Hey people. What's up? Ok, so I want to be friends with everyone so you can message me anytime to say what's up or anything you like! You can give me suggestions, or just chill. I'm cool with it. so yeah. KEEP REVIEWING!

ellie

Now we continue with a disclaimer.

(2 knocks on the door)

Jasper: im coming!

(Answers door)

Alex: what's up dude?

Jasper: nothing much. But meet my friend bella.

Me: holy shit you're hot. (slap my hand over my mouth)

Alex laughs.

Alex: your emo hot.

Emmett: that's what me Edward and jasper told her! But she doesn't have a boyfriend and she wants someone emo.

Alex: im emo.

Me: I know (sighs dreamily.)

Edward: I want to be emo now.

Bella: so do i.

Emmett: ME 2!!

Rose: your too happy to be emo Emmett.

Emmett: so!

(rose sighs.)

Me: I love 4 people now.

Emmett jasper Edward and alex: 4???? WHO??!!

Me: the jonas brothers. IM KIDDING! I hate those people. No offence Emmett. And I love you 4.

Edward: DO YOU LOVE ME OR ALEX? PICK!

Me: why do you care?

Edward:… I don't.

Me: I love rose Bella and Alice more than you 4.

Alice: cuz were her home girls.

Rose: her peeps.

Bella: so don't go scuffin up my white nikes cuz you jealous.

Me: I thought we were emo not rapper.

Rose Alice and Bella: oh right.

Gotta love em.

Edward: THIS IS A SEXY DISCLAIMER!

Emmett: sexy?

Edward: yes. Don't you think so jasper?

Jasper: yes I do.

Alex: do you want to go out ellie?

Ellie: HELL NO H2O! I still love my people. Sorry. Now leave before I call my friend nikki and have her give you a paper cut in front of jasper.

(alex runs out.)

(we all have a group hug)

BPOV

It was midnight when I had my phone silently buzz me awake. I then put on my red skinny jeans and Emily the strange tee and then my converse after taking a shower and applying by black eyeliner. I then put my IPOD in my pocket and then put my fingerless, red and black striped gloves on and jumped out the window and into the tree then up into Edwards open window.

Do I like Edward?

I didn't know.

But once I was in his room I saw him sitting there on his bed he then looked up at me and glared. Whoa. Talk about mood swings.

"what do you want?" he growled.

"y-you told me to come here at night…remember?" I ask quietly.

He then stands up and rushed towards me. I coward down getting flashbacks of Charlie and whimper. His face sobered up.

"im sorry bella. The pills I take make me act…different." He whispers.

I wouldn't talk. I couldn't.

"Bella?" he asks.

Pills? Oh right. The anti depressants.

"Bella?! Look at me please." He says. I continue to stare at the ground. I then rush to his bathroom and close the door. I then lock it.

I hear him call my name. but I look into his cabinets and see the pills. I grab them. I then stuff them into my pocket in my jacket.

I then go out.

"bella?! What the fuck is wrong?" he asks angrily.

"why are you depressed Edward?" I ask.

"what do you mean?" he asks.

"don't fucking lie to me dammit. I have seen the fucking pills." I say. He clenches his jaw.

"that's a story for next time Bella." He says through clenched teeth.

"why?" I ask angrily.

"because." He says.

"what you don't trust me enough? Well you know what?!" I then take out a razor from my jeans and put it to my wrist.

" bella don't." he says more angrily.

"all I have left is rose and jasper. That's all. My fathers a rapist, my moms in a coma, but the bitch didn't pay attention to me nor rose anyways so I deserve to die." I then cut. Once I cut deep, my bloody hands dropped the razor.

Edward rushed to me and gently grabbed my hand and brought me to his bed.

"fuck bella! Are you on a suicide mission or some shit?! Damn!" he asks.

"yes." I say.

He then goes to his bathroom and comes out with a mini first aid kit. He cleans the wound up then gets his black bandanna and warps it around my wrist.

"I don't have a bandage. I used the last one. Sorry." He whispers not looking at me. I nod. I liked having his bandanna better.

Then I started to feel dizzy from the blood loss. I did cut deep.

I swayed a little and then my vision went blurry and I fell to the floor.

"bella?!" Edward called my name but I was already lost in unconsciousness

______________________________________________________________________5 hours later.

I woke up and I was in my bed fully clothed. What happened last night? Then I saw the bandana on my wrist. Oh. Shit. I went all emo on him!

I then put in my IPOD ear buds and then put on let the flames begin by paramore I then bobbed my head side to side. Then rose entered the room and had her IPOD with her.

Rose looked gorgeous in her dark blue skinny jeans, the used black band tee and her buckle converse. (bella and roses outfits are on my profile) she teased her hair and did a dark black smokey eye.

She then seen me and smiled sadly. Something was wrong.

I didn't address it because it was her business not mine. And if she really needed to tell someone I would be the first person for her to go to and she knows that.

The jasper burst through the door angry as hell. He was almost steaming. That's unlike jasper.

I take the ear buds out my ears.

"jasper? Whats…" he cut me off.

"shut it Bella." He growled. My eyes widened. He never talked to me like that before. Tears welled in my eyes, threatening to spill over.

"JASPER HALE SWAN! GET YOUR SCRAWNY ASS DOWN HERE!" Charlie shouted slurring.

Jasper then turned, giving me the chance to see the fat ass bruise on his face. HOLY SHIT! Charlie beat Jasper!

But, being Jasper, he was still loyal to his guardian. Even if he beat and raped his sisters. I gave rose a questioning look.

"I came back from Emmett's house and dad was still here. Jasper defended me when he hit me." she says. I nod.

"he's just shocked that he hit him." She says. I just nod once more. Then jasper returned up here as calm as the wind.

"sorry I exploded at you bella…I…I j-just…" I cut him off by running and giving him a hug.

"its okay jasper." I say. He nods.

Then I seen what he was wearing. Black skinny jeans, a my ac dc tee and his converse. (outfit on profile)

Once we all finished getting ready for school we went into jaspers chevelle.

Once we got to school, I went to my locker and took out my books. Then I felt someone gropping my ass. Newton. I turned around and he pushed me up against the lockers.

"get off me!" I yelled.

"you know you want me." he says.

Then his hand slides up my shirt and almost under my bra. But that's when JASPER tackled Newton to the ground.

"TOUCH HER AGAIN AND ILL FUCKING KILL YOU!" He shouted. And as we was leaving Newton shouted

"hey, who battered your face? There my best friend. I hope they finish you off." That's when I tackled him and started to punch and kick. i realized my hand and knuckles were raw with no flesh on them and so I stopped and kicked him once more.

"Stay the fuck away from my brother and sister Newton." I say menacingly. I then get up and go to the bathroom.

Rose followed me in.

"holy hell you battered his face! Im proud!" she says. She starts to take off my bandana before I pull my hand back. She looked confused. Then realization caught up.

"you fucking didn't! did you? Show me your wrist bella." She says. I take it off. she eyes it then puts it back on.

"you cant keep doing this Bella. You…you just cant. Im going to stop playing mom and let you figure out this one on your own. If you need me. give me a ring." She says before she exits the bathroom. I drag my bloody hand down my face smearing black makeup and blood down my cheeks.

What am I going to do with myself?

What is bella going to do? Okay I want YOU to decide!

go see Charlie…alone.

Go on a rampage with jaspers motor cycle

Find out Edwards past by sneaking in the school.

Get into a bloody fight

YOU CHOOSE! I NEED 5 VOTES! SO REVIEW!

Ellie