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Notes;; soo, as you can see I've decided to continue the story hopefully it won't suck as I go on and hopefully I'll be able to finish it. So anywayssss, heres the 3rd chapter, hope you like it! R&R pleaseee
With Jasper
Jasper sat in a dark room in a ratty old cottage just outside of Forks. Three years. It has been three miserable, miserable years with out her. Jasper was sure that by now she had moved on and found someone else to be happy with; he could only hope she wasn't still as miserable as he'd left. He'd spent three years tortured by the knowledge of how bad he had hurt her, he could remember that day perfectly, though he didn't like to, it was the last thing he'd wanted to do.
Flashback
3 years ago
Jasper was out hunting when she came. It was late afternoon and he was chasing after a deer when he caught her scent. He pulled to a sharp halt and faster than he could blink, she was standing in front of him with a small smile on her face. He took a step back and turned to run from her, not out of fear, but simply wanting nothing at all to do with her. She was his past, she had betrayed him and he had a new life now and he'd be damned if he was going to let her ruin it. But before he could even take a step she had him by the throat and up against a tree. He struggled to get away from her but she was far stronger than him. "Come now Jasper. Is that anyway to greet an old friend?" She said in her fake friendly tone, he knew she had a plan and she didn't like it. Maria told him that if he didn't come with her she would pick off his family one by one, starting with Alice. Jasper had no doubt that she would follow through, so it seemed he had no choice. He would have to lie to his family and leave them, leave Alice. The idea of living without her tore him to bits, she was his life but if anything ever happened to her because of him he would surely die.
And so he left, god he'd caused her so much pain, hurt her so bad. And he would live with that guilt for the rest of eternity. There was no way she would take him back now, even though he was free of Maria, but he needed to see that she was okay, he would be able to live the rest of life miserably as long as he knew she was fine and happy.
Jasper left his cottage, deciding it was time to hunt, it had been several days since he had last been hunting and the thirst was burning at the back of his throat, especially since he was coming near humans. He had gotten better at controlling himself over the years. It wasn't so hard or painful anymore, unless he hadn't hunted in a while. He quickly caught onto the scent of a bear and took off after it, letting his thirst take over him, relishing the short moment that he could not feel the lonely pain that had been with him ever since he had left his world behind to save her. Jasper caught the bear and made a clean kill, breaking its neck. He stood over it for a moment trying to sustain the painful thirst to keep his other emotions away, and just as he was about to bite into the bear he caught her scent. It was the most glorious thing he had ever smelled and recognized it immediately, a smile came to his lips and he let his eyes close as he let her smell fill his senses. It took him a moment to realize that she was coming closer, his eyes snapped open and his smile fell, no, this wasn't supposed to happen, she wasn't supposed to see him again, he was supposed to be out of her life, not bringing the pain back to her. He started to panic, but before he could run she was there, standing in front of him, just out of his reach. When she spoke his heart broke a little more, she sounded so, sad, empty, she wasn't the Alice he remembered. Could it be that she had been just as miserable as he was these past years? He would absolutely hate himself forever if she had been feeling any once of the pain he had felt for these three years. His suspicions were confirmed when her frazzled emotions hit him like a brick. Sadness, turmoil, loneliness, confusion, curiosity, hope, and anger, all because of him no doubt. Jasper dropped his eyes, not able to look at her pained, angry face. His voice was full of shame when he spoke. "Hi Alice…"
Alice
What was he doing back here? Where was she? Why did he look so guilty, not that he shouldn't, but wasn't leaving her what he wanted to do? She was so confused and angry right now, her face turned to one of anger as she glared daggers at him. "What are you doing her Jasper?" She snarled wanting answers now. He flinched noticeably at her tone before finally glancing up at her. "I-I came to make sure you were okay." Alice rolled her eyes at his answer. "You want to know if I'm okay. No I'm not okay Jasper. You left me, you don't want me anymore. How could I possibly be okay when my only reason for living doesn't love me anymore?" She yelled at him, his head snapped up to look her right in the eyes. "That isn't true Alice. I told you that! I never stopped loving you, not for one second." She was seething now, he had the audacity to sit there and tell her he still loved her? You didn't do things like this to people you loved, you didn't leave them for three years with no good reason. "Oh please Jasper spare me your lies. Why don't you just go run back to Maria and stay out of my life forever." The words hurt so much to say, it was really the last thing she wanted, she wanted him back so bad, but she was just so angry at him for leaving her and she couldn't just forgive him like that, it took everything she had to turn away and start walking back toward the house. It took all of her will not to run into his arms and beg for him to come back to her. It was what he said next that made her freeze. "Maria is gone, she has been for a year."