We don't own… we borrow!

Chapter 5: The secrets of the Past.

EmPOV

My stare was intense. I was not happy to hear about this. Edward is such a fucking cock block. I'm going to kill the fucker.

I search Bella's face for a change in her expression. Her hurting gaze fixes itself on the floor. I glide over to where she was standing as I feel a sense of compassion for her.

"Bella Baby, I'm so sorry I yelled at you. I just love you so much and hearing about another guy touching you just brings out the worse in me. I remember how you told me I was the first guy to touch you the way I do, and—" I explain myself, as she cuts me off.

"Stop, stop, stop. Just listen, you are the first guy to TOUCH me the way you do. I feel your love for me in every single touch, brush, graze, squeeze, I feel it all. I love you so much. He didn't touch me the way you touch me." She ended it with a kiss as a tear ran down her cheek.

I lifted her up the bridal way and moved to the couch cradling her in my lap. "Now, Lucy, you got some 'splainin' to do." Getting a laugh out of her.

"I have you right here in my arms, I'm here just for you Baby, only you." I say kissing her cheek right where a tear sat.

Letting out a huff she starts out. "Well it was about, 2 months before we started dating and Rose had gone for her morning jog and Dad had already left for the station." She stopped to make sure I was listening. I nodded acknowledging her every word.

"And Edward was staying with us for the week til classes were back in session. I went down stairs to the kitchen like any normal day." I nod as she looks down at her hands. My mind picturing her getting up, looking so beautiful in the morning. "He was sitting in the kitchen reading the paper. I decided I didn't want to be near him so I grabbed a pop tart, exchanging good mornings, Then turned to go upstairs. 'Where you off to?' he asked. 'Shower' I replied as I slammed my bedroom door. I grabbed my clothes and went into the bathroom. I stepped into the shower and heard something strange but ignored it. Then there was a knock on the door. 'Almost done, I'll be right out Rose.' Obviously thinking it was Rose." She looked up to search my face.

"It's ok Baby, I'm right here." I assure her. I gave her a little squeeze and whisper, "I'm not going to ever leave you until you want me gone."

She gave me a weak smile and continued, "Then I heard the bathroom door close, 'Rose I'm almost done.' I said a little peeved that she would come in without permission. Next thing I know I'm being thrown out of the shower and dragged into my room. He had a tight grip on me, threw me on my bed, he tore off his pants and thrust himself deep inside me. I wiggled and pushed, shoved and squealed trying to get him off, which only made his grips tighter and his thrusts harder. I screamed in pain, he thought that I was falling, so he finished in 3 agonizing thrusts and came in me. I felt dirty. All throughout this ordeal he is telling me to except this, enjoy it, and be thankful that he was even wasting his time with me."

At this point, tears are streaming down her face as she chokes back the sobs. I smooth her hair down her back and give her a tight squeeze.

"I keep blaming myself for just laying there and letting him do all those things to me, but after he finished he pulled his pants up and walked out like nothing happened. I laid in bed crying the whole day, I didn't eat anything for the next couple days as I let the pain consume me, waiting for them to leave. Then every 2 days after they left he would text me about the next time and what he'd do. Do you remember how I could only hug you and hold your hand for the first couple months? I was afraid that you were like him. Obviously I was wrong." She said drying the tears.

By this point my fists we clenched, I listened to her until she was finished with her story. We turned on the TV and Bella fell asleep on my chest. I didn't watch the TV much, I mostly zoned, trying to figure out ways to kill fucktard. Just as I zone back to watch ESPN I hear a buzz.

BUZZ, BUZZ BUZZZZ, BUZZ…

If you haven't realized Shelby hates Edward… as do I…. See you next week