A/N: So, after a semi-bad day and after reading the comments left so far, I've decided to continue this. Hopefully it works out well; writing seems to leave me in a better mood. Going to stick to James' PoV, Kames and all that good stuff.

Disclaimer: Still don't won anything

Everything's Gonna Be Fine - Gabe Lopez

I was so confident he felt the same way about me, that he loved me. How could I have been so wrong? Then again, how could I believe that he would love me; he was so desperate to make Jo his girlfriend, I should have known there was no chance he was gay.

But still, he didn't have to do that. Just saying he didn't feel the same would have been fine, but this, this was just unbearable.

"Hey James, are you in here? Carlos said that you an - Oh my God, James what's wrong?" Leave it to Logan to find me, on the floor, hair and face looking as if I had been thrown in the pool downstairs.

"H - He told m -me he… That I - I'm…" was all I managed to get out before breaking down again. It was just too much to relive the look on Kendall's face, a mix of horror and despair, as he stared blankly at me.

"James, just calm down, everything's gonna be fine. Just tell me what happened," Logan whispered as he sat down beside me and pulled me into his lap.

"I kissed Kendall."

Through With You - Maroon 5

"And?" Apparently my summary wasn't enough for Logan. I had hoped he could figure everything out with that oversized brain of his. Why can't he be smart when I need him to be?

"A - and he just stared at me. Then h - he freaked out and left. He yelled that he was through with me and he j - just ran out the door and sl -slammed it." I broke down into sobs again. Just thinking about it hurt so much.

"Oh James, I'm so sorry. If I had any idea he would do this…" But we both knew there was nothing Logan could have done.

Out of My Mind - James Blunt

Three days later and I hadn't left my room once. Logan had enlisted Carlos and reformed the Lucky Patrol, changing the name to the James Patrol. They thought it was their job to take care of me.

"You know, you two don't have to do this. Just leave me in here alone, I'll be fine," I tried to reason with them. I wanted nothing more than to just sleep, all day and all night. Who knew that being rejected took so much out of you?

Carlos patted me on the shoulder knowingly. "Right, like we could leave you alone in here and act like nothing was wrong. Besides," he leaned in close to my ear, "I think Logan might try to kill Kendall if he had the chance." Leave it to Carlos to find a way to make me laugh even now.

"You know I can hear you, and just because I 'accidentally' tripped him that one time doesn't mean I was trying to kill him. But his head did get really close to the counter." Here I am, wallowing in depression and my friends are trying to kill the guy that I love and caused all of it.

"I still need new friends…" Even though they could tell I was being sarcastic, it still earned me a pillow to the face from both of them.

A Sentimental Man - Wicked Soundtrack

"Hey! Just because I don't plan on leaving my room doesn't mean you can mess up my hair!" Thank God I managed to get a mirror installed in my room when we had 2J made over. I don't think I could chance an encounter with him.

Logan came over and sat beside me. He had been sitting on my desk reading some book. As he sat down, I noticed the front said something about Arsenic. I wasn't going to ask. "You know, I don't think I've ever heard the story about your Lucky Comb."

"Yea," Carlos agreed, nodding too fast and slinging him helm across the room. "Oh crap, my helmet! Hey, how about you tell us about your comb and I'll tell you about my helmet."

I had to agree, I was curious about where his helmet came from. "Ok, well my comb is the reason I want to be famous. When I was little, I never really cared about singing. But then I ran into some guy on the street, running from a crowd of screaming people. The comb fell out of his jacket and I grabbed it before it was trampled."

"Well that's not very exciting…" Carlos was pouting now. He didn't think my story was as epic as the story about his helmet. For the second time in the past few days, he managed to make me laugh.

"Well I guess I'm just sentimental. I guess seeing that many people so fascinated with someone made me want to be famous too. Oh, and did I mention the guy was Justin Timberlake?"

"WHAT?" That got both of their attentions.

Good Enough - Evanescence

After another few days of being stuck in a room with both Carlos and Logan invading my personal space, I decided to give in to their demands that we go out and do something. They kept telling me that I could get any guy I wanted, and that Kendall wasn't worth all this.

"C'mon James, you know you just so pretty that anyone would be glad to have you kiss them!" Carlos called from under a pile of clothes. He was the last of us to get ready; and I had taken an hour to get my hair just right.

"So you two keep telling me. But why wasn't I - I don't know - good enough for him?" I was trying not to think about this. I couldn't cry again, it would take another hour to fix everything.

"Aw Jay, it wasn't you, it was him who isn't good enough for you," Logan encouraged me as he sat down beside me.

Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! - Mamma Mia Soundtrack

So here I am, in one of the hottest clubs in L.A. and all I can think of is him. Even with all these people, and the music, and the lights, I can't distract my mind from those mornings with him.

"Jaaaaaaames, you promised not to pout the whole night! C'mon," and with that, Carlos ripped me out of my thoughts and onto the dance floor.

Wow, there's a lot less space down here that I thought there was. I was about to head back to the table when I felt someone tap me on the shoulder.

"Hey there, wanna dance?" I bit back the smartass remark about us already dancing and simply smiled. We came here to have a good time, I'll be damned if I was going to leave without enjoying myself. And turning around to a guy with a face that could rival mine was all the motivation I needed.

"Sure, but first, I'm James. And you are?" I was nearly shouting in his ear to be heard, but he smiled at me and mouthed Adam. Or something close to it; his mouth distracted me from what he was saying.

Numbers - Basshunter

Next thing I knew, I was the center of attention. By the time I finally got back to our table, Logan and Carlos had already found their way back, exhausted from all the excitement.

"Ok, this was a good idea," I exclaimed as soon as I was close enough for them to hear me. "I think my cell is full of contacts now."

"Well, look at who got over his depression! We told you all you needed was a night out."

Sweetest Goodbye - Maroon 5

But the fun was over when we got home. It was late, but even then the apartment should not have been this quiet. The three of us walked in cautiously, expecting people to jump out and yell surprise or try to kidnap us.

"Uh, Mama Knight? Katie? Anyone home?" Logan was slowly walking around the apartment, trying to figure out what had happened. Carlos had gone to look through the bedrooms for a sign of where everyone had gone.

"Oh God, Logan, come quick," Carlos yelled from somewhere. Logan was closer than me and beat me to the door and froze, stopping me from seeing what was wrong.

"What is it? Logan, move, I can't s - hey stop pushing me…" Logan had suddenly come to life and pushed me into my room and shut the door.

"Is th… -cide note? But… he do th… Look…" This didn't sound good. Wait, why am I still in here? The door locks from this side. But I should've stayed in my room.

'I'm so sorry James. I should never have yelled at you. I love you; it just scared me that you might feel the same for me. And now I find you in some club dancing with all those guys… I just can't stand it anymore. After seeing you go through all that and now… Goodbye.'

Waiting - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Carlos was the first to notice me reading the note over Logan's shoulder. His eyes went wide and grabbed the note from Logan's grip.

"Carlos, what the - Oh no, James, did you see that?" I heard him, but I couldn't understand him. Everything was spinning. Then next thing I knew, everything went black.

I woke up to strange music and suddenly being tossed around. What just happened…? I remembering going home and then… "KENDALL!"

Then Logan was there. "James, calm down. We're going to see him. I called Mama Knight and Katie answered," he paused. He was on the verge of tears. "She said they are at the hospital and that the doctors aren't telling them anything about…"

We sat in silence the rest of the way. I couldn't believe that was happening. Here I thought I had been through everything, and now I was having everything taken away from me again.

And now I know how people can be so scared of hospital waiting rooms.

Snow White Queen - Evanescence

It took them 4 hours. Four hours to stop the bleeding and get enough blood back into him to make sure he was going to live. Four hours of complete life shattering chaos.

Finally they let Mama Knight go back to see him. At first they told us only she could go, but Logan, still being somehow able to think clearly, talked some doctor talk and got them to let the two of us go with Mrs. K. Carlos had to stay with Katie; she was way too young to deal with this.

And then I saw why they didn't want us to see him. He was so white that he almost blended in with the sheets. The only color came from the blood on the two bandages up both of his arms. Even his hair seemed to have lost all of its color.

And that's when it all set in. And I broke down.

A/N: Er, so where did that come from? I don't really know, I just started and here we are. So what does everyone think, angst overload?

Oh, and you want another chapter, review and tell me! I am not above black mail! Muahahaha.