted on him or if his mind was hypnotized into it.
"I'm still going to kill him," Cody rumbled.
"No," Randy felt his body calming after finding release in telling his boys his past. "He'll do unspeakable things if he ever found out what I told you. I have to keep you safe from him, I'll do whatever he," Randy closed his eyes not finishing. What he wanted to say was whatever Hunter asked because he knew the older wrestler had eyed up his boys and Randy would never allow him to touch them he'd rather be raped a million more times.
"No, we won't let him have you again," Evan sniffed looking in to the grey blue eyes. "We'll die first."
"Eva…" began Randy but the smaller man cut him off saying firmly, "No. No you listen to me – I mean it. Cody and I would rather die than let that bastard ever touch you again." He searched Randy's face then with a soft loving smile he added," You think you're alone. Randy you've got me and Cody now and that means we protect you just as much as you protect us. That bastard," he promised, "is never going to touch you again."
Randy stared at him stunned by what he was hearing. He'd always feared that once his boys knew his past they'd leave him. That they would abandon him as the worthless trash Hunter had always told him he was but now sitting with a smashed face, blood still trickling down his chin Evan was promising to protect him. Randy slowly tore his eyes away from Evan and looked at Cody. And to his amazement he found the same look of determined on his youngest lover's face.
"He's right," sniffed Cody the trademark smirk slowly coming into view, "That old bastard tries anything well he's got the two of us to answer to." he leant forward and brushing his lips against Randy's he breathed, "We love you Randy and that means we'll fight for you no matter who the fight is against."
Randy closed his eyes trying hard not to cry again only this time it was tears of relief. His boys loved him. They still loved him. Reaching up he caressed Cody's neck then Evan's and murmured, "I don't..."
"Yes you do!" interrupted Evan grinning at him. Wiping his chin clean of the latest dribble of blood Evan ordered softly, "Baby why don't you run a nice hot bath for us all. I think we could all do with a soak and a rest."
As Cody nodded and slid off the bed heading towards the master bathroom, Evan looked at Randy and murmured, "We're going to fix this Randy. We're going to make it okay."
Randy frowned but before he could ask what Evan meant, the smaller man had moved off the bed and was wandering out of the bedroom leaving Randy alone on the bed.
In the hallway Evan closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Padding down the stairs he grabbed his mobile out of his pocket. Without even looking he hit speed dial and waited. A few moments later and there was a familiar, "Hey squirt, what's happening."
"Hey," called Evan fondly before sighing, "JC I need you to listen carefully to what I'm about to tell you and I hate to say it but I don't think you're going to like what you're about to hear but I need you to let me finish and then…" he took another deep breath before growling, "…then I need a massive favor from you."
FIN.