Disclaimer: So this song is entitled Tongue Tied by Faber Drive. Listen to it when you get a chance. Trust me, It's awesome
Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Here I am, lying down in my hotel room bed, thinking about him. Him. The reason for my new smiles. The reason for my sudden outbursts of emotion. Isn't it ironic? I have been trained to steel myself and to not show emotions by the best but I wonder how they will react when they find out their lessons weren't that foolproof. That the weakness is a certain shy, well-meaning, and adorably handsome nerd. The person who never fails to make me laugh and at the same time makes me want to pull my hair out.
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?
Turning on my side, I remembered a conversation that happened only a few hours ago. It was a conversation I couldn't forget. It happened in this room and I can still hear his voice echoing in the walls…
"…I'm tired Sarah. I'm tired of this double life. I'm tired of lying to Ellie. I can see her hurting…"
"..I can't pretend that I don't feel anything for you. I just want to know, do you care for me? Even just a little bit?"
I stared at Chuck. My mind was screaming Yes! But my agent side was controlling it so I was stuck. I was hoping he could see the love that I know is shining through my eyes. They were telling him to wait till I am ready. Ready to give it all up for him.
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
Sighing. I was about to tell him. I was this close to telling him. But then his stupid damned phone rang. I ignored his babbling about the reason why he was leaving, 3 words only occupied my mind. I love you. I love you. So intent was I on my thoughts that I was surprised to hear the door close. Looking at the door, I whispered to my room, " I love you." Too bad he wasn't there to hear it.
I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?
Giving up on the prospect of sleep, I stood up and walked to the window. I looked at the Burbank night sky. It's so pretty. I know that Chuck is looking at the same night sky right now and maybe, just maybe, he is thinking of me. A few hours without you and I miss you already. Damn you and your stupid lovable self.
I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
Everytime I think of you, I say those three words out loud. To myself, convincing myself that by practicing saying it out loud I might finally be able to say it to your face. Looking up, "I love you." Smiling to myself because of how good it felt, I say it a little louder…"I love you!" Smiling hugely, I shouted: " I love you Chuck Bartowski! And I can't wait for you to hear it!"
I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again
I am aware that if I tell you my feelings you will be so happy but there might be some people who wouldn't be as happy. General Beckman. Somehow, I know that she is aware of my very compromised state. I know that we will be in a lot of trouble if I voice out those feelings. I just hope you are ready Chuck Bartowski because from now on. I'm gonna be fighting for us. I don't care about General Beckman, Fulcrum, and The Ring. All I need is you. And I say bring it on.
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time
Wait for me Chuck. Wait for me. Smiling as I finally arranged my thoughts in place, I slipped back in bed and drifted of to dreamland with thoughts of my future with a certain curly haired nerd with his heart-stopping grin.
NB:
titsiebabes, thank you for your dedication of your first bite of siomai, first strip of noodle and first tabo of water and for that I dedicate this story to you. Hahaha! I dedicate my first letter to you! Hahaha!
Salvy, I hope you like this! Imagine! 2 chapters in one day! Awesome!
LittleBloodyJ/Jenna, I hope you are reading this.