Chapter 5

All I Wanted

I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts
All I wanted was you

All I Wanted- Paramore

As Bella and I laid on the bed with Noah and Sadie between us, Carlisle asked me to meet him in his office. I gave Bella a quick kiss and went down to his office.

"What is it," I asked him once I was sitting in one of the large leather chairs that we're in front of his desk. Carlisle thoughts were slightly scattered, very unusual for him. That made me worry.

He sighed. I wanted to know you're thoughts on sending Noah and Sadie away. Somewhere where they would be safe, protected and Victoria wouldn't be able to find them.

I exhaled slowly. I hadn't never considered sending them somewhere. I don't think Bella could handle that. I could but only because I would be sure that they were safe and that it was the best thing for them. Bella wouldn't be able to stop worrying about them. It would drive her crazy to have them away from her.

I looked up towards the ceiling, signaling to Carlisle. Bella would throw a fit if she knew I was considering this option.

Ah, yes. Bella. That's why I'm asking you first. You could talk her into it. If I mentioned it we both know she would never hear it.

I nodded. "Let's take a walk," I suggested. Carlisle was relieved that I was considering sending Noah and Sadie somewhere. We both jumped out his window and started our very long conversation, away from the sensitive ears of the family.

***

Bella's POV

Of course I was curious when Edward and Carlisle went for their 'walk', but when Edward returned I didn't ask about it. Whatever it was I wanted Edward to tell me without me having to ask.

Since it was the weekend, I let the twins sleep as long as they wanted. I took the time to clean up their rooms. Edward and I usually made them clean their rooms but I felt like giving them break after everything.

Noah's wasn't bad, just some clothes and a couple of toys. Sadie's room, as always, was a complete mess. There was clothes from one end to the other, some dirty, some clean due to the fact that Sadie could never make up her mind. Her desk was covered in pictures she had colored. She loved to draw, paint and color and she was quite good at it. I picked out a couple to stick on the fridge and stuck the rest in a drawer. I couldn't help but notice the ones that probably resembled her first vision. Dark human-like figures coming up out of a gray ocean against a black sky. Those I crumbled and threw into the trash.

Next I sorted her clothes and sighed when I opened her closet to find it almost over-stuffed with clothes with their tags still on. I needed to have another talk with Alice about her shopping. After the twins had turned one I made a deal with Alice that she could only buy them new clothes when either they grew or they didn't have something for an occasion that was coming up.

Just as I opened my mouth to call her name, Alice's voice tinkled to my ears. "Sadie grew 3 centimeters. Her jeans would be too short and so would her shirts,"

"Alice, that is not major growth. They would still look the same on her," I told her as she was in her room clicking away on her laptop. I heard her sigh heavily.

"I'll be sure to take her old clothes to Good Will,"

"Yeah, you do that," I snorted. "Shopping obsessed vampire," I mumbled.

"I heard that Bella Marie,"

I smiled. "You were suppose to Ali," I shook my head as she chuckled and I shut Sadie's closet. I stripped the sheets off her bed, replacing them with fresh ones. I stuck the sheets into the laundry chute along with her and Noah's dirty clothes. I finished making her bed and deemed her room finished. Just as I closed her bedroom door, Sadie and Noah came rushing down the stairs. A smile took over my face as I watched my babies, still in their pajamas with their bed-head, rushing towards me.

"Hey guys," I knelt down to embrace them. "Who wants..."I looked at my watch, "Lunch,"

"I want hamburgers!" Sadie exclaimed with a smile. That girl had amazing bounce back after something like what happened last night, happened.

I want tacos, Noah's voice sounded off in my mind. He spoke to me through his mind more often than Sadie did.

I smiled. "Well, how about we have both?" Normally I would make them compromise, but I couldn't help but give into them. Edward was tougher than I was when it came to them.

Smiles lit up their faces; a toothy grin from Sadie and his father's crooked smile took over Noah's face. It was those smiles that made my heart feel like it could beat again.

"Let's go," I took them by the hands and walked down to the kitchen. Since it was the weekend, most of the family was away hunting; only Edward, Alice, me and the twins were home. Both Edward and Alice were on their laptops; Alice was shopping and I had no clue what Edward was up to.

I got out all the ingredients and let Noah and Sadie help me put their meals together. Sadie ripped up the lettuce while I helped Noah stir the meat. In one pan I put two small patties and in the other I put put some of the hamburger with taco seasoning. I quickly chopped up a tomato, slices for Sadie. Soon the meals were done and I had Sadie and Noah wash their hands and sit at the table while I put it together.

Noah put together his soft tacos and Sadie built her hamburger. I grabbed the bottle of hot sauce and watched as they each pour a liberal amount onto their meals. They, for some reason, loved it on almost everything.

They each got a glass of apple juice with their meals. I cleaned up the kitchen as they finished up. When they finished, I took their plates and told them to go ask Alice for help getting ready. They scurried off as I loaded the dishwasher.

I let my mind wander over the events of the past couple of weeks. It made my silent heart ache knowing that Sadie and Noah were in danger. Victoria was making good on her word and was causing a hurricane with her newborn army. How many people would they kill along the way to get here? How many innocent people would never get to see their families again?

But then, there was my family to worry about. Sadie and and Noah were my life. I couldn't even think of anything happening to them. I wished that there was something I could do to make them safer. The only thing to keep them safe from vampires were other vampires. Was there anything else?

Werewolves. That was the thought that jumped into my head. They were able to kill Laurent, but I didn't think the pack could handle newborns. I knew Jasper's story. Plus, the last time I had talked to Jacob he said that some in the pack were getting better at controlling their phasing. They hoped they would be able to stop soon. There was something he wasn't telling me about the pack, though. I knew that.

Jacob. My old friend. He wasn't a kid anymore. He was twenty-one and married. To Angela Weber. They had a baby on the way.

The thought made me laugh. I was the one who had introduced them before we left for Hawaii. They were both invited to Sadie and Noah's first birthday. They said 'Hi' and that was it. Not everyone was crazy about the fact that Jacob was still seventeen and Angela was nineteen and that she had broken up with her long-time boyfriend Ben Chaney.

Jacob proposed when he was eighteen and they were married by the time he was nineteen. Her parents were not thrilled that their daughter was married so young, but with Jake and Ange there was really no point in them waiting. What they had was as strong as Edward's and my relationship. Unbreakable.

With Angela knowing about the wolves and vampires, I was able to maintain my friendship with her. She took it all surprisingly well.

I was happy for my friends and also happy with the fact they were safe in Washington. But Sadie and Noah weren't safe here. Maybe I had more options than I thought. The option that was the best would also be the hardest. Could I handle it?

I finished with the dishwasher and made my way up to my bedroom where Edward was. He was still typing away on his laptop when I entered. I shut and locked the door behind me. I could hear Alice asking the kids if they wanted to go down to the beach. Having a psychic as a sister had many advantages. Once I knew they were out of the house I climbed on the bed. Edward acted as if I hadn't, still typing away. I reached over and closed the apple embellished top and set it on the floor.

Edward was sitting up, his legs stretched out and his back against the headboard. I straddled him and still received no reaction from him. His dark golden eyes weren't focused on me, but rather on the wall behind me.

I placed a kiss on his neck. "Are you mad at me?" I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"No," He said, his voice controlled.

"Did I do something," I kissed his nose.

He sighed. "No,"

I leaned back a little. "Then what's wrong," He sighed again, uncrossing his arms and placing them on my hips. Hallelujah. A reaction.

After a couple of quiet moments he spoke. "I've been thinking,"

"So have I," I said, looking away from him. His warm hand made me look at him.

"You first," he suggested.

"Well," I blew out the word with a rush of air. "I've been thinking about Sadie and Noah, of course," He nodded, "And I've been thinking about their safety and what's best for them," I took an unneeded breath. "Maybe them staying here isn't the best thing," My voice came out in a quiet, thick tone. I felt the tears in my eyes but knew they would never fall.

Edward exhaled, seeming relieved. "I've been thinking the same thing,"

That caught me by surprise. "Really?" He nodded. I never thought that Edward would let them out of his sight.

"Carlisle asked me to consider it," Ah. So that's what they were talking about last night. "And to talk to you about it," Edward's eyes became incredibly pained. "If sending them away means that we won't loose them..." He trailed off, his hands fisting the material that rested on my hips. I rested my forehead on his and tried to get as close to him as possible.

"Then we should do it," I choked out. A strangled sob escaped my mouth and Edward pulled me even closer to him. We held each other as we tried to sort through the emotions and pain that came with our decision.

Our lips found each other and we took comfort with our kisses and touches. We took our time with one another. Usually we were rushing for release, but we made this last as long as possible, trying to comfort each other for as long as possible.

I was wearing a dress and the only thing between us was my underwear and Edward's jeans. I wanted him, needed him. His jeans were removed and he slipped me out of my panties.

I took him in and went at a slow, even for a human, pace. Soft moans and growls escaped our throats as I slowly brought us to our climaxes. I fell limp against him, my head on his shoulder. We continued to hold each other.

"I love you," I whispered to him. He brushed his fingers through my hair, something he knew I loved.

"I love you, too," He ran his fingers across my scalp. "We'll get through this," I nodded against his shoulder.

***

The next day, after the twins had been put to bed, Edward and I sat down with the rest of the family.

Everyone but Alice and Carlisle looked puzzled as to why we had called a family meeting. I took a breath.

"We have made some really tough decisions regarding Sadie and Noah," I started. I tightened my grip on Edward's hand. " Edward and I think it's best if we send Sadie and Noah somewhere where Victoria will never think to look. Somewhere safer," I let out a shaky breath.

"Do they really have to go," Esme's question was rhetorical. She leaned into Carlisle, sobbing quietly.

"Where will they go," Jasper asked, his eyes troubled. I looked to Edward.

"We've talked to Carlisle about it and we think that the Irish coven would be best," Edward told them. The looks of shock were expected.

"Why not Alaska?" Emmett demanded. "At least they are vegetarians,"

"Victoria would think to look there," I explained. "She knows all about Denali thanks to Laurent,"

"How are they even going to take the fact that Sadie and Noah are hybrids," Rosalie's fist came down on the table.

I sighed. "We don't know, Rose. If they freak out, we'll have to think of somewhere else. But," I shook my head. "But I will not put my children into anymore danger," My voice came out stronger than before. "They have to be safe, even if it that means they can't be here with us,"

"Bella and I have really thought about this. We know it will be hard on all of you, but we have to do all that we can," Edward said, his voice full of finality. This wasn't a discussion.

"Liam, Siobhan and Maggie will be here tomorrow afternoon," Alice said in a far off tone. "They should take it well," She smiled sadly.

"Good," Edward stood up, pulling me up with him. "Don't worry. You will all get a chance to say goodbye." Edward and I left the room, leaving our family to their thoughts.

Once Edward and I were in our bedroom, I took a seat in the center of the bed. I looked down at my forever short nails.

"How are we going to tell them?" I whispered to Edward who stood in the corner, his arms crossed, leaning against the wall.

He exhaled noisily. "We just have to tell them the truth. They'll understand," I looked up at him and I could tell he was fighting his emotions, but I could read it in his eyes; he didn't want to do this either.

"We've never been away from them for more than a couple of days," I whispered. I couldn't find it in me to have my voice any louder than that. Edward swept me into his arms. I held onto him, sobbing quietly into his shoulder.

"I'm going to miss them so much," My voice broke.

"So am I," Edward pulled me closer to him. We stayed like that until Alice told us that we only had three hours until the Irish coven would arrive. I pulled myself out of Edward's arms, grabbing his hand and going down into Noah's room first. I picked him up and carried him into Sadie's room.

"Mommy," His bleary voice called out. "What's goin' on?" Edward woke up Sadie and pulled her into his lap. The four of us sat on Sadie's bed.

"Daddy," Sadie questioned.

"Noah, Sadie," I took a breath. "Daddy and I have something we need to talk to you about," I opened my mouth to say what I needed to, but I couldn't make the words come out. I looked to Edward and shook my head.

"Your mom and I have decided that it's too dangerous for you guys to stay here," He said, his voice even. Too controlled.

We're going away? Noah asked, letting us both hear it. There was a picture of the four of us that came along.

No, just you and Sadie, I looked into his deep eyes that were welling with tears.

"This is the only way we can be sure that both of you will be completely safe. That is the most important thing," Edward told them. Sadie had her face buried into Edward's chest, her little sobs racking her body.

"Sadie, Sadie," Edward tried to calm her. She pulled away from him and looked up at him, her face marred with tears.

"Daddy, don't you love me?" She sobbed. Edward looked like a knife went through his heart.

"Of course I do, sweetheart." He brushed down her curls.

"Then why are you sending me away? It's is because of my visions?" She wiped away her tears. Edward crushed her to him.

"No, never Sadie. Please, don't think that. We are only doing this so that you will be safe. It's not something we want to do, but we have to," Sadie seemed to calm down for the moment. I looked down at Noah. He was crying, but his tears were silent.

"Noah, honey," He looked at me and my heart broke even more.

"I understand, but I don't wanna leave you and Daddy," he tried to wipe away his tears. I lifted him into my arms and held him to me.

"I know you don't," I held down my own sobs. They needed me to be strong.

"Will you and everyone else be safe?" He asked. I smiled slightly. Of course he would be worried about everyone else.

"We'll be fine. We're strong enough to handle whatever comes," I felt him nod and calm a little more. Sadie was quiet in Edward's arms. Our eyes locked and I reached out a hand which he intertwined with his own.

After several minutes I announced that it was time for baths and to start getting ready. Edward took Noah and I handled Sadie. I didn't have to worry about packing because Alice had done it for me the night before. Though Alice could be hyper and a little crazy at times, she was the best at handling situations like this.

As I was washing out Sadie's hair she asked me, "Mommy, are you gonna miss us?"

I smiled at her. "Every second," She smiled at that. I wrapped her in a towel and carried her into her room. Since they were going to be on a plane I decided jeans would be best, but I let Sadie pick out the rest of the outfit. She looked down at the floor for a second. Her eyes snapped towards her dresser and she pulled out a light blue shirt with the Superman symbol on it. I helped her dress, putting a dark blue zip-up on her since it was colder today. I pulled her curls back with the Cullen crest bobby pins. I also slipped her necklace on.

When we were done, we met Edward and Noah in the hallway. I chuckled as I took in Noah. He was wearing a blue shirt with the Superman symbol and a dark blue hoodie.

"Did you two plan this," I asked them, smiling. They nodded. I shook my head and carried Sadie down the stairs. The family was sitting in the living room, waiting for us.

"Ten minutes," Alice said. "Their flight landed early,"

"How's it looking," Edward asked her. She was quiet, sharing her thoughts with Edward. He nodded and then turned to me. "It will be best if we talk to them first, then bring out Sadie and Noah. The photo albums would be helpful," I nodded. I set Sadie down and she went over to Emmett, climbed into his lap and held onto him.

I raced up the stairs and grabbed the bulky photo albums. I was back down in the stairs in half a second and set the books on the table. Sadie was now curled up with Rose and Noah was with Esme. We heard tires turn onto the dirt road that led to the house. Esme handed Noah to Jasper who with everyone but Carlisle, Esme, Edward and I, went out into the kitchen which was hidden from the living room.

I sat on Edward's lap as we listened to car doors shut and the quick feet going up the stairs. A quick knock echoed through out the quiet house. We stood up and Carlisle answered the door.

"Siobhan, Liam. How good to see you. And Maggie, it's been so long. Come on in," I was still a little thrown to see their burgundy eyes, but took them in. Siobhan was a large woman with a very intimidating presence. Liam was very severe and intense. Maggie was a small girl with bouncy red curls. She had a friendly smile on her face. It put me a little more at ease and I let myself smile.

"You must be Bella," Maggie stated. She came forward, holding out her hand which I shook. "We've heard a lot about you," She reminded me a bit of Alice. "Good to see you Edward," He dipped his head.

I smiled. "Yes, pleasure to meet you,"

Siobhan came forward and also held out her hand. "Bella," She smiled and I smiled back. Liam simply tipped his head at me and I smiled at him.

"So Carlisle," Siobhan started. "What was so important that you just had to tell us in person? You made it sound as if it was an emergency,"

"Actually it's something Bella and I have to tell you," Edward stated. "We have to ask something of you also, but we would appreciate if you would give us a chance to explain ourselves,"

All of their eyes became wary and they shared a look. "Go ahead Edward," Siobhan said, her voice as wary as her eyes.

He went to the table and grabbed the photo albums, handing one to each of our red eyed guests. "Start with this one," He tapped the one that held the photos of my pregnancy and the first months of Noah and Sadie's life. They opened the book and flipped through it, their eyes becoming more and more confused.

"Edward, I don't understand..." Maggie said, her voice laced with confusion. They started on the next photo album. We let them look through all of them before we said anything.

"Will someone please explain," Liam asked, speaking for the first time.

"That little girl and boy are Sadie and Noah. They are our, Edward and my, children," I started and they kept staring at me in confusion. "As you can see, I carried them and they have grown as normal human children, but they are also half vampire."

"I can't believe this," Siobhan said. "Maggie," Maggie seemed to snap out of her daze.

"They are telling the truth. I can't sense a lie," She breathed in disbelief.

"Well, I don't believe it. We should leave," Liam spoke up again.

"Would you like more proof?" Edward asked him. He looked towards the kitchen. "Sadie, Noah come on out. I want you to run to us,"

"But you said we weren't allowed to run in the house, Daddy," Sadie's voice tinkled in from the kitchen.

Edward sighed. "I know, but I'm allowing you one exception," With that Sadie and Noah ran to us; they would have been a blur to human eyes. Sadie took Edward's hand and Noah leaned back against me as I rested my hands on his shoulders.

"Oh my lord," Siobhan whispered.

"Noah, Sadie, say hello to Siobhan, Liam and Maggie. They are friends of Papa's," They both said hello. I looked up from them to the Irish coven. "Do you believe it now," I looked at Liam. His face seemed to be impassive.

"How," Was all Maggie could say.

"We have some theories," Carlisle spoke from his position next to Edward.

"You said you wanted to ask something of us," Siobhan lifted her awed gaze from Noah and Sadie to Edward.

"Yes," He started but then looked down at Sadie and Noah. "Rose, Alice," He called to them and they came in from the kitchen. "Will you take the twins upstairs," They both nodded but Noah and Sadie put up a protest.

"Daddy, I want to stay with you," Sadie pouted.

"We have to talk to our friends about something," He told her. She rolled her eyes and then turned to look at the Irish coven.

"I've been having visions of the mean vampire who doesn't like Mommy. She has made a newborn army to come and kill us. Mommy and Daddy want to send us with you guys so that me and Noah will be safe when it comes time to fight," She said all in one breath and I was left staring at her with my mouth slightly agape. I wasn't the only one.

"She really knows how to cut to the chase," Maggie chuckled. I laughed slightly.

"That she does," I turned to look at her. "Now you know,"

"They have powers," Was Siobhan's first question. I nodded and told Sadie and Noah to demonstrate. Sadie went first. She focused on the vase that sat on the coffee table. She lifted it and made it move about the room, finally letting it land on Maggie's head. Maggie lifted it off and set it back on the table.

"Amazing," She smiled.

"Noah," Edward gestured for him to go next. Noah bit his lower lip and suddenly Siobhan was moving and embraced Liam. Liam seemed surprised as did Siobhan.

"What happened?" They asked.

"I can control minds," Noah said in a quiet voice. "I made you do that," The shock that covered their faces was almost funny.

"Extraordinary," Siobhan finally said.

"Sadie has also been having visions as of late," I explained.

"You're children are quiet amazing. I don't doubt that they are yours. Little Noah looks like a copy of his father," Siobhan continued. "The green eyes though..."

"My eyes when I was human," Edward told them. They nodded.

"Are we gonna go with you?" Noah asked them,looking at Maggie. She turned to Siobhan and Liam.

"Do the Volturi know of them?" Maggie asked. We all had taken seats. Edward and I on the couch with Sadie and Noah in our laps with Carlisle and Esme next to us. Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper and Alice took seats on the other couch, leaving the Irish coven the love seat and chair.

"No," Edward shook his head. "That is another reason we want to send them somewhere safe. This newborn army is creating a media storm and the Volturi are sure to come and investigate. We don't want them to know about Noah and Sadie for as long as possible."

"Understandable," Maggie said.

"But taking them puts us at risk with the Volturi," Liam said.

"I would not fret over that," Carlisle disagreed. "Aro wouldn't come here himself, so they would never know of your involvement with us,"

"Siobhan, we should do this. We should help the Cullens," Maggie pleaded with the leader of the coven. Siobhan closed her eyes and took a breath.

"Their scent is not appealing," She noted. "They smell good but not in an appetizing way," She chuckled. I noticed Sadie and Noah share a look.

After a couple of thoughtful moments, Siobhan's eyes opened. They were shimmering with light. "We would love to have Sadie and Noah for a visit,"

Two feelings raged inside of me at that moment. The first was happiness that Sadie and Noah would be safe. I was so grateful to the Irish coven for accepting to babysit for the time being. They would be protected and I wouldn't lose them for eternity.

The second emotion was my heart break. Sadie and Noah had never been away from me for more than two days, how would I handle days and possibly weeks without them? I was willing letting them out of my sight.

I hugged Noah to me and leaned my forehead on the back of his head. I inhaled his scent. Sweet and clean. He turned around and hugged me.

"It'll be okay, Mommy," He placed his hands on my cheeks. He always ended up comforting me. I smiled at him and kissed his forehead. Sadie crawled over to me and I made room for her on my lap. They both hugged me and I kissed both of them.

"You two have to take care of each other, alright?" I told them, making them look at me. They nodded and I pulled them towards me again.

After what seemed to be only minutes, Edward told me that it was time for them to go. I released them, keeping a hold on their hands. I helped them into their coats and then passed them off to Edward who easily lifted them both into his arms. Their bags were already in the car.

He set them down and they went around saying goodbye to their aunts, uncles and grandparents.

They came back to Edward and I. We hugged them both, whispering I love yous. Edward helped them into the car, buckling them into the backseat with Maggie.

The car drove off with Sadie and Noah waving to us from the backseat. It took everything I had to stay rooted in my spot, to not go after the car, stopping it, ripping the door off and getting my babies back.

Once we heard that they were on the highway, I collapsed into Edward's arms, sobbing. How was I going to survive this?

AN: Hey everyone! The song is from Paramore's new album, brand new eyes, which comes out on Tuesday!

So don't kill me for this chapter. I can imagine the reviews now, OMG! You crazy retard! Why would you send Sadie and Noah away??!!?

Believe me, I have my reasons. We will get chapters in their POVs. Don't worry.

Speaking of reviews, the last chapter only got 10 reviews. What the heck guys? The first three got 50 reviews each. When I posted the last chapter fanfiction was a bit on the fritz, so maybe that was it. So let me hear you! Give me your opinions. What do YOU think? Let me know.

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