Hello!

I like to say that I apologize if the chapters are to short or it seems rush but hang in there with me this story is far from over

plus if anyone sees Donnie please return him

thank you

now on with the story!

I've been gone for five days. They must be freaking out looking for me but I can't return yet so I stop by April's and Casey's. I look through the window I don't see anyone but the TV on plus the windows unlock I walk through the window to have a kitchen knife fly pass me and into the wall"Oh my god Raph I'm sorry I thought someone was breaking in...WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN" April screeches at me.

I shrug "places". "Do you know everyone been all around New York looking for you Casey at your place right now...and poor Leos a wreck" "...why what's wrong with him"I plop down on the couch and lower my head "He not eating or sleeping he out looking for you half the time...he even yelled at Splinter"

That's a shock

"Raph...what happen"Memories of that morning flash through my head"I let my feeling for Leo get the best of me...I kissed him and I freak out and ran..."I get a sharp pain in the back of my head "OW WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR"

she towers over me with a wooden spoon in hand"You ran because you basically told him your feelings I thought that was the plan from the get go""But he's going to hate me April I can't live with that""You won't have to..he'll understand trust me" I sigh again.

"Well..I'm not quite ready to go home yet...can I crash here just for tonight" she sigh pinching the bridge of her nose "sure fine..but I gotta get some stuff from the store you can have the couch" she says as she starts to put on her jacket and grab her keys "I'll be back in an hour...make yourself conformable" I watch her leave the apartment I laid back on the couch and started to flip through the channels

(Narrator POV)

As April made her way down the hallway she fisted through her jacket pocket and brought out her cell she began to punch in numbers and held it to her ear till she heard a voice "hey Case...yeah its Raph...he at the apartment..."

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(Raph POV)

I don't know what time it is but I must have been out for a while it dark out I stretch out... I gotta piss... as I make my way from the bathroom something doesn't feel right "April?" she said she only be gone a hour I shrug it off and make my way back to the couch I start flipping through the channels when I'm tapped on the shoulder I turn to have a fist collide with my face throwing me across the room

I rub my cheek I'm in a daze I hear Aprils door open and a gasp then sound of feet running around the place I finally come to to see Mikey Casey and Donnie holding back a very pissed Leo

"Leo we said to not do anything rash!"Donnie says trying to control our enrage older brother "let go of me!" Never have I seen him so mad not even at me I get up the best I can shaking my daze but then a body tackles me to the ground.

And a fist hits me again "you fucking asshole!" I finally manage to block his attacks and throw him off of me I wipe the blood from my lip "L-Leo let me explain"

he gets up looks as if he ready to attack me again his fist are clench "WHY SHOULD I HOW COULD YOU DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND LEAVE! HOW COULD YOU I...I" please don't..."I HATE YOU I DISOWN YOU AS MY BROTHER"

my world just broke I lost him I feel the tears run down my cheek I hear Donnie speaking but I don't know what he's saying I feel so empty I feel myself move I'm in front of him I look him in the eyes and let the tears pool "tell me you don't mean that"

he turns his head from me but I grab him by the face and force him to look at me "TELL ME YOU DON'T FUCKING MEAN IT!"he slaps my hands from his face and turns his back on me and makes his leave I drop to my knees as the tears pool from my eyes then everything goes dark

(Narrator POV)

let the tears spill from his eye his face emotionless he was traped within himself "R-Raph.." Mikey shook his brother and got no response "cmon d-dude your scaring m-me" it was no use Raph was not there lost in his own mind

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They got him back and set him
on the couch he still wore the emotionless mask the tears dried up on his face Master Splinter approached his son laying a paw on his shoulder "Raphael...my son answer me" nothing Master Splinter let a sigh escape his mouth that's when Raph shot up startling everyone

"R-Raph" Donnie said worriedly but was ignored as he made his way to his bedroom and closed the door Master Splinter scratch his temple "where is Leonardo my sons" Mikey shrug his shoulders looking at Raphs door then drop his head making his leave to his room as well

"I don't believe he came home yet Master Splinter now if you excuse me" Donnie makes his way to his younger brothers messy room he looks to the bed to see a sadden Mikey "I don't like to see them like this Donnie" Donnie could see the tears form behind his brothers eyes he makes his way to him sitting next to him he reaches over and grabs his hand which is squeezed back in return Donnie brings his other hand to his brothers cheek

"Mikey..love look at me" his brother turns to him blue eyes spilling out tears "they'll find there way through this together trust me when I says this" he wipe the tears from his eyes then leans in kissing his brother who entwines his arms around Donnie neck they pull from the kiss resting they're foreheads together "I love you dude" Mikey says with a cheeky grin "I love you to.."

(AN:yay! Some Donnie Mikey goodness :D)

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Leo walk through the entrance his eyes puffy and red he was making his way to his room when stop by Master Splinter "Leonardo may we speak" Leo look back and forth between his room and Master

"yes sensai.." .. "My son I heard of your disownment of your brother" Leo stayed quiet head low "he's not talking you do know this" still silence "Leonardo...explain to me what bothers you" still nothing Splinter let a sigh escape his lips as he makes his leave

"my son I know this much your disownment to your brother affect Raphael deeply...yes he ran but for the fact he was scared to lose the one he loves.."

Leo head shot up to look at his sensai tears start to fall from his eyes "what do I do I'm scared myself how can I have such feeling for my own brother...why does it hurt so much I don't know what to do"

Splinter made his way to his oldest son stroking his tear stained cheek"the answer lies within you and Raphael" "you..you aren't disgusted by these feelings.." A small cuckle escape his lips "Donatello said the same thing when I found out the relationship between him and Michelangelo"

Leo mouth drop to the floor "but like I told him we can not help who we fall in love with you are my sons and I accept you no matter what"with that he made his leave

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Its been three days and Raph has yet to come out of his room it scared his two younger brothers at how dead he look his eyes was an endless void of darkness Mikey slam the door to his brother room making his way to Leos he open the door "what the shell Mik-" he was push up against the wall roughly

"GOD DAMMIT LEO HE'S DIEING YOU HAVE TO SAVE HIM...you have to" tears slip from his eyes Leo wrap his arms around is littlest brother "I'm sorry Mikey...I...I just need time" Mikey shoved his brother from him "whatever dude" and made his leave 'this is all tearing us apart'

Leo found himself meditating 'what do I do..what do I do...what do I want' memories of Raph flooded his mind how he held him look at him fought with him laugh smiled cried "...I know" he open his eyes to have a single tear cascaded down his cheek...

ok I found Donnie hiding under my bed!

Erie: you know for a ninja you sure suck at hiding

Donnie: shut up R&R bitches!