I was looking in the mirror, making sure I was presentable. My eyes kept straying to my neck, where jasper...had given me my first hickey. It wasn't that noticeable. It was very small, and not that pink. It would be gone in a day or so. But it still tingled. Edward had never given me a hickey. He never risked it, since I was his singer and all that. Edward always said jasper was the weakest one out of them, that he was the newest to this lifestyle. But he seemed to have no problem being that close to my neck, I was never scared.

But mind you, I did have a glitch in my brain so...I probably should be scared but I wasn't.

I felt some disappointment thinking about the upcoming morning. I would have to act all loving and normal with Edward. And jasper...would have to be his normal loving husband to Alice. It made me envy her, even though she was the cheating pixie skank of a whore. Like seriously, she has Edward behind closed doors and jasper, in front of those doors...If that makes any sense.

I just sighed and shook the thoughts from my head. I would have to act like she is still my best friend, so best not be pissed at her. It may not be pretend anymore, even though that only lasted a few hours. Though this time I'm really glad for my weird thinking, I got jasper out of the deal. With that last thought, I happily turned and rushed down stairs, only stumbling once. I bolted into the kitchen, almost knocking into dad.

"Where's the fire?" he asked as he moved out of my way.

"The lighter" I randomly spouted and grabbed a granola bar and ran out the door and too my truck.

I quickly hopped in and turned the ignition and heard the roar of the engine as it came to life. I smiled and shifted and pulled the big sucker out and onto the road and drove to the school.

On the way to school I listened to the radio, singing along to a song I never heard before. I just made up my own words as I sang.

I saw the brick building, my smile growing as I pulled into the parking lot. I pulled to the first empty parking space I saw, parked my monster and just sat there. I could feel the goofy smile on my face. I have never been so excited to just go to school. I then gasped; I quickly looked into my rear view mirror, and looked at my hickey. I was dealing with vampires with freaky super sight. Not normal teenagers who barley pay attention. I had to find away to make it less noticeable. But I don't really wear make-up. I don't wear necklaces, and even if I did, it would do next to nothing to hide it.

I then saw Edwards silver Volvo pull into the parking lot. My heart sank, he will see, and he may kill me, or jasper. But then I remembered that jasper and I are supposed to be having an affair, though it's not really pretend anymore, and that made me feel better, that this is supposed to be here. But it also made me realize how real and how dangerous this is. This isn't those normal human affairs. This is between vampires. Vicious, strong, and deadly vampires. This thought brought me back down.

"Ah shit..." I whispered to myself in my truck.

I looked out my windshield in pure dread. I would have to get out, and risk people seeing my hickey. Normal teenage girls have to worry about other girls seeing it, and spreading rumours that she got it while having sex, then your known as a whore and all that. But not Bella! No, she has to worry about vampires seeing it and them starting a war and killing each other. Man I sometimes wish I had a normal life. I would take having the risk as being known as whore over the vampire war anytime.

"It's now or never Bella" I said as I gathered as much courage as I could and climbed out my truck into the morning mist of forks.

I looked up to see Edward already making his way over to me. Once he saw I noticed him, he tried to smile but I could see anger, buried deep in his eyes. Great, he's in a bad mood.

I looked behind him to see jasper, holding an umbrella and Alice by his side, talking to rose.

Jasper had his usual neutral face on. You wouldn't be able to tell if he was happy or sad, or even angry if you looked for it in his features. He held everything in his eyes. And he looked bored as hell. His eyes were wondering over the crowds, taking everything around him in. Alice was now trying to get his attention, he ignored her at first, but when he realized she wasn't giving up he finally turned to her. She looked part frustrated and part relieved that he was finally paying attention to her.

"Have a good night love?" Edward asked me as soon as he got to me.

My eyes snapped back to his face. I got good at reading his face also, and I could see his eyes were mocking. I could play this up.

"The best I've had in awhile" I replied boldly. His eyes narrowed ever so slightly.

"I would guess so. Jasper didn't come home last night" He stated. I pretended to be shocked.

"Oh you were waiting? I thought you would be...too occupied to notice" I said with a pointed look at Alice. Edward looked behind him to follow my gaze. When he turned around to face me again, his face and eyes held a buffet of emotion.

He looked worried, frightened, troubled, and dare I say it, he looked surprised.

"Well yes, I felt bad about our fight and I wanted to apologize" he tried to explain.

I just nodded and turned away from him and made my way to the school building. I could feel his presence beside me as he slowed his stride to match mine. I just ignored him and continued my mission of getting out of the damp cold. I think he realized that I wasn't going to start our usual morning conversations, and he actually tried for small talk.

"So, how did you sleep last night?" he awkwardly asked.

"It was good" I replied. I snuck a glance over at him and saw his face was thoughtful.

"You know, Alice see's a sunny day coming up soon. I have to go hunting, with my brothers. Only Alice and Esme are staying behind" he stated.

"Oh, why are Alice and Esme are staying behind?" I asked.

"Alice hopes to spend time with you. You guys haven't spent much time together lately. And Esme wants to stay to. They went out in the forest for some small kill. They will have to go next time though" he explained.

I held back my groan, with much effort. The last thing I wanted was to spend a few days with Alice. Though it wouldn't be alone, Esme was going to be there. I guess things weren't so bad...Though they weren't great either.

Then it hit me. Edward and Alice weren't going "hunting" together. As far as I knew, they used hunting as another way to get into each other's pants. This was a precious weekend for them. They could go at it as much as they wanted with very little chance of getting caught.

I stopped and looked at him. He stopped also and looked at me in question. I just kept studying him. Why?

The question kept running through my mind. 'Why weren't they using this time together?' 'Why was she staying behind?' 'Why?'

"Why?" I finally asked him. He looked shocked for a second then a puzzled look crossed his features.

"Why what?" he asked. I just sighed.

"Never mind" I sighed, turned back and walked into the building.

I manoeuvred my way through the slightly crowded halls and finally made my way to my locker. I barely used it, as some people who looked at it would immediately be able to tell. It only had spare pencils, spare pens, and spare binder, some folders and a package of paper. It was bare; I had no pictures or posters like a lot of the students at this school. I opened up my book bag and pulled out my binder and math text book and shoved my bag in my locker and I shut it and locked it.

I turned from my locker and started walking and when I looked up, I froze. Jasper was here. But he was supposed to have "graduated" for like the, 100th time. He, Rose and Emmett usually just came with Alice and Edward then left when first bell rung. I then noticed pixie whore was holding his hand. I felt a pang in my heart. I then noticed he wasn't holding hers. He was only letting her hold his hand. I tried thinking about it and hoped that would make me feel better.

I saw him stop by the hall that leads to the front doors, assuming he was going to leave; I stopped and wanted to see what was going to happen next.

I saw jasper politely smile at her and saw him lean toward her. For a second I thought he was going to kiss her, and my heart started to race. But then I noticed his face going to her cheek. Ok, so he was going to kiss her cheek, I could deal with that. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I wondered if he knew I was watching.

She then did something that broke my heart. She grabbed his face and redirected his lips for her mouth. She smashed her lips against his and kissed him hungrily.

I didn't even wait to see what his reaction would be. I didn't want to see if he would kiss her back. But I swear to God, the very long second that I did see the kiss, my heart stopped. I did a 180 and bolted the other direction. I ran from Pixie whore, I ran from...Jasper. I went through heartbreak the other day; I didn't need it another time in the span of only a few days.

"Well, I guess I'm skipping math" I thought to myself.

Oh yes, Bella turn rebel and skips math. Yes, a true badass.

I ran out into the mist and darted to my truck, pulling out my keys from my pocket as I ran. In the very back of my mind, I was amazed that I haven't fell, stumbled or any of my usual clumsiness. As I ran to my truck, I considered just throwing my stuff in my truck and running out in the forest to be one with nature. But I then remembered jasper might be leaving soon, if he didn't have his tongue down Pixie whore's throat, or if they weren't in the janitors closet, and might be able to sense me with his freaky super vampire sense's and I threw that idea out the ear.

I then remembered my Rebel wolf friend. Jacob. He was there when I needed a friend most, and hopefully he would still be there for me. Plus I haven't seen him lately. I hoped he wasn't pissed at me for being with Edward. As Jacob made sure he drilled that Vampire's and Werewolf's where mortal enemies' in my head. Plus if I was over there, the Cullen's couldn't come find me without breaking the treaty. I was smug with that idea.

It was decided then. I was going to spend the day with Jacob. Also, if Charlie found out I skipped school, then found out I was with Jacob, he may not be as pissed as he originally would be. Dad made sure to let me know he preferred Jacob to Edward.

I hopped in my monster and started the ignition. I could feel my smile spread across cheeks. I was going to see Jacob after all these weeks.

Then something in me told me too look up and I saw Jasper burst through the front school doors. He paused to scan the parking lot. I quickly locked my truck doors. I knew they would do next to nothing from keeping me from a vampire; they would only serve as a nuisance. But I knew the Cullen's knew I loved my truck and hopped they wouldn't murder my monster to get to me.

I then pretended to busy myself so I wouldn't have to look up at him, and in a way, I was busy, busy stacking my text book on top of my binder in my passenger seat. But that only lasted a few seconds.

"Oh geez..." I sighed to myself. Great, I was talking to myself.

"It's not enough that I do enough of that in my sleep" I said to myself. It hit me that I talked to myself again and I got frustrated.

"Argh, shut up Bella" I told myself.

I realized that Jasper probably could hear my insane talk and I got embarrassed. I shifted to drive and pulled out of the parking lot and onto the road.

I was going through a buffet of emotions. I was happy, excited, nervous, scared and still a tiny bit embarrassed.

"Let it rock" by Kevin Rudolf started sounding from somewhere inside my truck. It took me a few confused seconds to realize that it was my cell phone. I thought it was in my book bag, until I remembered I used it a few nights ago, I was surprised it wasn't dead. I quickly looked in the place in between the two front seats to see it empty. I listened some more and heard it was slightly muffled.

I opened up the glove compartment, and saw my celly. I grabbed it and looked to see who was calling. I idly noticed it was almost dead. It was Alice.

"Greeeeeaaaaat" I sarcastically thought.

I sighed then answered.

"Ello?" I cheerfully answered. I'm sure she could tell it was sarcastic.

"Bella? Oh Bella you can't!" Alice told me. She actually sounded slightly panicked.

"I can't what Alice?" I asked pleasantly.

"Go to the wolves!" She exclaimed, with a slight note of distain.

"Oh? And why can't I?" My voice was sweet but it held a note of malice. I was proud.

"Do you realize how many young wolves they have Bella?! It's too dangerous!" She warned me. I finally snapped.

"You know what Pixie?! Shut the hell up! You guys can't control me! I'm not your guy's pet! I have my own life, one that doesn't always revolve around the "Cullen's"! And I'll do what the hell I fucking want!" I all but shouted at her. I hated when they spoke to me like I was a stupid child.

"Bella?" Alice asked in astonishment. I could just picture the shocked look on her face.

"Bye" I hung up on her.

I guess all the anger I've been bottling up finally exploded. She was probably the person I hated most right now. And for her to treat me like a child? No. It doesn't work. You know out of that whole family, Rose and Jasper are probably the only ones that don't treat me like a little dumb child.

Rose barely even looks at me, so she can't really treat me like a child. And jasper, he has always been friendly to me. Even though in the beginning, he kept his distance, though at Edwards order. It finally hit me. Edwards a control freak, and so is Alice. No wonder they have fucked each other. They are perfect for each other. Edward has always controlled me. He even chose my friends for me, and I let him without really realizing it because I was literally blinded by love. And when they went hunting, I was kept prison at their house. Gosh I was pathetic.

And Alice, well she more or less controls that family. She doesn't let them wear the same outfit twice. Trust me, when Edward told me that, I thought he was exaggerating. But I saw it with my own eyes. Edward has not worn the same shirt or pants twice. And Edward has told me once that she even chooses Jaspers clothes for the day and will spazz if he doesn't let her.

And Alice has moulded my wardrobe. She has bought me clothes, and has thrown some out. I would notice a shirt is missing, later would asked Alice what happened, she would innocently tell me she thought I didn't need it anymore; I would laugh and let it go.

"Bella, you sad, sad biatch" I whispered to myself. It finally occurred to me.

To the Cullen's, my life did revolve around them. No wonder Alice sounded shocked when I announced it. Well, it probably wasn't the reason, probably because I went all psycho on her but still.

I, Bella, Has finally seen the light.

I looked up and was surprised to see I was in La push. I was barely paying attention to the road, gee, I put my mad driving skills to the test.

I drove awhile longer and saw Jacob black's homemade garage. I was excited and nervous. Understandable I suppose.

I killed the ignition, and took a calming breath and opened my door and hopped out. I looked up to see Jacob slowly stepping out the front door. I almost stopped breathing, his hair was no longer cropped, and it was longer, more of the messy, shaggy look. He also looked almost 7'0 tall. I knew I was short, but he made me look like a little person.

And the look he was giving me, it was...frightening. He looked like he, it was hard to explain. He looks, scared, nervous yet impossibly happy. I felt my chest tighten.

What was going on?

~To be continued~...

Hey, i have alot of time peeps lol .i've been asked if you guys are going to see the story in Jasper POV. I was thinking about re-writing the story in his POV. Im still not 100% sure. And i have also been asked if im going to update my other stories. I think...dun dun dun dun lol i think im going to get ahead on this story then i will later.i will finish my other stories...eventually lol. And im playing with the idea of write a "VAMPIRE ACADEMY" fan fic. The only problem is that series isn't finished. So i would continue the way i would want it. And when the actual story continues, it wont match my story. So im still not sure.

Anyway hoped u liked this chappie. Bella has seen the light in the chappie. But still, not much happened in this chappie. I have to pick up pace huh? Lol. I love u guys. R&R ^_^