Title: Love Affair
Pairing: Quinn & Rachel
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. I really do wish I did.
A/N: Hey guys here is chapter 2, I hope you all enjoy it. Thank you to those who reviewed and to those who added this story to their story alerts, or added me to their author alerts/ author favorites. So back to the story, I hope you all like it. I do apologize in advance there is some majoy angst. Ahh! :) Oh also before I forget, this is un-beta ed. So if there are any mistakes they are all mine. *hangs head in shame* ok I'll stop now.
She was waiting for Rachel when she arrived. Her long blonde hair cascading down her back, and Rachel had to stop herself for a minute because no matter how many times they meet Rachel swears she has never seen someone so beautiful. Hazel eyes turn to meet brown, a smile slowly crosses both women's faces. Rachel moves over to the table Quinn is sitting at.
"Hey, sorry I'm late. Rehearsals went over" Rachel says taking the seat across from Quinn.
"It's no problem, the babysitter was late anyway" Quinn says with a smile.
"So how is Beth?" Rachel asks
"She's good. Getting bigger everyday" Quinn answers. Rachel can tell Quinn loves talking about her daughter.
"She's about four now, right?" Rachel asks and Quinn nods. Rachel starts to continue on about little Beth when Quinn stops her.
"I can't believe this. We don't see each other often and when we do we end up talking about stuff that don't really matter" Quinn says. Rachel smiles at Quinn's impatience.
"Are you saying your daughter doesn't matter?" Rachel asks teasing the blond. Quinn laughs.
"You know that is not at all what I'm saying" Rachel is laughing along with her when she sees Quinn's face become a bit serious.
"Rachel, I'm just going to be straightforward with you. What exactly is going on between us?" Rachel thinks for a bit about her answer. She knows she's in love with Quinn but she can't hurt Alison. Rachel also knows she's hurting Quinn by not being honest with the other girl.
"Quinn, I haven't been completely honest with you" Rachel starts, Quinn becomes worried. "You know I love you right?" Quinn nods, Rachel continues.
"I don't want to hurt you Quinn, but you should know. I have a girlfriend." Rachel steels herself for the angry cheerio she remembers from high school, but instead Quinn sits there like someone just sucker punched her in the stomach. Quinn doesn't know what to say, how can Rachel say she loves her and doesn't want to hurt her then drop a bomb which inevitably does what she's trying to avoid? She never thought she'd fall in love with Rachel, not with the way she treated the brunette in high school. Quinn didn't want to make the situation worse but she had to know
"Do you love her?" she asks, bracing herself for the answer.
"Not the way I love you" Rachel says and Quinn almost loses it
"What does that even mean?" she asks and Rachel responds
"Quinn, I've been with her for over two years. I care for her deeply, so of course I love her. But I am in love with you" Quinn scoffs
"Quinn please, I wanted to be honest with you" Quinn is now angry
"Bullshit Rachel, if you wanted to be honest with me you would've told me when we started seeing each other" Quinn says with tears rolling down her cheeks. Rachel wants to comfort the blonde but she's afraid she'll say or do the wrong thing that will upset Quinn further. She risks it anyway, reaching over the table to hold Quinn's hand. Quinn pulls away and Rachel reels back, hurt at Quinn's rejection. Rachel now has tears in her eyes and she so desperately wants to say something, anything that will make things better between her and Quinn. But Rachel's smarter than that, there isn't much that can be done to fix this, to fix the hurt she has inflicted upon the woman she loves. Her heart breaks to see the hurt in the other girl's eyes. Rachel has to break the silence, afraid she can't take much more of seeing Quinn so upset.
"Quinn, I am so sorry" Quinn interrupts
"Stop, please. Don't. Just don't" Quinn gets up to leave but she turns back to face Rachel.
"I do have one question. Are you cheating on her with me" Rachel can't even look at the blonde, she's filled with too much guilt to meet Quinn's questioning hazel eyes. She nods in understanding.
"I was just your dirty little secret" Rachel looks up in shock, Quinn was never that to her. Alison was the secret; she was keeping her from Quinn. As Quinn leaves Rachel sitting there, she wonders how she could just let Quinn walk out on her like that. Never one to back down the tiny brunette follows Quinn out of the restaurant. It's since started to rain, Rachel sees Quinn trying to hail a cab. She rushes over to her
Quinn" she says, the blonde looks over to see who's called her name. When she sees it's Rachel she starts to walk away, the tiny brunette rushes to catch up.
"Quinn please" Rachel grabs Quinn's arm, the girl tenses just a bit but Rachel doesn't let go.
"Quinn please talk to me" Rachel pleads. Quinn turns
"What more is there to say Rachel?" Quinn asks, her eyes red from crying.
"Quinn you were never a secret, yes I didn't tell Alison about you but it didn't feel like I was hiding you. It felt like I was hiding her from you. I know I must not make any sense but please Quinn I can't lose you. I don't want to lose you. I meant it every time I told you I loved you, and I still mean it." Rachel says, a sob chokes her words. Quinn softens.
"I love you too Rachel but I can't share you. You have to choose" with that Quinn walks away leaving Rachel in the rain, fresh tears making their way down her tear stained cheek.