Hello again. This is my third chapter part I. Now you get to hear my little Naruto and Reiko rant about some semi-depressing things and stuff. Actually, this one's not that depressing compared to other ones so yeah. Well, I hope you enjoy it and I really apologize for sucking in writing. I always was and I doubt that's going to change anytime soon so I might just as well show the world how much I suck. Really, it's not like people's actually going to praise my writing since I already know I suck. Anyways, when you're done reading, just press the blue link/button and tell me how much this story sucked or something. Or maybe after you read the next two parts of this chapter to see if I improve or not (which I don't except probably the second part since most of that part if not all are written by this awesome person BlackPANDA xD but I bet your faces will be crestfallen after reading the third part so if you don't want to, then don't read it. It really saves a lot of trouble.)
Disclaimer: The plot for this chapter and next couple chapters do NOT belong to me. They belong to BlackPANDA xD and the only part that belongs to me is the Reiko's part of the part I and every chapter's part III. Also, I changed a little bit of the Naruto's part but mostly are written by BlackPANDA xD. Also, I do NOT own Naruto and the only character I own so far are Reiko and couple characters that I'm going to introduce in part III. But, they are not really that important so until now, Reiko's the only main character that I own.
-Kaerelie Cecilia, the keeper and guardian of B1aCk RoSE
The Truth - Chapter 3: What's Wrong?
"Opinions are like assholes, everybody's got one and they stink." - Frank Zappa
"It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for a good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that's dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It's so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can't say the things you want to." - Henry Rollins
"There are days when solitude is a heady wine that intoxicates you with freedom, others when it is a bitter tonic, and still others when it is a poison that makes you beat your head against the wall." - Sidonie Gabrielle
III
Karasu, my bodyguard. He was weird, always silent and gloomy. How stereotypical of an Uchiha. I don't know how I didn't see it before. But Karasu is more than a stereotype. As you'll soon learn, he has loyalty far surpassing most of the shinobi. Loyalty usually only found in a Hokage. Because a Hokage would willingly sacrifice his life for the village. Karasu has done that and much more.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if he wasn't as loyal. If he was more power hungry and more willing to do anything for that power. But I'd scoff and dismiss that idea. Because an evil Karasu is just not Karasu anymore. The only chance of that happening is if he became mentally insane after his first A-rank assassination mission. I'm surprised he hasn't cracked at that time. He was 5 years old.
Also, I met a girl and no it's not what you think it is. She entered my life and along with Karasu, she made my world upside down. Sure I have heard about the legendary Masked Kunoichi of Eternal Blades, but who would ever have expected the 'legend' to be a mere girl? Morever, the girl was two years younger than me.
She was secretive and sometimes I wondered if she had any emotions. She seemed like a puppet with blank face and expressionless eyes, but as time went on, she started to show more emotions. She even laughed once. Only just couple weeks ago, I was adamant in the fact that I would be hated and lonely forever, but now… I'm not quite so sure.
Now, I have a group of people who actually give a shit about me. The girl who introduced herself to me as Fenikkusu, Karasu, Kano, and this guy who told me that he was my godfather, Jiraiya. For the first time, I felt loved and I liked the feeling. No, I simply loved it and yearned for it. They gave me a new goal: to protect them with all my life. I would do anything for them and I mean anything.
Fenikkusu told me that she became an ANBU at very young age and her sensei had her kill all her emotions. She had her first kill when she was two and if you ask me, I'm totally flabbergasted that she didn't go insane. You know, I wonder how I'll feel when I have my first kill. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.
And Kano? He's just weird.
-Naruto
"What loneliness is more lonely than distrust?" - T. S. Eliot
"Who knows what true loneliness is - not the conventional word but the naked terror? To the lonely themselves it wears a mask. The most miserable outcast hugs some memory or some illusion." - Joseph Conrad
"Maybe this is why so many serial killers work in pairs. It's nice not to feel alone in a world full of victims or enemies. It's no wonder Waltraud Wagner, the Austrian Angel of Death, convinced her friends to kill with her. It just seems so natural. You and me against the world..." - Chuck Palahniuk
"I am afraid to show you who I really am, because if I show you who I really am, you might not like it - and that's all I got." - Sabrina Ward Harrison
"The whole value of solitude depends upon one's self; it may be a sanctuary or a prison, a haven of repose or a place of punishment, a heaven or a hell, as we ourselves make it." - John Loobock
Karasu was always aloof. He separated himself from everyone, including his teammates. I always wondered why but then, I decided that it really didn't matter. For once, I felt wanted. Karasu, despite his oddities, showed that he cared about me in many different ways. He took me out to have lunch with him and acted like my big brother, all protective and stuff. He was always silent but I knew that he cared. I could sense his feelings and knew that despite his emotionless exterior, he cared about things more than I've ever felt anybody care.
Karasu made me feel again. He roused up the deadened feelings lying dormant inside me and made me human again. I learned what caring was and I'm glad that Karasu took me away from ANBU Root. Now that I know what emotions are, I don't want to ever let go of them again. I refuse, I refuse to go back to ANBU Roots and Danzo-sama.
When I heard that Karasu got a solo mission, I was disappointed and sad. He probably will go somewhere far away and I won't be able to see him for a while. I have come to think of him as my big brother that I never had and it really hurt me to let go even for a moment. I never had much in my life and I can't bear to lose anything.
I was truly glad when I found out about the mission. The mission was only to guard a certain boy and I was relieved. Even though I wasn't suppose to know, I had my ways of figuring out and I began to follow Karasu and the boy. Boy did I know that the Karasu's mission would have changed my life. If I say Karasu was the first boy who turned my world upside down, I would say that the two boys that I met warped my vision of the world.
Who would ever have thought that such thing would happen to me. If someone had told me that I would one day meet three guys who would change my life forever, I would simply have scoffed at the idea. Actually, I would just have stared blankly since I wouldn't know what scoffing is, let alone do it. You know, meeting the three most important guys in my life, it's not exactly what you think it is. It wasn't like I was in love with any of them unless your counting loving them as one would a brother. Besides, I was way too young to feel things like that.
You know what? I don't even know why I'm even writing this. Why am I even telling you the hell of my life? I guess I just don't have anything better to do.
-Reiko
"The pain of love is the pain of being alive. It is a perpetual wound." - Maureen Duffy
"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone." - Orson Welles
"The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being. His heart withers if it does not answer another heart. His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration." - Pearl S. Buck
Thanks for enduring my story and I hope you like/liked it. I would always appreciate reviews.
-Kaerelie Cecilia, the keeper and guardian of B1aCk RoSE